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I AMness is an important realization. But just don’t get stuck there.
"Though buddha nature is plainness and most direct, these are still the steps. If one does not know the process and said ‘yes this is it’… then it is extremely misleading. For 99 percent [of ‘realized’/’enlightened’ persons] what one is talking about is "I AMness", and has not gone beyond permanence, still thinking [of] permanence, formless… ...all and almost all will think of it along the line of "I AMness", all are like the grandchildren of "AMness", and that is the root cause of duality.” - John Tan, 2007
See: Thusness/PasserBy's [John Tan's] Seven Stages of Enlightenment
There is no perceiving principle that sees the I or self. 
That's an idea of gurus.
What is called 'the sense of self' is simply a functioning of the human perspective, which is actually not a perspective at all, but merely the conceptual overlay of the brain.
There is no 'eye' behind the clouds. 
It's a chimera, including every  idea about it.
We are conceptual debris. 
We have no pure essential consciousness. 
It only appears like that. 
As the sense 'I Am' . 
That's why there is a huge spiritual market, selling tubers for lemons to I-ammers who think they are divine  presence of awareness. 
A celestial entity. 
Divine love. 
There's nothing wrong with that.
There just is no one present! 
Only wondrous jest. 
Wouter van Oord.
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Glenda Gill
In
 Buddhism is possible to see emptiness before I-Am-ness. To see one is 
nothing before one sees one is everything. I like I-Am-ness with 
emptiness (or even without it) better than emptiness without an I Am to 
fall back to.
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edited for clarity
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Soh Wei Yu
What do you mean by emptiness?
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Glenda Gill
Emptiness = no permanent, independent, singular self.
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Glenda Gill
Just arising/passing
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Glenda Gill
Not even that really
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Form
 is emptiness without emptiness is form. Stuck in void/conventional 
reality, without realizing conventional reality is part of Ultimate 
Reality, and thinking Void/nirvikalpa is Ultimate, but something feels 
missing. Does that make sense?
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F'ing mu koan.
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Glenda Gill
Maybe consult the oracle?  John Tan
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Glenda Gill
 u can take emptiness to mean primordial purity free from all 
elaborations (non-gelug) or to mean freedom from self-nature, inherent 
existence (gelug).
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Glenda Gill
Oh nice. With or without I Am, if I understand correctly?
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What I mean is, could I Am be just pushed to the background temporarily and then shift back in?
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Glenda Gill U do not need to realize clarity (I M).
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Ah yes that makes sense.
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Glenda Gill
Although realizing clarity after, I feel like the sense that I had missed something was correct.
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I
 tried to tell that to my zen teacher, that I did not understand the 
everything part, and he did not offer any guidance. Maybe that's just 
how it is in zen. I'm pretty sure he understands both.
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Glenda Gill understanding ultimate nature of ourselves, u need both.
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Yes, thank you. That was my sense of it. That thing that kept me looking for something besides emptiness.
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Glenda Gill
i ended up seeing it in Advaita 

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but it's there in the Tibetian stuff too I think
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John Tan
Glenda Gill
 yes.  U just have to strip off the "reification" part of awareness. It 
is not so possible to realize the union of clarity and emptiness in a 
single go.
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Soh Wei Yu
See this person, tsultrim tserri:
Soh Wei Yu In 2008:
(4:15 PM) AEN: tsultrim serri:
(4:15 PM) AEN: Initiated a file transfer
(4:15 PM) AEN:
(Mind
 has often been likened to a mirror, but the analogy goes only so far, 
because mirrors exist and mind doesn't, well let's say that one can 
touch mirrors. What existence means, particularly at these levels, would
 be a fruitful topic, but one that i will not cover. Also , mind doesn't
 really reflect phenomena, it is the phenomena themselves. This is 
covered further down in these 4 prajnas, but for clarity i thought i 
should mention that.
(4:15 PM) AEN:
"Thusness'
 or "suchness" is what one feels with the experience of emptiness. It is
 a solid sense of being (yes, emptiness has a solid or one could say 
rich feeling). The luminescence of mind can be compared the the surface 
of a mirror. If the mirror is dirty it doesn't have a bright surface, 
and if mind is filled with obscuration its awareness is dimmed. With the
 experience of emptiness, phenomena become more vivid. It is said in the
 post that this confirms one's entrance into Zen. In the vajrayana, this
 vividness of mind is called "osel" in Tibetan, and it is a sign that 
one has entered the vajrayana. In my experience, this is quite far along
 the path. To get to this point, one would have to experience 
egolessness of self, egolessness of other, nondualty, emptiness, and 
only then luminosity.)
(4:16 PM) Thusness: very good.
(4:16
 PM) AEN: from another thread: "Exist is a tricky word in Buddhism. Mind
 does not exist in the sense of being a thing, but it does exist as 
well, otherwise how would we be able to see, hear etc.
Having
 said that, for an individual, there is nothing "outside of awareness." 
Everything that happens to us happens in our awareness(it's not ours, 
but so what). Furthermore, we are literally everything that happens in 
our awareness. There is no self; we are simply the world. if we see a 
chair in our kitchen, that is what we are at that moment since there is 
no separation between phenomena and mind. Phenomena are mind and mind is
 phenomena. smile.gif
Tsultrim"
(4:22 PM) Thusness: this tsultrim's insight is stage 6.
(4:23 PM) AEN: oic..
(4:23 PM) Thusness: truly good.
(4:23 PM) AEN: icic..
(4:23 PM) Thusness: not many can truly feel the differences.
(4:23 PM) AEN: oic..
(4:24 PM) Thusness: it is only until a certain phase of experience then that clarity comes.
(4:24
 PM) Thusness: and often in tremendous in the stability of 
thoughtlessness... thought almost seldom arise and one becomes the full 
vividness of arising phenomena.
(4:25 PM) Thusness: is he a dzogchen practitioner?
(4:25 PM) AEN: oic
(4:25 PM) AEN: i think mahamudra
(4:25 PM) AEN: he talks about the four yoga
(4:25 PM) Thusness: ic
(4:25
 PM) AEN: "(Yes, this agrees, in my opinion, with "nonmeditation" in the
 4 yogas of mahamudra, the last and most fruitional yoga of mahamudra."
(4:25 PM) AEN: oh
(4:25 PM) AEN: and he linked the 4 jnanas to the 4 yogas

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(5:19
 PM) Thusness: actually what he said about prajna and jhana is quite 
good. But u have to know that it is not the sort of jhana as in 
concentration.
(5:20 PM) Thusness: it is the experience of effortlessness in non-dual luminosity.
(5:22 PM) Thusness: There will come a time every day mundane activities, practice and enlightenment is just one substance.
(5:24 PM) AEN: no he said jnana
(5:24 PM) AEN: jnana is more like knowledge
(5:24 PM) AEN: not jhana absorption
(5:25 PM) Thusness: ic
(5:26
 PM) Thusness: There will come a time when emptiness becomes so clear 
and the separation is no more then without the need to recall or remind.
 The last veil that separates is like permanently gone. Then there is no
 practice because all moments of arising phenomena is just one practice.
(5:28 PM) AEN: oic..
(5:28 PM) AEN: thats what he means by observing emptiness and 'being' emptiness rite
(5:28 PM) AEN: i mean the difference between it
(5:29 PM) AEN: Initiated a file transfer
(5:29 PM) AEN:
In
 a post above, i distinguished between the two. I know you asked 
Matylda, but until she replies, if she does, possibly i could be of 
help.
Prajna is the tool
 that sees emptiness. It is actually an expansion of awareness, using 
awareness in the context of mindfulness/awareness. Awareness gets to a 
point where it discovers the nature of mind which includes emptiness. At
 that point, awareness transforms into prajna. There are lesser stages 
of prajna as well, but i would have to review them.
Prajna
 has been likened to the mother of all the Buddhas, because through its 
activity the mind that becomes the Buddha mind is born. Actually, it has
 always been there, and is unborn, but let's not quibble.
(5:29 PM) AEN:
So,
 prajna sees emptiness. When first seen, however, one feels emptiness as
 separate from what has discovered it. There is still a slight trace of 
dualism. We experience this dualism as a seeking for emptinesss ie there
 is a seeker and something sought. At the realization of jnana, this 
duality melts, so to speak, and emptiness exists or doesn't exist 
without a sense of something observing it. Also, one attains wisdom when
 emptiness arises, not wisdom about anything, simply being in the state 
of wisdom. With prajna, one observes that wisdom; with jnana, one 
becomes it.
Tsultrim
(5:35
 PM) Thusness: jnana here does not refer to the type of concentration 
like it said. It is an effortless non-dual luminous experience due to 
the maturing of prajna.
(5:35 PM) Thusness: I have often said clear until absorbed. Vividness of forms.
(5:37
 PM) Thusness: It is the outcome of the clarity of insight due to the 
dissolving of that tendency to divide. It is natural, not a form of 
attention or concentration. This should not be misunderstood.
(5:38
 PM) Thusness: He mentioned about luminosity is the last fruition stage 
and one must go through emptiness to realise this stage.
(5:39 PM) Thusness: This is not exactly right. 
(5:39 PM) Thusness: Advaita Vedanta practitioner will experience the opposite. 
(5:39 PM) AEN: oic..
(5:39 PM) AEN: but for mahamudra it is like that rite?
(5:39 PM) AEN: theravada also?
(5:39 PM) AEN: like dharma dan
(5:40 PM) Thusness: yes
(5:40 PM) Thusness: it is because of right view
(5:40 PM) Thusness: without the right view, u will experience luminosity aspect of awareness without knowing its empty nature.
(5:40 PM) Thusness: that is more dangerous.
(5:41 PM) Thusness: therefore establishment of right view is most important. Seeds are planted.
(5:42
 PM) Thusness: It is better not to experience then to experience the 
wrong stuff and makes it more difficult to get out of the dualistic 
experience of Eternal Witness.
 (Comments by Soh: Regarding whether it is important to go through I AM 
realization or can we skip to anatta -- John Tan and I and Sim Pern 
Chong have had differing and evolving opinions about this over the years
 (I remember Sim Pern Chong saying he thinks people can skip it 
altogether, John also wondered if it is possible or advisable as certain
 AF people seem to have skipped it but experience luminosity), however 
after witnessing the progress of people it seems to us that those who 
went into anatta without the I AM realization tend to miss out the 
luminosity and intensity of luminosity. And then they will have to go 
through another phase. For those with I AM realization, the second 
stanza of anatta comes very easily, in fact the first aspect to become 
more apparent. Nowadays John and my opinion is that it is best to go 
through the I AM phase, then nondual and anatta.. 
There
 was also the worry that by leading people into the I AM, they can get 
stuck there. (As John Tan and Sim Pern Chong was stuck there for 
decades)
But
 I have shown that it is possible to progress rather quickly (in eight 
months) from I AM to anatta. So the being stuck is due to lack of right 
pointers and directions, not inherently an issue with I AM.
And
 the way to progress quickly is to be aware of the pitfalls of the I AM 
as I wrote in the AtR guide, and going along the four aspects of I AM 
and then nondual contemplations or two stanzas of anatta. If I kept 
reinforcing the pitfalls of I AM with wrong view, maybe I can get stuck 
there. Likewise for other phases, there are other pitfalls as well. Even
 after anatta, John Tan has at times told me to revisit the aspect of I 
AM. It is possible, even important, to integrate that quality and 
taste.)
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Anatta and Pure Presence
Someone told me about having been through insights of no self and then progressing to a realisation of the ground of being.
I replied:
Hi ____
Thanks for the sharing.
This
 is the I AM realization. Had that realisation after contemplating 
Before birth, who am I? For two years. It’s an important realization. 
Many people had insights into certain aspects of no self, impersonality,
 and “dry non dual experience” without doubtless realization of 
Presence. Therefore I AM realisation is a progression for them.
Similarly
 in Zen, asking who am I is to directly experience presence. How about 
asking a koan of what is the cup? What is the chirping bird, the thunder
 clap? What is its purpose?
When
 I talked about anatta, it is a direct insight of Presence and 
recognizing what we called background presence, is in the forms and 
colours, sounds and sensations, clean and pure. Authentication is be 
authenticated by all things. Also there is no presence other than that. 
What we call background is really just an image of foreground Presence, 
even when Presence is assuming its subtle formless all pervasiveness.
However
 due to ignorance, we have a very inherent and dual view, if we do see 
through the nature of presence, the mind continues to be influenced by 
dualistic and inherent tendencies. Many teach to overcome it through 
mere non conceptuality but this is highly misleading.
Thusness also wrote:
The
 anatta I realized is quite unique. It is not just a realization of 
no-self. But it must first have an intuitive insight of Presence. 
Otherwise will have to reverse the phases of insights
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Soh Wei Yu
 beautiful, thank you. The 'all things' was what I was missing with zen 
(although people talked about being nothing/everything) I found it with 
Ramana's practice of the I mantra (really a secondary practice for him 
as you may know he does not often speak of mantra but rather inquiry). 
But just walking around saying I and experiencing that I is everything. I
 am That; and that and that and that.... is quite a lovely thing. 
"authentication is authenticated by all things and there is no presence 
other than that." Perfect. 



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After
 nondual one should also thoroughly penetrate the view of inherency, 
otherwise awareness is still reified as inherently existing and 
unchanging.
Also John Tan wrote in 2009,
Excerpt
4. On Non-Dual Experience, Realization and Anatta
I
 have just casually gone through some of your forum discussions. Very 
enlightening discussions and well presentation of my 
7-phases-of-insights but try not to over-emphasize it as a model; it 
should not be taken as a definite model of enlightenment nor should you 
use it as a framework to validate others' experiences and insights. 
Simply take it as a guide along your spiritual journey.
You
 are right to differentiate non-dual experience from non-dual 
realization and non-dual realization from the insight of anatta. We have
 discussed this umpteem times. Non-dual experience in the context we are
 using refers to the experience of no-subject-object division. The 
experience is much like putting two candle flames together where the 
boundary between the flames becomes indistinguishable. It is not a 
realization but simply a stage, an experience of unity between the 
observer and the observed where the conceptual layer that divides is 
temporarily suspended in a meditative state. This you have experienced.
Non-dual
 realization on the other hand is a deep understanding that comes from 
seeing through the illusionary nature of subject-object division. It is a
 natural non-dual state that resulted from an insight that arises after 
rigorous investigation, challenge and a prolonged period of practice 
that is specially focused on ‘No-Self’. Somehow focusing on “No-Self” 
will spark a sense of sacredness towards the transient and fleeting 
phenomena. The sense of sacredness that is once the monopoly of the 
Absolute is now also found in the Relative. The term ‘No-Self’ like 
Zen-Koan may appear cryptic, senseless or illogical but when realized, 
it is actually obviously clear, direct and simple. The realization is 
accompanied with the experience that everything is being dissolved into 
either:
1. An ultimate Subject or
2. As mere ‘flow of phenomenality’
In
 whatever the case, both spells the end of separateness; experientially 
there is no sense of two-ness and the experience of unity can be quite 
overwhelming initially but eventually it will lose its grandeur and 
things turn quite ordinary. Nevertheless, regardless of whether the 
sense of Oneness is derived from the experience of ‘All as Self’ or ‘as 
simply just manifestation’, it is the beginning insight of “No-Self”. 
The former is known as One-Mind and the later, No-Mind.
In
 Case 1 it is usual that practitioners will continue to personify, reify
 and extrapolate a metaphysical essence in a very subtle way, almost 
unknowingly. This is because despite the non-dual realization, 
understanding is still orientated from a view that is based on 
subject-object dichotomy. As such it is hard to detect this tendency and
 practitioners continue their journey of building their understanding of
 ‘No-Self based on Self’.
For
 Case 2 practitioners, they are in a better position to appreciate the 
doctrine of anatta. When insight of Anatta arises, all experiences 
become implicitly non-dual. But the insight is not simply about seeing 
through separateness; it is about the thorough ending of reification so 
that there is an instant recognition that the ‘agent’ is extra, in 
actual experience it does not exist. It is an immediate realization that
 experiential reality has always been so and the existence of a center, a
 base, a ground, a source has always been assumed.
To
 mature this realization, even direct experience of the absence of an 
agent will prove insufficient; there must also be a total new paradigm 
shift in terms of view; we must free ourselves from being bonded to the 
idea, the need, the urge and the tendency of analyzing, seeing and 
understanding our moment to moment of experiential reality from a 
source, an essence, a center, a location, an agent or a controller and 
rest entirely on anatta and Dependent Origination.
Therefore
 this phase of insight is not about singing eloquently the non-dual 
nature of an Ultimate Reality; contrary it is deeming this Ultimate 
Reality as irrelevant. Ultimate Reality appears relevant only to a mind 
that is bond to seeing things inherently, once this tendency dissolves, 
the idea of a source will be seen as flawed and erroneous. Therefore to 
fully experience the breadth and depth of no-self, practitioners must be
 prepared and willing to give up the entire subject-object framework and
 be open to eliminate the entire idea of a ‘source’. Rob expressed very 
skillfully this point in his talk:
One
 time the Buddha went to a group of monks and he basically told them not
 to see Awareness as The Source of all things. So this sense of there 
being a vast awareness and everything just appears out of that and 
disappears back into it, beautiful as that is, he told them that’s 
actually not a skillful way of viewing reality. And that is a very 
interesting sutta, because it’s one of the only suttas where at the end 
it doesn’t say the monks rejoiced in his words.
This
 group of monks didn’t want to hear that. They were quite happy with 
that level of insight, lovely as it was, and it said the monks did not 
rejoice in the Buddha’s words. (laughter) And similarly, one runs into 
this as a teacher, I have to say. This level is so attractive, it has so
 much of the flavor of something ultimate, that often times people are 
unbudgeable there.
What 
then is the view that Buddhism is talking about without resorting to a 
‘source’? I think the post by Vajrahridaya in the thread ‘What makes 
Buddhism different’ of your forum succinctly and concisely expressed the
 view, it is well written. That said, do remember to infinitely regress 
back into this vivid present moment of manifestation – as this arising 
thought, as this passing scent – Emptiness is Form. 

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Andre also explained well the difference between one mind (substantialist nondual) insight and anatta here:

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Thank you for all the resources. Bookmarking.

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Glenda Gill also this is great, by john tan: http://awakeningtoreality.blogspot.com/.../on-anatta...

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