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    Reality has opened up again and shown itself. I broke a belief holding back what I think may be total exertion. It was some form of thought about how visual sense and auditory sense depend on each other in real time. I wasn't able to see that before, but once this was resolved in my sit, a series of strange transitions occurred. First I saw that each sensation was self-arisen. It could not have come from anything else. Next was seeing that each sensation depends on the totality. And that when the hum of the refrigerator next to me is clear, the totality is dark, but since it doesn't exist without dependency, that hum was the expression of everything. Everything coming together to hummmmmmmm..... No more problem with any particular sensations, no need to focus to maintain pristine contact with the senses, always just sensations rolling on. Listening to teacher talks on youtube today after this, felt like there was no distance between this teaching live and present experiencing. Heart to heart, mind to mind, directly touching, very hard to describe. It was like a direct connection from the teachers energy system to mine own. A 3-dimensional meeting of 2 energy systems arose in the "internal" visual sense, moving and swaying with the external visual sense in real time. Aversion seems like the farthest thing possible with this view. Each sensation is the expression of the entire universe, how could one even push that away and what would be the point? Unclear if this will stay effortless to perceive, but this certainly relieves a lot of suffering.
    Edit: Added a missing step in the transition
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    More thoughts on this came to me. Taking the phrase "Hearing hearing hearing" that I have heard as descriptions of total exertion from Dogen and commentaries of such. If you look at the experience of hearing, we can break down each word following and b…
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    Awesome man 🥳
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    John tan:
    After stability of direct experiences and insights, he must clear cognitive obscurations to fully open up. Is there externality or no externality? Are there cause and effect or no cause or effect? Existence of no existence if he is into mmk (this is esp imp as existence is one's main grasping).
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    Jt:
    “But for now imo he should stabilize his experiences and insights first and go slow on analysis...just keep opening up for 2-3 years.”
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John Tan:

Yes very good👍

 

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The 9th Karmapa, pointing out a section of Mahamudra vipasyana, in "Moonbeams of Mahamudra."
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