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No Awareness Does Not Mean the Denial of Awareness or Luminosity

There are a couple of articles on 'No Awareness' or 'Beyond Awareness'. It must be emphasized that this does not mean the non-existence of awareness, or the denial of awareness or luminosity.

“Geovani Geo to me, to be without dual is not to subsume into one and although awareness is negated, it is not to say there is nothing. Negating the Awareness/Presence (Absolute) is not to let Awareness remain at the abstract level. When such transpersonal Awareness that exists only in wonderland is negated, the vivid radiance of presence are fully tasted in the transient appearances; zero gap and zero distance between presence and moment to moment of ordinary experiences and we realize separation has always only been conventional. Then mundane activities -- hearing, sitting, standing, seeing and sensing, become pristine and vibrant, natural and free.”– John Tan, 2020

"awareness [seen as] other than what appears is alaya." - John Tan (alaya as still a subtle state of ignorance)

2014

3 SEPTEMBER 2014

John Tan: Why is he talking about 靈妙覺體 [spiritual and marvellous body of awareness]

Soh Wei Yu: It's just the luminosity? What do you mean

John Tan: There is no denial of clarity or luminosity, it is the singling out of luminosity that is the problem. Why is luminosity luminous? It is an irrelevant question. There is no such [inherently existing] clarity Because of inherent thought, we understand 靈妙覺體 [spiritual and marvellous body of awareness] as standalone, singled out from DO (Dependent Origination) or otherwise we are understanding it as "interaction". Or if conceptuality is a problem then non-conceptuality must be the solution. Or subsuming object into subject or subject into object… It is addressing this way of thinking, of understanding is a misperception. It is not to imply that there is no clarity… but what is clarity when it is not understood using this flawed mode of perception. In Buddhism, it is not how. It's always under what conditions such phenomena arises. So when this cause & condition persists, the phenomena will arise. First is to bring out the point to ask why appearances "arises" in Awareness is the same as asking why is awareness aware in awareness teaching. Why so? For the convention we call awareness is only ever appearances. Then address what is flawed mode of perception… As I have given above. So why does appearances appear to arise in Awareness? Because of ignorance

19 SEPTEMBER 2014

John Tan: If Buddha asks Ananda, where is mind… if mind is not outside, not inside, not in the middle, not within the body… then is he Ananda going to think that Buddha doesn't dare to affirm where is the mind? Then Ananda will never know the meaning of DO. And the problem of how inherent thought blinds one from seeing and having direct experiential insight of what is meant by freedom from extreme.

20 SEPTEMBER 2014

John Tan: When you present to 不思, you must not deny 觉 (awareness). But emphasized how 覺 (awareness) is effortlessly and marvelously manifests without the slightest sense of referencing and point of centricity and duality and subsuming… be it here, now, in, out… this can only come from realization of anatta, DO and emptiness so that the spontaneity of 相 (appearance) is realized to one's radiance clarity.

2007

Thusness: Buddhism stresses more on direct experience. There is no-self apart from the arising and ceasing

AEN: I see…

Thusness: And from arising and ceasing one sees the emptiness nature of 'Self' There is Witnessing. Witnessing is the manifestation. There is no witness witnessing manifestation. That is Buddhism. I have always said it is not the denial of eternal witness. But what exactly is that eternal witness? It is the real understanding of eternal witness.

AEN: Yes I thought so So it's something like David Carse right

Thusness: Without the 'seeing' and 'veil' of momentum, of reacting to propensities.

AEN: Emptiness, yet luminous I see.

Thusness: However when one quote what buddha said, does he understand first of all. Is he seeing eternal witness as in the advaita?

AEN: He's probably confused

Thusness: Or is he seeing free from propensities.

AEN: He never explicitly mention but I believe his understanding is something like that

Thusness: So there is no point quoting if it is not seen.

AEN: I see.

Thusness: Otherwise it is just saying the atman view again. So you should be very clear by now… and not to be confused.

AEN: I see.

Thusness: What have I told you? You have also written in your blog. What is eternal witness? It is the manifestation… moment to moment of arising Does one see with the propensities and what is really it? That is more important. I have said so many times that the experience is correct but the understanding is wrong. Wrong view. And how perception influence experience and wrong understanding. So don't quote here and there with just a snap shot… Be very very clear and know with wisdom so that you will know what is right and wrong view. Otherwise you will be reading this and get confused with that. It is not to deny the existence of the luminosity The knowingness. But rather to have the correct view of what consciousness is. Like non-dual, I said there is no witness apart from the manifestation, the witness is really the manifestation This is the first part Since the witness is the manifestation, how is it so? How is the one is really the many?

AEN: Conditions?

Thusness: Saying that the one is the many is already wrong. This is using conventional way of expression. For in reality, there is no such thing of the 'one' And the many There is only arising and ceasing due to emptiness nature And the arising and ceasing itself is the clarity. There is no clarity apart from the phenomena If we experience non-dual like Ken Wilber and talk about the atman. Though the experience is true, the understanding is wrong. This is similar to "I AM". Except that it is higher form of experience. It is non-dual.

19 OCTOBER 2008

Thusness: Yes Actually practice is not to deny this 'Jue' (awareness) The way you explained as if 'there is no Awareness'. People at times mistaken what you are trying to convey, but to correctly understand this 'jue' so that it can be experienced from all moments effortlessly. But when a practitioner heard that it is not 'IT', they immediately began to worry because it is their most precious state. All the phases written is about this 'Jue' or Awareness. However what Awareness really is isn't correctly experienced. Because it isn't correctly experienced, we say that 'Awareness that you try to keep' does not exist in such a way. It does not mean there is no Awareness.

2010

Thusness: It is not that there is no awareness. It is understanding awareness not from a subject/object view Not from an inherent view. That is dissolving subject/object understanding into events, action, karma Then we gradually understand that the 'feeling' of someone there is really just a 'sensation' of an inherent view Means a 'sensation', a 'thought' of an inherent view:P How this lead to liberation requires the direct experience So liberation it is not freedom from 'self' but freedom from 'inherent view'

AEN: I see…

Thusness: Get it? But it is important to experience luminosity

27 MARCH 2010

Thusness: Not bad for self-enquiry

AEN: I see… By the way what do you think Lucky and Chandrakirti is trying to convey

Thusness: Those quotes weren't really well translated in my opinion. What needs be understood is 'No I' is not to deny Witnessing consciousness. And 'No Phenomena' is not to deny Phenomena It is just for the purpose of 'de-constructing' the mental constructs.

AEN: I see…

Thusness: When you hear sound, you cannot deny it… can you?

AEN: Yes

Thusness: So what are you denying? When you experience the Witness as you described in your thread 'certainty of being', how can you deny this realization? So what is does 'no I' and 'no phenomena' mean?

AEN: Like you said it's only mental constructs that are false… But consciousness can't be denied?

Thusness: No… I am not saying that Buddha never denied the aggregates Just the selfhood The problem is what is meant by 'non-inherent', empty nature, of phenomena and 'I'

2010

Thusness: But understanding it wrongly is another matter can you deny Witnessing? Can you deny that certainty of being?

AEN: No

Thusness: Then there is nothing wrong with it how could you deny your very own existence? How could you deny existence at all There is nothing wrong experiencing directly without intermediary the pure sense of existence After this direct experience, you should refine your understanding, your view, your insights Not after the experience, deviate from the right view, re-enforce your wrong view You do not deny the witness, you refine your insight of it what is meant by non-dual What is meant by non-conceptual what is being spontaneous what is the 'impersonality' aspect What is luminosity. You never experience anything unchanging In later phase, when you experience non-dual, there is still this tendency to focus on a background… And that will prevent your progress into the direct insight into the TATA as described in the tata article. And there are still different degree of intensity even you realized to that level.

AEN: Non-dual?

AEN: I see…

Thusness: It is all about the integration of the insight of anatta and emptiness Vividness into transience, feeling what I called 'the texture and fabric' of Awareness as forms is very important then come emptiness The integration of luminosity and emptiness Do not deny that Witnessing but refine the view, that is very important So far, you have correctly emphasized the importance of witnessing Unlike in the past, you gave people the impression that you are denying this witnessing presence You merely deny the personification, reification and objectification So that you can progress further and realize our empty nature. But don't always post what I told you in MSN In no time, I will become sort of cult leader

AEN: I see…

Thusness: Anatta is no ordinary insight. When we can reach the level of thorough transparency, you will realize the benefits Non-conceptuality, clarity, luminosity, transparency, openness, spaciousness, thoughtlessness, non-locality… all these descriptions become quite meaningless.

2009

Thusness: It is always witnessing… don't get it wrong just whether one understands its emptiness nature or not. There is always luminosity since when there is no witnessing? It is just luminosity and emptiness nature not luminosity alone There is always this witnessing… it is the divided sense that you have to get rid That is why I never deny the witness experience and realization, just the right understanding

2008

Thusness: There is no problem being the witness, the problem is only wrong understanding of what witness is. That is seeing duality in Witnessing. Or seeing 'Self' and other, subject-object division. That is the problem. You can call it Witnessing or Awareness, there must be no sense of self. Yes witnessing not witness In witnessing, it is always non-dual When in witness, it is always a witness and object being witness when there is an observer, there is no such thing as no observed When you realised that there is only witnessing, there is no observer and observed it is always non-dual That is why when genpo something said there is no witness only witnessing, yet taught the staying back and observed I commented the path deviates from the view

AEN: I see…

Thusness: When you teach experience the witness, you teach that that is not about no subject-object split you are teaching one to experience that witness First stage of insight of the "I AM" Are you denying the "I AMness" experience?

AEN: You mean in the post? No It's more like the nature of 'I am' right

Thusness: What is being denied?

AEN: The dualistic understanding?

Thusness: Yes it is the wrong understanding of that experience. Just like 'redness' of a flower.

AEN: I see…

Thusness: Vivid and seems real and belongs to the flower. It only appears so, it is not so. When we see in terms of subject/object dichotomy, it appears puzzling that there is thoughts, no thinker. There is sound, no hearer and there is rebirth, but no permanent soul being reborn. It is puzzling because of our deeply held view of seeing things inherently where dualism is a subset of this 'inherent' seeing. So what is the problem?

AEN: I see… The deeply held views?

Thusness: Yes What is the problem?

AEN: Back

Thusness: The problem is the root cause of suffering lies in this deeply held view. We search and are attached because these views. This is the relationship between 'view' and 'consciousness'. There is no escape. With inherent view, there is always 'I' and 'Mine'. There is always 'belongs' like the 'redness' belongs to the flower. Therefore despite all transcendental experiences, there is no liberation without right understanding.

2009

Thusness: By the way, you should not tell people about there is no such witness exist.

AEN: I see…

Thusness: It is right understanding of what witness is all about.

AEN: I see…

Thusness: “Today I noticed that trying to remove perceived unclear thoughts and confusion has nothing to do with the unstained awareness that is already so.” what have you understood?

AEN: Awareness is not affected by any particular thoughts?

Thusness: Meaning? There is awareness and there is thoughts? And awareness is not affected by thoughts? By the way what is meant by affected?

AEN: Means it's still present regardless what is arising

Thusness: Means you are referring to the state of presence?

AEN: Yes.. Presence and knowingness

Thusness: What is inseparability to you? Do you understand "inseparable" only at the conceptual level and stop at just the "meaning" of it? Just simply knowing by definition? Or at the non-conceptual level? Is your understanding at the level of direct experience which is non-conceptual or conceptual?

AEN: Think still more towards conceptual

Thusness: Presence and arising are not separated

AEN: I see.

Thusness: What is 'inseparable' here? At the non-dual level, at the anatta level or DO level?

AEN: Nondual?

Thusness: You must observe and directly experience every arising in bare, raw and free from labelling first. Then upon analysis, there is still an observer and the observed

AEN: I see…

Thusness: Until you are so clear in real time experience that the observer and the observed are one. Then you further investigate this experience if they are always one, why is there any separation in the first place? Why experience occasionally appears split?

AEN: Propensities?

Thusness: Continue this investigation and experience the split as well as the non-dual. Till you are thoroughly clear that observer and observed is merely an assumption. There is always only observation. Just one pure witnessing.

AEN: I see…

Thusness: This is the non-dual experience that you must have in order to understand the Advaita witnessing. One whole Experience. You do not say it is flowing through the Eye, there is absolutely no difference between the light and everything. The light is the everything. You must have this experience first.

AEN: I see…

Thusness: After this do not extrapolate, do not reify, do not abstract anything further. Any urge to go beyond, see with clarity it is the tendency… until you are able to rest completely first.

AEN: I see…

Thusness: Until you are able to rest completely first. => I mean you must be able to rest deeply in this non-dual experience first then understand anatta and DO from there. There is no denial of this non-dual Witnessing. It is only right understanding of this experience.

AEN: I see…

Thusness: Because of the inability of going beyond the dualistic framework, there is such "You are me" and "I am you" such erroneous concept by extrapolating an ultimate essence that all shares. This is what I do not want you to get into. But the dissolution of the split is most precious and important.

AEN: I see…

Thusness: I have to go makan

AEN: Ok.. See you

Thusness: It is most important to realize that this Witnessing is by nature non-dual and has always been so but that has nothing to do with an ultimate nature. Having this non-dual experience has nothing to do with an ultimate nature.

AEN: I see…

Thusness: So not to extrapolate, reify, abstract anything further but rather allow complete resting in this non-dual state first and allow the tendency to extrapolate to settle. Because if we extrapolate and entertain this tendency, it blinds us further. In fact that is the cause of suffering. Despite this non-dual non-conceptual experience of the witnessing itself, we are still not free the tendency to reify.

AEN: I see… Extrapolate means think conceptually?

Thusness: Many misunderstood that DO denies freedom as it is 'dependent'. This is attempting to understanding DO through a dualistic framework. In actual experience, DO leads to liberation whereas attachment to an ultimate essence is the cause of suffering despite having clear and direct experience of the non-dual non-conceptual aspect of Awareness. Extrapolate means deducing further than what is being actually experienced. I have always told you that "I AM" is a direct experience of Awareness. But you are telling people it does not exist I am saying it is not the experience of our Buddha nature. I said that this experience is misunderstood

AEN: I see…

Thusness: I told you many times that nothing is more precious than a direct touch of this luminous nature but no experience is more dangerous than misinterpreting this experience, this direct touch.


26 JULY 2020

John Tan: “In zen though they say there is no mind, they in fact embrace mind more fully than all is mind, until no trace of mind can be detected. Yet [Ven.] Sheng Yen said this is just the entry point of zen because originally there is no mind and this is clearly realized in anatta. So post anatta, mind and phenomena are completely indistinguishable. If both mind and phenomena are completely indistinguishable in experience, then distinctions are nothing more than conventional designation of empty luminous display.

Soh Wei Yu: I see… By the way did Sheng Yen realise anatta?

John Tan: So you must know when we say no awareness, no self, no I, it doesn't mean nothing. It is seeing through the background construct and open the gate to directly taste, experience and effortlessly authenticate clarity. I believe so but he did not talk about his experience except the stanza before his death that is beautiful. “无事忙中老,空里有哭笑,本来没有我,生死皆可抛” 台湾高僧圣严法师圆寂 (Busy with nothing till old. (无事忙中老) In emptiness, there is weeping and laughing. (空里有哭笑) Originally there never was any 'I'. (本来没有我) Thus life and death can be cast aside. (生死皆可抛)) - https://www.awakeningtoreality.com/…/differentiate…


Daniel M. Ingram

https://www.awakeningtoreality.com/…/intelligence… "So you have these two extremes - both of which I find pretty annoying (laughs) - and uhm, not that they are not making interesting points that counterbalance each other. And then, from an experiential point of view, the whole field seems to be happening on its own in a luminous way, the intelligence or awareness seems to be intrinsic in the phenomena, the phenomena do appear to be totally transient, totally ephemeral. So I would reject from an experiential point of view, something in the harshness of the dogma of the rigid no-selfists that can't recognise the intrinsic nature of awareness that is the field. If that makes sense. Because they tend to feel there's something about that's sort of (cut off?)…"

Interviewer: "And not only awareness…"

Daniel: "Intelligence. Right, and I also reject from an experiential point of view the people who would make this permanent, something separate from, something different from just the manifestation itself. I don't like the permanence aspect because from a Buddhist technical point of view I do not find anything that stands up as permanent in experience. I find that quality always there *while there is experience.* Because it's something in the nature of experience. But it's not quite the same thing as permanence, if that makes sense. So while there is experience, there is experience. So that means there is awareness, from a certain point of view, manifestation - awareness being intrinsically the same thing, intrinsic to each other. So while there is experience, I would claim that element (awareness) is there - it has to be for there to be experience. And I would claim that the system seems to function very lawfully and it's very easy to feel that there's a sort of intelligence, ok, cool… the feeling of profundity, the feeling of miraculousness, the wondrous component. So as the Tibetans would say, amazing! It all happens by itself! So, there is intrinsically amazing about this. It's very refreshingly amazing that the thing happens, and that things cognize themselves or are aware where they are, manifestation is truly amazing and tuning into that amazingness has something valuable about it from a pragmatic point of view."


24 MAY 2012

John: But experientially same but just the degree of right understanding Not exactly one mind Do you feel everything as Self now? As in that experience of I M powerfully present at this moment

Soh Wei Yu: Yes presence, but as change

John: As if like Awareness clear and open like space, without meditation yet powerfully present and non-dual Where the 4 Aspects of I M are fully experienced in this moment

Soh Wei Yu: Yes I think the four aspects is only fully experienced after nondual and anatta, especially effortlessness and no need to abide

John: This experience will become more and more powerful later yet effortless and uncontrived How so? If it is not correct insights and practice, how is it possible for such complete and total experience of effortless and uncontrived Presence be possible?

Soh Wei Yu: I do not see it is possible without the proper insights and practice In anatta every activity is it, is buddha nature, so no contrivance at all No need to meditate to get anywhere But meditation is still important to cultivate certain aspects like tranquility

John: Indeed and this is being authenticated by the immediate moment of experience. How could there be doubt about it. The last trace of Presence must be released with seeing through the emptiness nature of whatever arises.

Soh Wei Yu: I see..

John: After maturing and integrating your insights into practice, there must be no effort and action… The entire whole is doing the work and arises as this vivid moment of shimmering appearance, this has always been what we always called Presence.

2013

25 DECEMBER 2013

John Tan: By the way, are experiences (appearances), immensely crystal, brilliance and sharp..without any background… so crystal that a sense of transparency arises? It must be a natural and effortless In normal circumstances, having enough rest and relax… without need to meditate… natural and relax Not when you are busy So crystal that there is always this sense of absorption Openness like space, clear and boundless In later phase, it must be even stronger than the initial phase (Soh: of anatta) You need to have enough rest and if possible take more vegetables


Thusness wrote in 2012:

"I do not see practice apart from realizing the essence and nature of awareness. The only difference is seeing Awareness as an ultimate essence or realizing awareness as this seamless activity that fills the entire Universe. When we say there is no scent of a flower, the scent is the flower… That is because the mind, body, universe are all together deconstructed into this single flow, this scent and only this… Nothing else. That is the Mind that is no mind. There is not an Ultimate Mind that transcends anything in the Buddhist enlightenment. The mind is this very manifestation of total exertion … wholly thus. Therefore there is always no mind, always only this vibration of moving train, this cooling air of the air-con, this breath… The question is after the 7 phases of insights can this be realized and experienced and becomes the ongoing activity of practice in enlightenment and enlightenment in practice -- practice-enlightenment."

Thusness, 2012:

"Has awareness stood out? There is no concentration needed. When six entries and exits are pure and primordial, the unconditioned stands shining, relaxed and uncontrived, luminous yet empty. The purpose of going through the 7 phases of perception shift is for this… Whatever arises is free and uncontrived, that is the supreme path. Whatever arises has never left their nirvanic state… Your current mode of practice [after those experiential insights] should be as direct and uncontrived as possible. When you see nothing behind and magical appearances are too empty, awareness is naturally lucid and free. Views and all elaborations dissolved, mind-body forgotten… Just unobstructed awareness. Awareness natural and uncontrived is supreme goal. Relax and do nothing, Open and boundless, Spontaneous and free, Whatever arises is fine and liberated, This is the supreme path. Top/bottom, inside/outside, Always without center and empty (2-fold emptiness), Then view is fully actualized and all experiences are great liberation."


21 DECEMBER 2013

Soh Wei Yu: I'm eating durian chendol in malacca Famous shop here very nice The shop is playing jing kong fa shi vcd He talks about an unborn undying ling xing - spirit That which reborns in six realms he says is not the body but the ling xing spirit It is that which goes to pure land Haha

22 DECEMBER 2013

John Tan: His view is more substantial view. Buddhism does not deny luminous clarity, in fact, it is to have total, uncontrived, direct non-referential of clarity in all moments… therefore no-self apart from manifestation. Otherwise one is only holding ghost images. So understanding a spirit traveling in the 6 realms is different from recognizing these realms are nothing more than one's radiance clarity.


John Tan: “The Absolute as separated from the transience is what I have indicated as the 'Background' in my 2 posts to theprisonergreco. 84. RE: Is there an absolute reality? [Skarda 4 of 4] Mar 27 2009, 9:15 AM EDT | Post edited: Mar 27 2009, 9:15 AM EDT Hi theprisonergreco, First is what exactly is the ‘background’? Actually it doesn’t exist. It is only an image of a ‘non-dual’ experience that is already gone. The dualistic mind fabricates a ‘background’ due to the poverty of its dualistic and inherent thinking mechanism. It ‘cannot’ understand or function without something to hold on to. That experience of the ‘I’ is a complete, non-dual foreground experience. When the background subject is understood as an illusion, all transience phenomena reveal themselves as Presence. It is like naturally 'vipassanic' throughout. From the hissing sound of PC, to the vibration of the moving MRT train, to the sensation when the feet touches the ground, all these experiences are crystal clear, no less “I AM” than “I AM”. The Presence is still fully present, nothing is denied. -:) So the “I AM” is just like any other experiences when the subject-object split is gone. No different from an arising sound. It only becomes a static background as an afterthought when our dualistic and inherent tendencies are in action. The first 'I-ness' stage of experiencing awareness face to face is like a point on a sphere which you called it the center. You marked it. Then later you realized that when you marked other points on the surface of a sphere, they have the same characteristics. This is the initial experience of non-dual. Once the insight of No-Self is stabilized, you just freely point to any point on the surface of the sphere -- all points are a center, hence there is no 'the' center. 'The' center does not exist: all points are a center. After then practice move from 'concentrative' to 'effortlessness'. That said, after this initial non-dual insight, 'background' will still surface occasionally for another few years due to latent tendencies… 86. RE: Is there an absolute reality? [Skarda 4 of 4] To be more exact, the so called 'background' consciousness is that pristine happening. There is no a 'background' and a 'pristine happening'. During the initial phase of non-dual, there is still habitual attempt to 'fix' this imaginary split that does not exist. It matures when we realized that anatta is a seal, not a stage; in hearing, always only sounds; in seeing always only colors, shapes and forms; in thinking, always only thoughts. Always and already so. -:) Many non-dualists after the intuitive insight of the Absolute hold tightly to the Absolute. This is like attaching to a point on the surface of a sphere and calling it 'the one and only center'. Even for those Advaitins that have clear experiential insight of no-self (no object-subject split), an experience similar to that of anatta (First emptying of subject) are not spared from these tendencies. They continue to sink back to a Source. It is natural to reference back to the Source when we have not sufficiently dissolved the latent disposition but it must be correctly understood for what it is. Is this necessary and how could we rest in the Source when we cannot even locate its whereabout? Where is that resting place? Why sink back? Isn't that another illusion of the mind? The 'Background' is just a thought moment to recall or an attempt to reconfirm the Source. How is this necessary? Can we even be a thought moment apart? The tendency to grasp, to solidify experience into a 'center' is a habitual tendency of the mind at work. It is just a karmic tendency. Realize It! This is what I meant to Adam the difference between One-Mind and No-Mind.” - John Tan, 2009, excerpt from Emptiness as Viewless View and Embracing the Transience

Excerpts from the AtR guide: I noticed that many Buddhists trained under the doctrine of anatta and emptiness seem to be put off by the description of “I AM realization” as it seems to contradict anatta. This will prevent their progress as they will fail to appreciate and realize the depth of luminous presence, and their understanding of anatta and emptiness remains intellectual. It should be understood that the I AM realization does not contradict Anatta realization but complements it. It is the “original face before your parents were born” of Zen, and the unfabricated clarity in Dzogchen that serves as initial rigpa; it is also the initial certainty of Mind discovered in the first of the four yogas of Mahamudra (see: Clarifying the Natural State by Dakpo Tashi Namgyal). Calling it “I AM” is just another name for the same thing, and you should also know that AtR’s definition of I AM is different from Buddhism’s term “conceit of I Am” or Nisargadatta’s I Am. The I AM of AtR is a direct taste and realization of the Mind of Clear Light. The view gets refined and the taste gets brought to effortless maturity and non-contrivance in all manifestation as one’s insights deepen. As John Tan also said in 2011:

John: What is "I AM"? Is it a PCE? (Soh: PCE = pure consciousness experience, see glossary at the bottom of this document.) Is there emotion? Is there feeling? Is there thought? Is there division or complete stillness? In hearing there is just sound, just this complete, direct clarity of sound! So what is "I AM"?

Soh Wei Yu: It is the same just that pure non-conceptual thought

John: Is there 'being'?

Soh Wei Yu: No, an ultimate identity is created as an afterthought

John: Indeed it is the mis-interpretation after that experience that is causing the confusion that experience itself is pure conscious experience there is nothing that is impure that is why it is a sense of pure existence it is only mistaken due to the 'wrong view' so it is a pure conscious experience in thought. Not sound, taste, touch… etc PCE (Pure Consciousness Experience) is about direct and pure experience of whatever we encounter in sight, sound, taste… The quality and depth of experience in sound in contacts in taste in scenery has he truly experienced the immense luminous clarity in the senses? If so, what about 'thought'? When all senses are shut the pure sense of existence as it is when the senses are shut. Then with senses open, have a clear understanding. Do not compare irrationally without clear understanding.

2007

Thusness: You don't think that "I AMness" is low stage of enlightenment The experience is the same. It is just the clarity. In terms of insight. Not experience.

AEN: I see…

Thusness: So a person that has experience "I AMness" and non-dual is the same. Except the insight is different.

AEN: I see.

Thusness: Non-dual is every moment there is the experience of presence. Or the insight into the every moment experience of presence. Because what prevents that experience is the illusion of self and "I AM" is that distorted view. The experience is the same. Didn’t you see I always say there is nothing wrong with that experience to longchen, jonls… I only say it is skewed towards the thought realm. So don't differentiate but know what is the problem. I always say it is misinterpretation of the experience of presence. Not the experience itself. But "I AMness" prevents us from seeing.


This also reminded me of: “It is not the contemplations that are important, it is the view brought to contemplation that makes the difference. For example, there is no actual difference between the Hindu Nirvikalpa samadhi and Vajropama samadhi in terms of its content, but the fact that one is accompanied by insight and the other is not makes the difference between whether it is mundane or liberative.” – Dzogchen Teacher Acarya Malcolm Smith, 2014

2009

Thusness: By the way, do you know about Hokai's description and "I AM" being the same experience?

AEN: The watcher right

Thusness: No. I mean the Shingon practice of the body, mind, speech into one.

AEN: Oh that's I am experience?

Thusness: Yes, except that the object of practice is not based on consciousness. What is meant by foreground? It is the disappearance of the background and what's left is it. Similarly the "I AM" is the experience of no background and experiencing consciousness directly. That is why it is just simply "I-I" or "I AM"

AEN: I've heard of the way people describe consciousness as the background consciousness becoming the foreground… So there's only consciousness aware of itself and that's still like I AM experience

Thusness: That is why it is described that way, awareness aware of itself and as itself.

AEN: But you also said I AM people sink to a background?

Thusness: Yes

AEN: Sinking to background = background becoming foreground?

Thusness: That is why I said it is misunderstood. And we treat that as ultimate.

AEN: I see. But what hokai described is also nondual experience right

Thusness: I have told you many times that the experience is right but the understanding is wrong. That is why it is an insight and opening of the wisdom eyes. There is nothing wrong with the experience of I AM". Did I say that there is anything wrong with it?

AEN: Nope

Thusness: Even in stage 4 what did I say?

AEN: It's the same experience except in sound, sight, etc

Thusness: Sound as the exact same experience as "I AM"… As presence.

AEN: I see.

Thusness: Yes.

"I AM" is a luminous thought in samadhi as I-I. Anatta is a realization of that in extending the insight to the 6 entries and exits.– John Tan, 2018


"The purpose of anatta is to have full blown experience of the heart -- boundlessly, completely, non-dually and non-locally. Re-read what I wrote to Jax. In every situations, in all conditions, in all events. It is to eliminate unnecessary contrivance so that our essence can be expressed without obscuration. Jax wants to point to the heart but is unable to express in a non-dual way… For in duality, the essence cannot be realized. All dualistic interpretation are mind made. You know the smile of Mahākāśyapa? Can you touch the heart of that smile even 2500 yrs later? One must lose all mind and body by feeling with entire mind and body this essence which is 心 (Mind). Yet 心 (Mind) too is 不可得 (ungraspable/unobtainable).. The purpose is not to deny 心 (Mind) but rather not to place any limitations or duality so that 心 (Mind) can fully manifest. Therefore without understanding 缘 (conditions),is to limit 心 (Mind). Without understanding 缘 (conditions),is to place limitation in its manifestations. You must fully experience 心 (Mind) by realizing 无心 (No-Mind) and fully embrace the wisdom of 不可得 (ungraspable/unobtainable)."– John Tan/Thusness, 2014

P.s. Self-Enquiry (asking Who am I?) is a potent method to the initial awakening to one's Pure Presence-Awareness or "I AM realization". Also see: What is your very Mind right now?

Also related: The Transient Universe has a Heart

Soh

As for the Question of How Rebirth Can Take Place Without Soul

Sent to someone.

Chinese translation: Simplified Chinese translation

As for the question of how rebirth can take place without soul, this is a commonly asked question. I just posted this a week ago to Geovani:

Soh Wei Yu:

Disjoint and unconnected in the sense that there is no underlying substratum and linking agent that is carried on or persisting from moment to moment. It is not disjoint and unconnected in the sense of negating interdependencies.

Like if you have a sense that “last thought came, this thought arrived, next thought arriving, but I AM constant throughout, or the NOW is unmoved throughout,” that is not being “disjoint and unsupported.”

But even though they are disjoint and unsupported and groundless by nature, unproduced by any linking agent, one must further penetrate into the total exertion of that disjointed thought/sensation/experience. Then furthermore, one may see the karmic conditions in play (this is completely missed out by the neo-Advaitin circles):

As Thusness wrote before:

This arising thought and previous thought, are they same or different?

This arising thought and previous thought, are they dependent or completely independent?

Beyond the extremes, see the middle path of dependent origination.

...

Penetrate deeply into the following aspects:

  1. The amazing power of the spell of an arising thought.
    Clearly understand the power and implications of this arising thought. It is the mystery of all mysteries. When this arising thought sees dualistically and inherent, everything appears infinitely separated and apart. That is all that matters.
  2. Look deeply into the cause of suffering as a result of dualistic and inherent thought rather than thought self liberates; penetrate the “cause and conditions” of suffering.
    When an arising thought see dualistically, how the entire experience is shaped.
    When an arising thought sees inherently, how the entire experience has changed.
    With this as the cause, what happens, with the absence of that, what happens.
  3. There is no willing off of dualistic and inherent thought; that would be self-view.
    If there is no doership, is overcoming possible?
    From this understand, an arising thought is not just an arising thought, but the total exertion and entire chain of conditionality is in action. Clearly understand the difference between self-view and principle of conditionality with direct experience. The overcoming is not by way of self-view approach but by understanding the principle of conditionality.
— Thusness

Soh Wei Yu:

As Thusness wrote in 2014: “If we continue to look for the carrying medium between 2 moment of thoughts, profound insight of anatta will not arise and non-locality will not dawn. Our mode of perception will be obscured by the inherent way of understanding things.”

This also relates to many people asking the question of rebirth, since rebirth is taught by Buddha. In Hinduism the jivas (souls) are the medium which persists after death and reincarnates, until they are fully absorbed into and dissolved into Brahman through Self-Realization. But if in Buddhism there is no soul, no self/Self whatsoever, what is it that is reborn, if there is no “carrying medium”?

Actually it is just action, tendencies, and the manifestation/reactions of these action (karma) and tendencies, both from moment to moment and life after life. It is no different from how rebirth is taking place moment by moment even in this lifetime.

Rizenfenix on Rebirth and Continuity

Rizenfenix wrote: https://www.awakeningtoreality.com/.../emptiness-and...

Continuing consciousness after death is, in most religions, a matter of revealed truth. In Buddhism, the evidence comes from the contemplative experience of people who are certainly not ordinary but who are sufficiently numerous that what they say about it is worth taking seriously into account. Indeed, such testimonies begin with those of the Buddha himself.

Nevertheless, it’s important to understand that what’s called reincarnation in Buddhism has nothing to do with the transmigration of some “entity” or other. It’s not a process of metempsychosis because there is no “soul”. As long as one thinks in terms of entities rather than function and continuity, it’s impossible to understand the Buddhist concept of rebirth. As it’s said, “There is no thread passing through the beads of the necklace of rebirths.” Over successive rebirths, what is maintained is not the identity of a “person”, but the conditioning of a stream of consciousness.

Additionally, Buddhism speaks of successive states of existence; in other words, everything isn’t limited to just one lifetime. We’ve experienced other states of existence before our birth in this lifetime, and we’ll experience others after death. This, of course, leads to a fundamental question: is there a nonmaterial consciousness distinct from the body? It would be virtually impossible to talk about reincarnation without first examining the relationship between body and mind. Moreover, since Buddhism denies the existence of any self that could be seen as a separate entity capable of transmigrating from one existence to another by passing from one body to another, one might well wonder what it could be that links those successive states of existence together.

One could possibly understand it better by considering it as a continuum, a stream of consciousness that continues to flow without there being any fixed or autonomous entity running through it… Rather it could be likened to a river without a boat, or to a lamp flame that lights a second lamp, which in-turn lights a third lamp, and so on and so forth; the flame at the end of the process is neither the same flame as at the outset, nor a completely different one…

— Rizenfenix

Soh Wei Yu:

In the Milindapañha the King asks Nāgasena:

“What is it, Venerable Sir, that will be reborn?”

“A psycho-physical combination (nāma-rūpa), O King.”

“But how, Venerable Sir? Is it the same psycho-physical combination as this present one?”

“No, O King. But the present psycho-physical combination produces kammically wholesome and unwholesome volitional activities, and through such kamma a new psycho-physical combination will be born.”

— Milindapañha

Visuddhimagga:

Mere suffering is, not any sufferer is found
The deeds exist, but no performer of the deeds:
Nibbana is, but not the man that enters it,
The path is, but no wanderer is to be seen.

Everywhere, in all the realms of existence, the noble disciple sees only mental and corporeal phenomena kept going through the concatenation of causes and effects. No producer of the volitional act or kamma does he see apart from the kamma, no recipient of the kamma-result apart from the result. And he is well aware that wise men are using merely conventional language, when, with regard to a kammical act, they speak of a doer, or with regard to a kamma-result, they speak of the recipient of the result.

No doer of the deeds is found,
No one who ever reaps their fruits;
Empty phenomena roll on:
This only is the correct view.

And while the deeds and their results
Roll on and on, conditioned all,
There is no first beginning found,
Just as it is with seed and tree. ...

No god, no Brahma, can be called
The maker of this wheel of life:
Empty phenomena roll on,
Dependent on conditions all.

— Visuddhimagga

Malcolm on Nāgārjuna’s Heart of Dependent Origination

Soh Wei Yu:

There is a relevant post that Malcolm just wrote. https://dharmawheel.net/viewtopic.php?f=39&t=30102...

Seeker12 wrote: ↑ Fri Dec 14, 2018 3:54 am. Link Here: http://www.lotsawahouse.org/.../heart-dependent-origination

In verse 6, he says,

“Then, as for extremely subtle entities,
Those who regard them with nihilism,
Lacking precise and thorough knowledge,
Will not see the actuality of conditioned arising.”

Can anyone explain this a bit? What is being referred to as extremely subtle entities that may be regarded with nihilism, lacking precise and thorough knowledge?

Thank you for input.

Malcolm wrote:

The extremely subtle existents are particles, paramanus.

A more precise translation would be:

Although the aggregates are serially connected,
the wise are to comprehend nothing transfers.
Someone, having conceived of annihilation,
even in extremely subtle existents,
is not wise,
and will never see the meaning of “arisen from conditions”.

The auto commentary states with respect to this:

Therein, the aggregates are the aggregates of matter, sensation, perception, formations and consciousness. Those, called “serially joined”, not having ceased, produce another produced from that cause; although not even the subtle particle of an existent has transmigrated from this world to the next.

The purpose of this is to point out that even though nothing transfers from this life to the next, the assertion that even a subtle particle is annihilated is false. Why? Because in Madhyamaka causes and effects are neither the same nor different.

— DharmaWheel thread

Soh Wei Yu:

Verses on the Heart of Dependent Origination by Ārya Nāgārjuna

In the language of India: pratītyasamutpāda hṛdaya kārikā

In the language of Tibet: རྟེན་ཅིང་འབྲེལ་པར་འབྱུང་བའི་སྙིང་པོའི་ཚིག་ལེའུར་བྱས་པ།, (rten cing 'brel par 'byung ba'i snying po tshig le'ur byas pa)

Homage to Mañjuśrī, the Youthful!

These different links, twelve in number,
Which Buddha taught as dependent origination,
Can be summarized in three categories:
Mental afflictions, karma and suffering.

The first, eighth and ninth are afflictions,
The second and tenth are karma,
The remaining seven are suffering.
Thus the twelve links are grouped in three.

From the three the two originate,
And from the two the seven come,
From seven the three come once again—
Thus the wheel of existence turns and turns.

All beings consist of causes and effects,
In which there is no “sentient being” at all.
From phenomena which are exclusively empty,
There arise only empty phenomena.
All things are devoid of any “I” or “mine”.

Like a recitation, a candle, a mirror, a seal,
A magnifying glass, a seed, sourness, or a sound,
So also with the continuation of the aggregates—
The wise should know they are not transferred.

Then, as for extremely subtle entities,
Those who regard them with nihilism,
Lacking precise and thorough knowledge,
Will not see the actuality of conditioned arising.

In this, there is not a thing to be removed,
Nor the slightest thing to be added.
It is looking perfectly into reality itself,
And when reality is seen, complete liberation.

This concludes the verses on “The Heart of Dependent Origination” composed by the teacher Ārya Nāgārjuna.

| Translated by Adam Pearcey, 2008.


The Mādhyamika therefore has to explain how we can account for an object changing and persisting through time without having to assume that there is some unchanging aspect of the object which underlies all change. Nāgārjuna claims that this can indeed be done. Understanding how this can be the case becomes particularly important in the context of the Buddhist conception of the self when the temporal continuity of persons has to be explained without reference to the concept of a persisting subjective core (ātman).

— Nagarjuna's Madhyamaka, p. 126, by Westerhoff

Kyle Dixon and Malcolm on Mindstream, I-Making, and Rebirth

Kyle Dixon recently posted:

There is no actual self or entity in the mindstream, which is a continuum comprised of aggregated and discrete causal instances that create the illusion of a consistent consciousness. That mindstream is unceasing, and is present through many lifetimes.

Regarding the process of I-making in relation to rebirth, Ācārya Malcolm explains this point well:

The Buddha taught rebirth without making recourse to a self that undergoes rebirth.

There are a variety of ways of explaining this, but in essence, the most profound way of understanding this is that the habit of I-making appropriates a new series of aggregates at death, and so it goes on and on until one eradicates the knowledge obscuration that creates this habit of I-making. In the meantime, due to this habit of I-making, one continues to accumulate affliction and karma which results in suffering for infinite lifetimes, just as one has taken rebirth in samsara without a beginning.

But no soul-concept has been introduced in this thread, not at all. The sentient being I was in a past life is not identical with me in this life, even though I suffer and enjoy the results of the negative and positive actions that sentient being and all the other sentient beings engaged in who make up the serial chain of the continuum which I now enjoy. But when I die, all trace of my identity will cease since my identification with my five aggregates as “me” and “mine” is a delusion, and that identity, self, soul, etc., exists merely as a convention and not as an ultimate truth. When the habit of I-making that drives my continuum in samsara takes a new series of aggregates in the next life, it is unlikely I will have any memory of this lifetime, and my habit of I-making will generate a new identity based on the cause and conditions it encounters in the next life.

[The] delusion of “I” is an agent, capable acting and receiving the results of action, even though it does not exist.

It is important to understand that this “I” generated by the habit of I-making does not exist and is fundamentally a delusion. But it is a useful delusion, just like the delusion of a car allows us to use one.

An analogy is using the last candle to light the next candle. One cannot say that two flames are different, nor can one say they are identical, but they do exist in a continuum, a discrete series.

— Kyle Dixon / Ācārya Malcolm

21 DECEMBER 2013 — 22 DECEMBER 2013

Soh Wei Yu:

The shop is playing Jing Kong Fa Shi VCD. He talks about an unborn, undying ling xing — spirit. That which is reborn in six realms, he says, is not the body but the ling xing spirit. It is that which goes to Pure Land. Haha.

John Tan:

His view is more substantial view.

Buddhism does not deny luminous clarity; in fact it is to have total, uncontrieved, direct non-referential of clarity in all moments... therefore no-self apart from manifestation.

Otherwise one is only holding ghost images.

So understanding a spirit traveling in the 6 realms is difference from recognizing these realms are nothing more than one’s radiance clarity.

Soh Wei Yu:

Yeah. I told Truth that before as well because he asked.

John Tan:

About Jing Kong Fa Shi?

Soh Wei Yu:

I see. Yeah, Truth thinks Jing Kong Fa Shi is misleading people and is working for Mara lol.

John Tan:

He was once a follower of Jing Kong, right?

Soh Wei Yu:

I told him Jing Kong is speaking from I AM perspective and one mind. So he sees one God in all religion and he says Brahman in Hindu is same as Buddhism Buddha nature. Don’t think so.

John Tan:

I see.


Bardo, Clear Light, and Empty-Radiance

As to what happens after death, there is the interesting text called Bardo Thodol by Padmasambhava in the Tibetan Buddhism and Dzogchen tradition — a very good text that resonates much. It talks about the stages of bardo/after life, where the first phase is the shutting of all senses and gross concepts are dissolved and one is being absorbed into the formless clear light, even for only a short moment. This is actually rather similar to the I AM experience. But one will usually fail to recognise its true nature, so that moment passes as a mere glimpse or experience without true recognition and the next phase of bardo begins. Following that, one sees all kinds of visions. In each phase there is the possibility to liberate (and the teacher beside the dying will recite the Bardo Thodol verses in order to “remind” or “introduce” the dying/dead/transitioning to the nature of mind in whatever is appearing), by recognising whatever appears or is experienced as one’s empty-radiance; in other words, one instantly liberates on the spot the reification of “self” and “phenomena”, “subject” and “object” by recognizing the empty and luminous nature of mind/display.

Also, Thusness wrote in 2008:

Hi Longchen,

Must be having a challenging time sustaining the vivid presence of non-dual experience. Just to share with you some of my thoughts:

When we die, the thoughts and emotions that are karmically linked to the body are temporarily suspended. The contrast in experience that resulted from the dissolution of the “bond of a body” gives rise to a more vivid experience of Presence; although the experience of Presence is there, the insight into its non-dual essence and emptiness nature isn’t there. This is similar to the experience of “I AM”. Thoughts and emotions will continue to arise and subside with the bond of “I” and “Mine” after death.

Awareness is always non-dual and all pervading; obscured but not lost. In essence all manifestation, transient (emotions, thoughts or feelings) is really the manifold of Presence. They have the same non-dual essence and empty nature. All problems lie not at the manifestation level but at the fundamental level. Deep in us we see things inherently and dualistically. How the experience of Presence can be distorted with the “bond” of dualistic and inherent seeing maybe loosely categorized as:

  1. There is a mirror reflecting dust. (“I AM”)
    Mirror bright is experienced but distorted.
    Dualistic and Inherent seeing.
  2. Dust is required for the mirror to see itself.
    Non-Dualistic but Inherent seeing. (Beginning of non-dual insight)
  3. Dust has always been the mirror (The mirror here is seen as a whole).
    Non-Dualistic and non-inherent insight.

In 3, whatever comes and goes is the Rigpa itself. There is no Rigpa other than that. All along there is no dust really, only when a particular speck of dust claims that it is the purest and truest state then immediately all other arising which from beginning are self-mirroring become dust.

— Thusness, 2008

Originally Posted by Longchen, 2008

Hi Friend,

Just my understanding only. For discussion sake. Also, I find this topic very interesting.

What appears to us are registered by all the sense organs. The eye sight sees some thing, the ears hear something, etc., etc. There are not happening in some place. They are the arising of certain conditions.

To illustrate that what we experience is not standardised, we know that human beings see in term of colour range. Some animals are colour-blind. So they see differently. But none of us is seeing the truth nature directly. The senses of different species of sentient beings experience things differently.

Likewise, the 31 planes of existence are due to different conditions arising. In the jhana meditation, one is said to be able to access these planes of existence. This is because they are not specific locations. They are mental states. In the jhanas, our consciousness changes and “aligned” more with these other states or planes of existence.

All the planes of existence are simultaneously manifesting, but because our senses are human-based conditioned arisings, we only see the human world and other beings that shared “similar” resonating arising conditions. But nevertheless, the other planes of existences are not elsewhere in some other places.

What we think of as places are really just consciousness... no solidity whatsoever. Even our touch sense is just that. It gives an impression of feeling something 3D with textures and so on so forth. But there is no solid self-existing object there... it is simply the sensation that gives the impression of solidity.

— Longchen

Thusness:

Hi Longchen,

I can see the synchronization of emptiness view into your non-dual experiences — integrating view, practice and experience. This is the essence of our emptiness nature and right understanding of non-dual experience in Buddhism that is different from Advaita Vedanta teaching. This is also the understanding of why Everything is the One Reality incorporating causes, conditions and luminosity of our Empty nature as One and inseparable. Everything as the One Reality should never be understood from a dualistic/inherent standpoint.

This also explains the nature of “supernatural power” like clairvoyance and seeing things far away, etc.

Indeed! You can see the how the view, practice and experience leading to the understanding of non-locality in terms of views, practices and experience.

Stage 6. The Nature of Presence is Empty

Not only is there no “who” in pristine awareness, there is no “where” and “when”. This is its nature.

When there is this, that is.
With the arising of this, that arises.
When this is not, neither is that.
With the cessation of this, that ceases.
— the principle of conditionality

The self-luminous awareness from beginning-less time has never been separated and cannot be separated from its conditions. They are not two — This is, That is. Along with the conditions, Luminosity shines without a center and arises without a place. No where to be found. This is the emptiness nature of Presence.

— Thusness

Forum Topic: Will the Soul Leave One When One Meditates?

Thusness: 20 May 2006 · 10:02 AM

From a conventional point of view, it is. If we feel, see, hear and think in terms of “entity”, then it seems that there is a “self” leaving the body. This is because all along, we experience all phenomenon appearances as “solid things” existing independently. Such conventional mode of comprehending our meditative experiences masked the true character of these experiences.

If we treat consciousness to be an atomic-like-particle residing in our body somewhere, then we are making it as a self too. Do not do that. The true character of Consciousness is not a thing, it does not enter, leave, reside within or outside the body. Clear Luminosity is bonded by karmic propensities, causes and conditions. There is no need for a place “within”. Yes, there is a “mental phenomenon” arising but the sensation of “entering” and “leaving” is the result of associating it with a “self”. Just like it is illusionary to see a “self” succeeding from moment to moment, an “entrance” and “exit” is equally illusionary.

Mystical experiences are extremely crucial during the journey of enlightenment. Do not discard them unwisely but assign them correct places. These experiences loosen karmic bonds that latent deep down in our consciousness where it is almost impossible to break through ordinary means. It is an essential condition for the awakening of penetrating insight. The main different between non Buddhist and Buddhist practitioners is that transcendental and mystical experiences are not molded into a “self” but correctly understood and purified with the wisdom of emptiness. This applies true to the Luminous Clarity Knowingness that is non-dual, it is not wrongly personified into Brahman. In perfect clarity, there are no praises for radiance bright, only the Dharma is in sight. The wisdom of emptiness is so deep and profound that even if one has entered the realm of non-dual, he/she will still not be able to grasp its essence in full. This is the wisdom of the Blessed One. The second level of Presence.

— Thusness

Thusness: 06 July 2006 · 10:01 AM

Interesting site...

In most religions and mystical path, the dissolving of the “Self” is necessary for the experience of the divine. The “self” is always experienced as the ultimate block that prevents one from experiencing the transcendental. Glimpses of the beyond arise when we are able to go beyond labels and concepts.

I respect her experience but would just like to add some comments:

On the experience of “AMness”:

The key when the “I” drops away lies in “fusing into everything”. Without this experience, it is still resting in “I AM”, there is no breakthrough. Even with the experience of “fusing into all things”, it remains as a stage having an entry and exit point. To experience pathless that is without entry and exit point is where the doctrine of anatta and emptiness steps in.

On the unchanging self:

It is strange that when people want to know their real self, they start looking at relative bunches of ever changing concepts. Reality is that which underlies relativity. Reality is unchanging.

We must ask ourselves: “What is the only unchanging reality of our life? What is the only phenomenon that has never changed since we were born?”

The answer can readily be experienced when we close our eyes and go introspective. It is our sense of BEING. Our I AM-ness. Everybody can always experience the sense that they exist. That inner sense never changes and is there if we are happy, angry, sad, drunk, — whatever. Further, it cannot be localized within any part of the body. It is limitless and experienced by everyone the same way. It is infinite REALITY!

When observing moment to moment changes, it is almost natural to conclude this way. There must be an unchanging observer observing change is a logical deduction. It is the result of the lightning flash changes, logical deduction and memories that create the impression of an unchanging entity. There is continuity, but continuity with an unchanging entity is not necessary.

On feeling lightness and experiencing “astral traveling”:

My own experience is that the density of the body seems to change. Years ago I experienced the phenomena of “astral traveling.” During this experience you have the feeling of leaving the coarser body and floating. At some stage you have to return to the body, and the feeling is not very pleasant. You are going from a feeling of freedom and “lightness” back into what feels like cold, dense, clay. This “clay” is the collective emotions, experiences, and holding of the body. After some AMness has fallen away, the body feels lighter and less dense. You just keep feeling lighter and freer.

The “density” and “lightness” is the weight of “losing her identification with certain aspect of the self”. The power of this “identification” cannot be underestimated.

Next is her experience of “astral traveling”; if she is in a stage of absorption and then out of a sudden awareness, the eyes of awareness may allow her to witness something that is altogether different from the physical place but this does not necessary mean that “consciousness” has left and re-enter the body. Consciousness is propelled by causes and conditions. According to her conditions of absorption and clarity, just IS.

But then everyone has their own experiences. Just my 2 cents.

— Thusness
Soh

Conversation — 30 April 2010

Thusness: The tata is very good. The Stainless is also good but just to be picky... the 'it' must be eliminated... stainlessness is the ungraspable of the arising and passing phenomena. Without essence and locality of any arising... nothing 'within or without it'. All the expressions in what you quoted are excellent. And all those phases of insight is to get you to what's being expressed. And all those phases of insights are to get you to what that is being expressed in the tata and stainless articles. It is the place where anatta and emptiness become obsolete. Put this in the blog... great expression.

John Tan also told me before my anatta realisation:

Thusness: You never experience anything unchanging. In later phase, when you experience non-dual, there is still this tendency to focus on a background... and that will prevent your progress into the direct insight into the TATA as described in the tata article. And there are still different degree of intensity even you realized to that level.

AEN: Non-dual?

Thusness: tada (an article) is more than non-dual... it is phase 5-7.

AEN: I see...

Thusness: It is all about the integration of the insight of anatta and emptiness. Vividness into transience, feeling what I called 'the texture and fabric' of Awareness as forms is very important, then come emptiness. The integration of luminosity and emptiness.

 

Also see: Stainless

http://www.wwzc.org/book/tada

Dharma Assembly: "Tada!"

    Dharma Talk Presented by Ven. Jinmyo Renge osho
Dainen-ji, October 24th, 2009


People have all kinds of expectations, not only about how their lives  will be, but how today will be, or how this moment will be. But reality  is not an idea. It is what it is. Tada.
In the colder autumn air, the trees are changing colour and fallen  leaves line the gutters of the streets. And seeing this, we know winter  is coming. But although most of us sitting here today have seen this  happen again and and again, year after year after year, we don't really  know what the cold of winter will actually be like. We have memories of  cold fingers, the sound of snow crunching underfoot, memories of having  to put on many layers to protect ourselves from an icy wind. But  memories of cold are not the reality of cold. It is what it is and we  will know cold when it is...cold. Tada. And now, before the snow comes,  we see the colour fading from our immediate world as the trees lose  their leaves and bare branches stand out black against a graying sky.  And mixed into, and swirling along with the leaves in the street, are  discarded paper cups, gum wrappers, used Kleenex and the odd sandwich  wrapper. All swirling in the wind. Is it beautiful? Is it ugly? Neither.  Is it good or bad? Neither. It is Tada.
"Tada" is a Japanese word that means "Just, exactly, of course, just  as it is." It is sometimes, as in the Teachings of Eihei Dogen zenji and  Anzan Hoshin roshi, used as a synonym for the more techincal term  "immo" or "tathata" in Sanskrit, which means Suchness. Suchness is the  reality of all dharmas, all things or experiences. The "actual nature"  is another technical term for this. It means that each thing is sunya or  empty of all of our ideas about and knowledge of anything, that it is  impermanent, that it is the radiance of the Luminosity of experience.
Impermanence is so blatantly obvious. We see our grandparents die,  and as we ourselves age,we see our parents die. We see other people  around us die. We know that all around the world countless people die  every day. But when someone close to us dies, we are so surprised. We  are surprised when our relationships change, when the economy changes,  when our environment changes and we are surprised that we have to change  and that what we do has to change because of these changes. We are  surprised when we become sick, surprised when we let things slide and  difficulty ensues. And most of this surprise is due to a conflict that  comes about when our ideas about reality do not match up with what  reality actually is. Reality is Tada: Things as they actually are.  Suchness. Tada.
That itch behind your ear? Tada. That's it. The sensation of your  hands resting in the mudra? That's it. The moisture you feel on your  tongue? That's it. The movement of the breath? Just as it is. The form  of the person sitting next to you? That's it. The release in your neck  and spine when you straighten your posture? That's it. The sound of my  voice and the quiet pauses between words? Exactly so. In the moment of  Waking up from a thought, the recognition that streaming thoughts that  can never settle on any one definitive "truth" because all that they can  ever be is a continuously changing streaming? That's it. Tada.
The details of each thing stand out clearly and distinctly just as  they are and experiencing is new and fresh, moment-to- moment. There is  no need to embellish, to ponder, to strategize or hold on to anything  whatsoever because each thing that is known is simply being known as  detail arising within the Knowing of it. Tada. So simple.
But, of course, if you let attention narrow and focus, the distortion  that focusing will produce is far from simple. We make such a big deal  out of our stuff....
We can make a big deal out of a yawn: "Y-AAAAAAAAAAAAA-W-N".
Out of a sneeze "Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-Choo!"
Out of a sensation "I have a....headache"; "I'm tired", "My knee  hurts".
Out of a feeling tone (whiny, plaintive voice) "Oh but I thought I  was supposed to....". "But you told me..."
Out of a stance "I'm right and I know I'm right and that's all there  is to it".
Out of a petty memory: "I remember when you did that thing and how it  made me feel and I will never, ever forgive you".
We can make a huge deal out of having to get up in the morning.
Out of having to go to bed at night.
Out of having to eat when it is time to eat.
Out of having to go to work.
Out of having to wait for a bus,
Out of which seat we get on the bus,
Out of simply having to sit down or stand up.
We make a big deal over the simplest of tasks.
Before we do them: "Ugh I have to do yada".
While we are doing them: "Ugh, when is this going to be finished?"
And even after we've done them "I did SUCH a good job of that. Never  has such a good job been done of that thing by anyone, anywhere, and  everyone else should acknowledge that."
We make a big deal of how we look at other people and how they look  at us because we think it all "MEANS" something. It "MEANS" something  about "ME".
"I am so sad. Look at my mournful eyes, so deep and full of feeling". 
"I am so angry, look how I GLARE at you". (that one can be pretty  funny).
"I am sick, look how haggard I am, how near death I am".
Just stop with the "yada yada yada." Just tada. Just practise.
But we can make a big deal out of anything and everything, including  our practice. We can make such a big bloody deal out of being mindful  that instead of just practising it's ME practising. Tadaaaaaaaa!
But that's the wrong kind of tada. The richness, the dignity, the  intimacy of our experience just as it is, without all of our  fabrications and contractions and manipulations is inconceivable. It is  literally and completely beyond concepts and ideas and stories. In order  to realize this, we need to just let go of our habits of attention in  all of the ways they are manifested by body and mind.
The Roshi has pointed out that a sense of a "me" is more directly and  basically a "sense of locatedness" and that along with it there is a  directionality, as it can seem to us that attention moves from a central  point, a "me", out and towards experiences. When this sense of  locatedness first begins to form, it is the wordless presumption that  knowing moves from "here" to "there" in order to know. And yet, this  sense of locatedness as a self can itself be known and so obviously  cannot be a "knower" or a "self". It is a freezing or crystallization of  attention which is much like a frame and from this frame, attention  seems to move out and towards what is known. This is why instead of just  practising, it can seem to us that there is a "ME" that is practising.
In Rhythm and Song, a series of teisho on Dongshan Liangjie daiosho's  text the Hokyo Zanmai, Anzan roshi recounts many mondo-kien or  encounter dialogues between Great Master Dongshan and his students. One  student was Xuefeng, who much later became a great Teacher after  receiving Transmission from Deshan who unlike Dongshan did not mind  beating students with his staff. But while he was studying with  Dongshan, Xuefeng was still full of himself and full of ideas about  Suchness and emptiness. Here is one story:

Once Xuefeng was carrying a bundle of firewood. When he arrived in  front of the Master, he threw the bundle down.
The Master asked, "How heavy is it?"
Xuefeng said, "No one in the world can lift it!"
Dongshan asked, "Then how did it get here?"
Xuefeng didn't know what to say.

Poor Xuefeng. What a tool. He was a tool because he was trying to use  everything around him as equipment to aggrandize himself. Even a bundle  of firewood. Even the simple act of carrying it. For him even samu,  caretaking practice, was about the profundity of his idea of his  understanding of emptiness. What a tool.
In Rhythm and Song, Anzan Hoshin roshi calls out to us from what all  of the Buddhas and Awakened Ancestors of our Lineage have realized and  practised,

Intimacy is revealed when we release. We release when we realize that  there is nowhere apart from us that we can drop away all of the things  about ourselves that we wish were not the case; all of the thoughts and  feelings and strategies that at times we are so tired of, and at others,  so convinced of.
It is not as simple as that.
It is much, much, easier than that.
It is the simplest thing.
Nothing is true about us. Our nice thoughts do not make us nice. Our  devious thoughts do not make us devious. Our bad thoughts do not make us  bad.
A thought cannot make anything.
There is nowhere to hide because there is no need to hide.
There is nothing that is true 'about' us because we are that which is  true. We are that which presents itself everywhere as everything and  yet is itself nowhere at all, no thing at all.
You are this deep intimacy.
Where have you been?

So please join me in not just saying, but in actually being: Tada.