Showing posts with label Self Enquiry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Self Enquiry. Show all posts
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4RsQ6h8JiKY - interesting life story of 杨定一, the path of self enquiry and his I AM realization. Translation:

Recently, viewers have been hoping I would interview Dr. Yang Ding-I, so I read most of his books. The one I read most carefully was Miracle, because I was most interested in his personal story. How did he himself awaken? The word "miracle" appears countless times in this book. In fact, there are several stories that he considers the "greatest miracle"—his birth, growth, encounters, and awakening. Step by step, he experienced countless miracles. And he didn't even mention the most "mystical" things, for fear that some people couldn't accept them. He said he wrote this book hoping to inspire everyone to reflect on their own lives and how many times they have encountered incredible phenomena. He believes that "miracles" are actually experienced by everyone, but we filter them out with our rationality. I tried hard to recall my own ordinary life, but I really couldn't think of any miracles. The miracles he experienced are certainly not universal. To be honest, reading this book made me quite frustrated.

So, I sent an email to the "The Totality of Life" series channel. I said I very much hoped to interview Dr. Yang and just wanted to ask one question: In all these years, among your readers and students, have there been any ordinary people, those without any special abilities or magical experiences, who suddenly, one day, truly awakened?

I explained that the reason I asked this question was that I already had some suspicions in my heart. Dr. Yang, you say that surrender and self-inquiry are great paths that only the most mature people can take. Well, these most mature people certainly did not become mature in this lifetime. Like you, they have already gone through "awakenings of many lifetimes" and are putting a final period on it in this life. You are actually waiting for those who, like you, showed abnormalities from a young age, people who experienced various miracles. Only they will awaken in this lifetime. Of course, your compassion benefits everyone. Whether we awaken or not, we can at least live more freely and at ease.

I have great respect for enlightened beings like Dr. Yang, and asking this question was absolutely not a challenge to him, but a genuine desire for an answer. This is because after interviewing these guests, I had a feeling that so-called mystical experiences or psychic abilities might all be signals of an impending awakening. It suggests that after lifetimes of karma (retribution), their time has come. As for those who haven't experienced anything yet, perhaps their time has not yet come in this life. Unexpectedly, just one day later, I received a reply and got the answer to this question, but in a way I could never have anticipated.

Don't be impatient. Let's first look at the Doctor's own awakening process in this book, and then I will tell you what kind of answer and reply I received.

Dr. Yang's father, Yang Zhengmin, why did he give his son this name? It turns out "Ding-I" comes from Mencius, Seeing King Xiang of Liang. Mencius said: "Stability comes from being one," meaning "the world can be stable when it is unified." Think about it, how well this name fits with "Oneness": not only is the world unified, but isn't the entire universe, even countless universes, unified in "One"? Dr. Yang was born in Taiwan. His birth was different from others; he was 4-6 weeks past his due date. A post-term pregnancy is quite dangerous. I wonder if he was hesitating, unsure whether to take another trip to this human world. Dr. Yang's parents were very simple, kind, and loving people. He believes that in their entire lives, his parents "never did a single bad thing." Yet, they later encountered extreme misfortune, which I will talk about later. Old Mr. Yang wrote several collections of essays, one of which is titled A Dozen PhDs in My Home. This is because his four children are all "double PhDs," and when you add their spouses, the number of doctoral degrees in the large family adds up to about "a dozen." From this, everyone can understand what kind of soul family this is.

From a young age, Dr. Yang had what are commonly called "special abilities." For example, when he slept at night, he could hear music that others couldn't, as if it were "celestial music" from another world. Moreover, his consciousness could follow the music, leave his body, and wander into another world. He could see his own body. This is like the "near-death experience" many people have, but for him, it was a commonplace "night-wandering experience." Sometimes he could feel a sun shining in his heart, constantly expanding, even expanding outside the house. He could also see various people and things, all carrying their own spectrum of light. Happy people and angry people, friendly people and unfriendly people, all had different lights. When he was 7, his whole family immigrated to Brazil (to make it easier to contact relatives on the mainland). One time, he and his younger brother were competing to see who could jump higher. As soon as he jumped, he surprisingly kept rising all the way to the ceiling, scaring both himself and his brother. When he went to see a movie with his brother, he would somehow realize that time and space are fabricated, that everything around him was an illusion (like a movie). Sometimes, he was like an eagle, able to look down on the world from above, with all details clearly visible. Even when he participated in judo or soccer matches, he could see the entire game and his opponents from "every angle," allowing him to calmly take down opponents or score goals.

What's more strange is that since he was a child, he could see some "friendly beings" who came to teach him. He called them "Great Sages." Because his mother was a devout Catholic, he was baptized at a young age and was familiar with many scriptures. He loved going to church to listen to sermons, confess, and pray, and even considered becoming a priest. When he was five or six, during a prayer, he saw the Jesus on the cross move, open his arms, walk towards him, look at him, and gently place a hand full of light on his head. Instantly, a warm current poured down from the top of his head and flowed through his whole body. For the first time, he experienced an indescribable joy. Later, he experienced this many, many times, even as an adult with a family (being filled with light). He said this is the state of "union with God" that many people have experienced. Not only Jesus, but various angels also often appeared to protect him at any time. And he discovered that some unfriendly people had unfriendly beings following them. It wasn't until he was almost an adult that he realized it was actually the good and evil within his own mind. His connection with Catholicism was not only because of his childhood immersion and closeness to Jesus. Once, under a friend's hypnosis, he clearly saw his past life—a Jesuit missionary who had preached in Brazil. Later, after he came into contact with Buddhism, the Four Great Bodhisattvas all became his teachers. Manjushri, symbolizing wisdom, seemed to be teaching him at all times, giving him deeper insights and constantly reminding him that everything is an illusion. Guanyin (Avalokiteshvara), symbolizing loving-kindness, constantly demonstrated non-discriminatory compassion to him, letting him know that he had never been separate from anything. Moreover, Guanyin also represents the great path of sound, making him understand that sound strikes the heart more directly than words. Samantabhadra, representing the mind of equality, let him know that every moment is equal; "thought" and "no-thought," "being" and "not-being," "everything" and "emptiness" are all equal. And Ksitigarbha constantly reminded him that this world is created by karma, and that even all diseases are related to karma. Most miraculously, the entire structural integration system was taught to him by Ksitigarbha during one of his runs. However, in the end, Dr. Yang says not to think of these four Bodhisattvas as four separate individuals. In fact, the qualities they represent—wisdom, compassion, equality, and the transformation of karma—are our inherent essence. As long as we find our true selves, we are complete in ourselves.

By the age of 7, he had already finished reading all the physics and mathematics books on his father's bookshelf. Ordinary people read books one by one, or a few books in rotation. But he read books like this: he would place 6-10 books on a table and walk around the table reading them as if at a buffet, glancing at this one, looking at that one. He had a nearly photographic memory. Every time he went to the library, he would borrow dozens of books and finish them in a few days. In a few years, he had read almost all the books in the school library. Ordinary people read with their eyes, but he (sometimes) could just place his hand on a book and grasp its content. Sometimes, he would put a book under his pillow, and when he woke up, it was as if he had read the book. Many years later, he had a collection of tens of thousands of books but rarely read them anymore. It seemed that all knowledge was absorbed by him from the infinite, just like his "The Totality of Life" series, which was downloaded directly from the universe. This child prodigy entered medical school at 13, received his medical doctorate at 19, and another doctorate in biochemistry at 21. At 27, he was leading a large laboratory at Rockefeller University. The professors on the floors above and below him had either won the Nobel Prize or had come close to winning it. But he said that during this time, what left the deepest impression on him was that he would often enter a state of no-thought. For him, this state was both a great rest and a burst of inspiration. Sometimes he could even foresee the future. He believes that everyone can be like this, born with some innate psychic qualities.

His awakening happened in New York, marked by several "greatest miracles." When he was around 20, he walked into a bookstore one day and suddenly saw an aged face on a book cover. He froze, stood still, and tears began to stream down his face. His whole body felt waves of electricity passing through it. The cover of that book was Ramana Maharshi, the Indian sage. He placed his hand on the book and it was as if he understood what he was saying. The "non-duality" that Ramana Maharshi taught his whole life was precisely the "self-inquiry" that Dr. Yang would later share. But he didn't read his book. He only knew that in his past life, he had studied with this master. That encounter in the bookstore was their "most intimate reunion." "It was as if he brought me back into my life, and naturally, it allowed him and me to unite on a deeper level of my heart. The subsequent understanding of him was not at all through grasping or interpreting his words. At most, I can only thank him for coming back again to be my teacher. In that bookstore, an inexpressible transmission was completed. This most intimate reunion of my life, I believe, is one of the greatest gifts I have received. This in itself is also one of the greatest miracles." Later, he had the opportunity to visit this sage's place of practice, "Arunachala" (Holy Beacon Mountain). Ramana Maharshi awakened at 16 and spent the rest of his life practicing at Arunachala, initially in a cave and later at the Ramana Ashram at the foot of the mountain. Pilgrims from all over the world would gather to pay homage at the place of Ramana's passing, the "Samadhi" hall of the ashram. Dr. Yang, however, climbed Arunachala barefoot and entered a cave to "enter samadhi." The gatekeeper seemed to see his unusual connection with Ramana and made an exception, allowing him to spend the night there alone, for several consecutive nights. He said "Arunachala" is a great spiral energy field connecting to the heavens. There, he not only united with Ramana Maharshi but also with the countless sages who had practiced there. He paid homage to all the great masters. In fact, Dr. Yang's system of thought, like Ramana Maharshi's, transcends the boundaries of religion.

It was in that same bookstore that he casually picked up a copy of the Platform Sutra of the Sixth Patriarch. This was the first Buddhist scripture he read. A few weeks later, he finally opened the book. Just like when he saw Ramana Maharshi's face, from the very first sentence, his tears began to flow uncontrollably. And he found himself slowly rising to the ceiling, looking down at himself reading the book. It seemed he already knew the contents of the book. He continued to rise and expand, looking down on the houses, roads, forests, the moon, the stars... until the entire universe, omnipresent, or nowhere at all. And it was as if the entire history of the universe, the countless civilizations on Earth, flowed before his eyes. It was all a grand illusion. Everything was a grand illusion. "It was actually I who created everything, it was I who thought up everything. There is not a single drop that was not created by me. I am the sun, I am the moon, I am the Earth, I am every stone on Earth, every tree, every sentient being. I am every baby, I am the babies not yet born. I am the deceased, I am those after death. I am everything. There is not a single thing that is not me." This experience was "world-destroying" for him, destroying the entire world he had built in the past. And he discovered that besides the "me" who was reading the sutra, there was an unmoving part (of consciousness). This part enjoyed unrestrained freedom and experienced boundless joy. His entire being was renewed. From his body to his personality, everything changed. His way of seeing the world was different. Everything was inverted. What he used to care about and pursue was all superfluous, all ignorance.

He wanted to become a monk. He spent a long time in silent meditation, even in seclusion, and often fasted. In a very short time, various English versions of Buddhist scriptures were brought to him. But apart from the Heart Sutra, the Diamond Sutra, and a part of the Shurangama Sutra, he did not read other Buddhist scriptures. These classics seemed to generate a huge "field of tranquility." He only needed to sit next to them to feel it, without needing to read the words. And all his experiences could be verified in the classics.

One day, he received a book. On the cover was an old gentleman with flowing white hair, Master Xuyun. His tears flowed out again. He couldn't help but sit down cross-legged. As a result, many images appeared before his eyes, like a "flashback." He returned to his childhood, before birth, his past life, the life before that, and the life before that. Suddenly, every word of the Heart Sutra came alive, one by one. Corresponding to his realizations, they went in reverse from the last word, all the way to the first word. Suddenly, his body exploded. Not an outward explosion, but an implosion. "It wasn't just like I was split open from the top of my head, but this splitting was cracking from all directions, even shattering. It suddenly opened up even from under my feet, cracking like an earthquake. It was like a bottomless pit below, and the remaining fragments just fell down from here. Nothing was left, not even nothingness. Cleanly gone." When he opened his eyes, a whole night had passed. The sun was rising. He said he saw the image of Shakyamuni Buddha 2,600 years ago, opening his eyes and looking at the universe. The sun he felt as a child appeared again, as bright as ten million suns, expanding to the size of an entire galaxy, but it also "imploded" without leaving a single speck. He saw his countless lives, from one space to another, not just in the human realm, but also in the celestial and hell realms. In the end, everything "exploded"... During that time, it was as if his third eye was opened. He could see other people's illnesses, auras, spirits, and predict the future. But finally, one day, all states were gone. All supernatural powers were gone. Those were all products of the mind. In the end, there were no thoughts at all. Just peace and happiness.

He now entered a state where, when brushing his teeth and looking in the mirror, he didn't know who was inside. When working in the laboratory, he didn't know who was working. At lunch, he didn't know who was eating. Whether it was experimenting, teaching, giving lectures, writing, or eating, it seemed everything was done naturally by the body. He could sit in a corner, and a whole night would pass. Sometimes a whole weekend would pass. No thoughts at all. He was aware of the sounds around him, but it seemed everything had nothing to do with him. It turned out this was the state of complete union with "Oneness," that effortless "knowing" and "awareness." What "imploded" was the "little self," the identity that was one with the little self. This way, he could easily stay on two levels. "I suddenly realized that in the past, I had completely mistaken my own identity, thinking that I was this body looking at everything. If I shift my attention to a motionless background, for example, the mirror in front of me, I would suddenly find that everything in front of the mirror, including this world, has disappeared. Or a more correct expression is: this mirror no longer needs to reflect a person or a world, and thus its function is saved. In this way, I naturally unlocked what I would call, decades later, omnipresence, omniscience, and omnipotence. It's because we can place our consciousness on the infinitely large background at any time. We don't need to perceive or know anything, but can easily stay in the 'awareness' or 'knowing' that is in front. There is no need to perceive or know anything. And just like that, we easily jump out of the framework set by humans. Through this limited life, we live out the infinitely large totality. The contradiction this brings also disappears."

In the following decades, he wanted to share with people, to communicate with various teachers, but found it impossible. Because the other party had not experienced what he had experienced, they couldn't understand what he was saying. This is like us un-enlightened people reading his books. We recognize every word, we seem to understand everything, and we may even completely agree with what he says in theory, but we are still separated by this mirror and cannot experience it from that angle.

He likes to go into nature, and no matter where he sits, many animals will come and approach him. This is because a person with "no thoughts" will generate a field of tranquility that animals are involuntarily drawn to. So one day, he suddenly understood what "love" is. "I suddenly understood from my heart what love is. Not the love of the past in the human world with parents, siblings, and others. This love has no object, and there is no one loving anyone. At most, I can only say it is loving myself. But this 'self' is actually the whole, it is 'Oneness.' It is 'Oneness' loving 'Oneness.' Plus, besides 'Oneness,' besides the whole, everything else is a product of my brain. No separation exists. Not only is there no one who can love anyone, there is no 'me' who can love 'you' or others." That is to say, loving parents, loving children, loving a spouse, loving friends, etc., are not true love because they have specific objects. Only love without an object is true love. True love is not produced from the mind, but originates from "Oneness" and returns to "Oneness," like "self-love."

One time, he was sitting on a large rock and suddenly had another earth-shattering discovery: this rock has life and breath, it's just that its breath is so slow that humans cannot perceive it. Similarly, everything has life. They are all particles created by consciousness. That is why we are all interconnected as one. "I also suddenly discovered that there is no such thing as spiritual practice or enlightenment. Because everything, enlightenment or being enlightened, even the Earth under my feet, is originally our essence. At most, it is just consciousness, the consciousness that each of us originally has. Sitting on the rock, I further realized that there is actually no such thing as love, happiness, and tranquility. These are, at most, just more illusions created by the mind. I now understand. What I wanted to pursue, I already had, I already was. Even spiritual practice is inverted. The enlightenment that spiritual practice seeks is also inverted. Enlightenment is what I originally have, yet I seem to be trying to find what I already have through practice. When I realized this at that moment, I had a big laugh." He believes that various spiritual practices, such as yoga, meditation, chanting mantras, visualization, prayer, and so on, can purify the body and mind, allowing one to reach a state of quiet and concentration, but they cannot bring one back to "Oneness." Because they and Oneness are on two different levels, the two sides simply cannot connect. In other words, if we want to jump out of the mind through various methods projected by the mind, it is impossible. In the end, "the mind itself is the biggest obstacle to enlightenment."

So what to do? It's simple, move the mind aside, let it go, and everything is tranquility. We naturally return home. One day, he opened the curtains. The sun was just rising. He suddenly realized: the sun is God. Everything before his eyes is God. Everyone is God. There is no other God besides oneself. "It turns out I am actually this perfect embodiment. I myself am the answer I have been searching for my whole life. I am eternal. I am infinitely large. I am everything. Everything is me."

As mentioned earlier, his parents were kind and simple people. However, unfortunately, in 1989, when he was 31, his parents went to a hospital for a physical check-up while traveling in Taiwan. Because his mother was experiencing dizziness, a blood sugar test was added at the last minute. She was supposed to drink a glass of glucose water but was mistakenly given an anesthetic. From then on, she fell into a coma and passed away nearly 30 years later. This was clearly a major medical accident, but Dr. Yang did not mention the detailed cause and effect in his book. It was in this book that I saw the full story (the process mentioned earlier). He had premonitions at two moments: when his mother had the accident and when she was about to pass away. He said, "Even though I knew in my heart that all the karma in this human world cannot be stopped, the best way is at most just to accept. Accept everything. Through acceptance, through surrender, can it be allowed to correct itself. But I remember at that time, my heart was still praying very earnestly, hoping to influence the outcome." Obviously, his prayers did not affect the outcome. When his mother was about to leave the world, he sensed it. After he and his three siblings all rushed back (to Taiwan), his mother took her last breath.

Dr. Yang says that consciousness has two tracks. One is controlled by karma, following cause and effect. Everything is already predetermined. But the other track is not affected by karma. It has neither birth nor death and has never undergone any change. Therefore, whether a person becomes a monk, whether they have spiritual roots, whether they have merit, whether they have a profession, or whatever their profession is, these have no relation to their enlightenment. These are different tracks of consciousness. The two tracks are not mutually exclusive but overlapping. Therefore, anyone can realize the truth of life. Of course, an enlightened person, as long as they still have this body, this body will still follow the workings of karma, still experience birth, aging, sickness, and death. He also repeatedly emphasized that the Earth is rapidly raising its frequency, thereby bringing about unprecedented, enormous momentum for transformation. Therefore, in the past, a practitioner might practice for a lifetime to achieve some accomplishment. But this time, no matter what field, no matter what profession, no matter what social class, anyone can transform this time.

Now, let me talk about the answer I received. The day after I wrote the email to Dr. Yang, I chatted with an American viewer, "Sister Rose," for four hours. And she is an ordinary person with no "special abilities" and no magical experiences. But she is one of Dr. Yang's already awakened students. Because she did not want to show her face or be heard, I asked her to write this short written testimony. Next, let's enjoy the rose garden in her backyard while we listen to her testimony.

"For many years, my search and pursuit of faith was without the right method and I couldn't find the entrance. I often asked myself, what is my purpose in this life? What are the lessons I need to learn? In the fall of 2019, I heard Dr. Yang Ding-I's name for the first time. That day, I accidentally saw a video. Out of curiosity for the six words 'unreasonable happiness,' I clicked it open. From then on, my spiritual world was completely changed. The resonance from that video made me eager to learn more. I started by listening to the book clubs, especially the first episode, 'Loss is the Greatest Grace.' I listened to it repeatedly, crying my eyes out many times. It was both a release of inexplicable grievances and a joy of being deeply understood. The shock it brought to my body and mind made me develop a deep trust in Dr. Yang. I listened eagerly, and gradually felt that besides the warmth and stability brought by his voice and words, he seemed to be trying to convey some message, but I couldn't grasp it for a while. Dr. Yang said he is just a Messenger, a postman, a messenger of information, 'paving the red carpet' for the arrival of the future Buddha Maitreya and the future Christ. So what is he conveying? I had to figure it out. I repeatedly listened to the audio, read the 'The Totality of Life' series of books, persisted in doing the practices of 'surrender' and 'self-inquiry,' and always immersed myself in unconditional gratitude. About half a year later, one day, it was like a switch was flipped from left to right, with a 'click.' It felt like falling into an abyss, but I knew I would be safely held. Suddenly, I experienced what the Doctor called 'Being,' 'Awareness.' I couldn't help but smile to myself. So this is what the Doctor was trying to convey to all of us time and time again! Isn't it the most natural, most relaxed state that each of us has? It's just that without someone pointing it out, one wouldn't even know that such a state exists. Usually, limited by the five senses and thoughts, we take the world before our eyes as the entirety, living as the entirety. In fact, just by making a slight shift in attention, one can immediately experience the existence of a larger, unmoving background. It turns out it's that simple. To say it is 'empty,' it can be boundlessly empty. To say it is 'full,' it can be so full that not even a needle can be inserted. It is abundant, free, and joyful. It is 'here, now.' Ah, I've received the message! Next, I immediately understood the classic words in the Heart Sutra, Diamond Sutra, Platform Sutra of the Sixth Patriarch, and Tao Te Ching. After a glimpse of the beauty of 'Being' and 'Awareness,' I once thought, 'Okay, I know it now,' and was ready to put it aside. It seemed as if the Doctor saw through my thoughts. At the book club, the sentence 'Why not treat yourself as a guinea pig and do an experiment?' once again deeply penetrated my heart. I had no choice but to obediently continue with 'Being' and 'Awareness.' After several years of practice, the deeper my experience of 'Being' and 'Awareness' became, the more I felt it was a treasure. Always keeping myself in a state of awareness, I became much calmer towards people and things. Of course, I am very clear where this 'calm' comes from. Although I have never met Dr. Yang Ding-I, I regard the Doctor as the most important master in my spiritual pursuit. Even though the Doctor often says that no one is anyone's teacher, the power within is the greatest teacher, I still want to thank the Doctor very much for using his life field to bless and stabilize our body, mind, and spirit practice. The Doctor is like the 'hand pointing to the moon,' the 'boat crossing the river.' Following his guidance, I saw the Buddha-nature and divine nature that everyone possesses, which is also our free and natural essence. Even though I have not yet taken refuge in any religion, I can live out the totality of life, live out light, live out love, and contribute a little bit of strength to the evolution of Earth's consciousness!"

My goodness. Was this sent by the universe, or was it sent by Dr. Yang? I don't know. On the same day, I also received a very polite email from Dr. Yang's secretary, tactfully declining the exclusive interview. But I had already received the answer, hadn't I? Last December, a viewer from Toronto also chatted with me privately for four hours. It was she who introduced me to Teacher Xiong Pang. It can be said that Teacher Xiong Pang gave me, someone who originally wanted to "lie flat" and just be an "observer," a glimmer of hope. And that month, I also had a "dream": in a large underground arcade, there were many, many levels and all kinds of game machines. You could play by inserting a coin. But I wasn't interested in anything, didn't want to play anything. I just felt hopeless in my heart. Later, I asked Teacher Xiong Pang what this meant. He said: "Your despair with the illusion (the games may represent samsara) shows that a great turning point for your soul is about to arrive. The path to liberation is full of hope."

"You and I were originally awake, we just didn't know it, or maybe we forgot. However, as long as you know or remember, you and I are already living out the awakening we originally have." By the way, if you are also a person who is already awakened (or is awakening), no matter which path you are on, if you are willing to share, please send an email to Sister Jianghu, okay? My email address is in my channel description. You don't have to show your face or be heard, just like this "Sister Rose." Your story will surely inspire thousands of people walking on the path of awakening.

Finally, I really can't help but want to cry. How lucky is Sister Jianghu? Because of this channel, I have gotten to know so many guests and viewers. We are all fellow travelers!

Soh

Also see my (Soh's) article: Self Enquiry, Neti Neti and the Process of Elimination

 

From https://adyashanti.opengatesangha.org/

The Art of Self-Inquiry

The Art of Self-Inquiry

When it comes to awakening, I have found two elements to be the most helpful and most powerful. The first is developing a meditative attitude, in which we let go of control on a very deep level and allow everything to be as it is. The second is a serious engagement with our own inherent curiosity and intelligence through meditative self-inquiry. Either one of these two separated can be incomplete: Inquiry separated from meditation can become intellectual and abstract; meditation separated from inquiry can result in our getting lost in various different spiritual states. Combined, they provide the necessary energy, the necessary impetus, to produce a flash of recognition of your true nature. And in the end, that is what spirituality is all about.

WHAT IS A SPIRITUALLY POWERFUL QUESTION?
Meditative self-inquiry is the art of asking a spiritually powerful question. And a question that is spiritually powerful always points us back to ourselves. Because the most important thing that leads to spiritual awakening is to discover who and what we are—to wake up from this dream state, this trance state of identification with ego. And for this awakening to occur, there needs to be some transformative energy that can flash into consciousness. It needs to be an energy that is actually powerful enough to awaken consciousness out of its trance of separateness into the truth of our being. Inquiry is an active engagement with our own experience that can cultivate this flash of spiritual insight.

The most important thing in spiritual inquiry is to ask the right question. The right question is a question that genuinely has energy for you. In spirituality, the most important thing initially is to ask yourself, What is the most important thing? What is spirituality about for you? What is the question that’s in your deepest heart? Not the question that some- one tells you should be there, not what you’ve learned it should be. But what is the question for you? If you meditate, why are you doing it? What question are you trying to answer?

The most intimate question we can ask, and the one that has the most spiritual power, is this: What or who am I? Before I wonder why I am here, maybe I should find out who this “I” is who is asking the question. Before I ask “What is God?” maybe I should ask who I am, this “I” who is seeking God. Who am I, who is actually living this life? Who is right here, right now? Who is on the spiritual path? Who is it that is meditating? Who am I really? It is this question which begins the journey of spiritual self-inquiry, finding out, for your own self, who and what you truly are.

So step number one of self-inquiry is having a spiritually powerful question, such as “Who or what am l?” Step number two is knowing how to ask that question.

THE WAY OF SUBTRACTION
Before we actually find out what we are, we must first find out what we are not. Otherwise our assumptions will continue to contaminate the whole investigation. We could call this the way of subtraction. In the Christian tradition, they call this the Via Negativa, the negative path. In the Hindu tradition of Vedanta, they call this neti neti, which means “not this, not that.” These are all paths of subtraction, ways of finding out what we are by finding out what we are not.

We start by looking at the assumptions we have about who we are. For example, we look at our minds and we notice that there are thoughts. Clearly there is something or someone that is noticing the thoughts. You may not know what it is, but you know it’s there. Thoughts come and go, but that which is witnessing the thoughts remains.

If thoughts come and go, then they aren’t really what you are. Starting to realize that you are not your thoughts is very significant, since most people assume they are what they think. Yet a simple look into your own experience reveals that you are the witness of your thoughts. Whatever thoughts you have about yourself aren’t who and what you are. There is something more primary that is watching the thoughts.

In the same way, there are feelings—happiness, sadness, anxiety, joy, peace—and then there is the witness of those feelings. Feelings come and go, but the awareness of feelings remains.

The same is true for beliefs. We have many beliefs, and we have the awareness of those beliefs. They may be spiritual beliefs, beliefs about your neighbor, beliefs about your parents, beliefs about yourself (which are usually the most damaging), beliefs about a whole variety of things. Beliefs are thoughts that we assume to be true. We can all see that our beliefs have changed as we’ve grown, as we move through a lifetime. Beliefs come and go, but they do not tell us who the watcher is. The watcher or the witness stands before the beliefs.

The same thing goes for our ego personality. We tend to think that we are our egos, that we are our personalities. And yet, just as with thoughts, feelings, and beliefs, we can come to see that there is a witness to our ego personality. There’s an ego personality called “you,” and then there is a watching of the ego personality. The awareness of the ego personality stands before the personality; it is noticing it, without judging, without condemning.

Here we’ve started to move into something more intimate. Your essential, deepest nature cannot be your personality. Your ego personality is being watched by something more primary; it is being witnessed by awareness.

With that, we arrive at awareness itself. We notice that there is awareness. You are aware of what you think. You are aware of how you feel. So awareness is clearly present. It is not something that needs to be cultivated or manufactured. Awareness simply is. It is that which makes it possible to know, to experience what is happening.

WHO IS AWARE?
No sooner do we get back to awareness itself than we encounter the primary assumption that “I am the one who is aware.” So we investigate that assumption, and discover time and time again that we cannot find out who it is that is aware. Where is this “I” that is aware? It is at this precise moment—the moment when we realize that we cannot find an entity called “me” who owns or possesses awareness—that it starts to dawn on us that maybe we ourselves are awareness itself.

This self-recognition can’t be understood in the mind. It’s a leap that the mind can’t make. Thought cannot comprehend what is beyond thought. That’s why we call this a transcendent recognition. It’s actually our identity waking up from the prison of separation to its true state. This is both simple and extraordinarily profound. It is a flash of revelation.

One of the simplest pointers I can give here is to remember that this process of inquiry and investigation really takes place from the neck down. An example of this is when you ask yourself, “What am l?” The first thing most people realize is that they don’t know. So most people will go into their minds to try to figure it out. But the first thing that your mind knows is that you don’t know. In spiritual inquiry that’s very useful information. “I don’t know what I am. I don’t know who I am.”

Once you recognize that, you can either think about it or you can actually feel it. What’s it like when you look inside to find out who you are and you don’t find an entity called “you”? What does that open space feel like? Feel it in your body; let it register in the cells of your being. This is real spiritual inquiry. This transforms what might have been just an abstract thought in the mind into something that is very visceral, very kinesthetic, and very spiritually powerful.

Once we recognize ourselves as awareness itself, our identity can begin to rest in its essence. Who we are is no longer found in our body, mind, personality, thoughts, and beliefs. Who we are rests in its source. When we rest in our source, our body and mind and personality and thoughts and feelings come into harmony.

THE GREAT INCLUSION
After the Way of Subtraction comes what I call the Great Inclusion. When we start to let go into awareness or spirit, we start to recognize that that is who and what we are. We start to see that everything in existence is simply a manifestation or expression of spirit, whether it’s the chair, or the floor, or your shoes, or the trees outside, the sky, the body that you call “you,” the mind, the ego, the personality, everything—all are expressions of spirit.

When our identification is caught in these various forms, the result is suffering. But when, through inquiry and meditation, our identity starts to come back to its home ground of awareness, then everything is included. You discover that your humanness is in no way separate from the divinity within you, which is what you actually are.

Now please don’t try to understand this with your mind. This is really not understandable in the mind. This knowing resides at a deeper point, at a deeper place within ourselves. Something else understands; something else knows.

THAT WHICH REMAINS THE SAME
Nobody can force this flash of recognition into being. It happens spontaneously. It happens by itself. But what we can do is cultivate the ground and create the conditions under which this flash of recognition happens. We can open our minds to deeper possibilities and start to investigate for ourselves what we really and truly are.

When this awakening to our true nature happens, it may happen for a moment, or it may happen for a longer period of time, or it may happen permanently. Whichever way it occurs, it is perfectly okay. Who you are is who you are. You cannot lose who you are, no matter what your experience is. Even if you have a certain opening and you realize your true nature, and then later you think you’ve forgotten it, you haven’t lost anything.

Therefore the invitation is always to rest more and more deeply, to not grasp at an insight or an experience, to not try and hold on to it, but to recognize the underlying reality, that which never changes. The great 20th-century Indian sage Ramana Maharshi had a saying, “Let what comes come; let what goes go. Find out what remains.”

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Mr. AP
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Looks awesome. I would guess it applies both before and after I AM realization?
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In the AtR guide, after I AM realization, you stop self enquiry and look into the four aspects of I AM, the two stanzas of anatta and two nondual contemplations.
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Soh Wei Yu Oh yeah, I commented before seeing what his "spiritually powerful question" was 🙂.
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Mr. AP There are other spiritually powerful questions, or koans, that lead to further dimensions of realization than 'Who am I'?
On Zen koans, John Tan wrote in 2009,
“Yes Emanrohe,
That is precisely the question asked by Dogen that “if our Buddha Nature is already perfect, why practice?” This question continues to bother him even after the initial glimpse and that led him to China in search for the answer that eventually awaken his wisdom into the non-dual nature of Awareness.
Therefore we must understand in Zen tradition, different koans were meant for different purposes. The experience derived from the koan “before birth who are you?” only allows an initial glimpse of our nature. It is not the same as the Hakuin’s koan of “what is the sound of one hand clapping?” The five categories of koan in Zen ranges from hosshin that give practitioner the first glimpse of ultimate reality to five-ranks that aims to awaken practitioner the spontaneous unity of relative and absolute (non-duality).
Only through thorough realization of the non-dual nature (spontaneous unity of relative and absolute) of Awareness can we then understand why there is no split between subject and object as well as seeing the oneness of realization and development. Therefore the practice of natural state is for those that have already awaken to their non-dual nature, not just an initial glimpse of Awareness. The difference must be clearly understood. It is not for anyone and it is advisable that we refrain from talking too much about the natural state. The 'natural' way is in fact the most challenging path, there is no short cut.
On the other hand, the gradual path of practice is a systematic way of taking us step by step until we eventually experienced the full non-dual and non-local nature of pristine awareness. One way is by first firmly establishing the right view of anatta (non-dual) and dependent origination and practice vipassana or bare attention to authenticate our experience with the right view. The gradual paths are equally precious, that is the point I want to convey.
Lastly there is a difference between understanding Buddha Nature and God. Not to let our initial glimpse of pristine awareness overwhelmed us. 🙂"
More quotes on koan by JT from the past as I was explaining to someone:
John Tan:
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Alejandro, I would separate non-arisen and emptiness from the luminosity. Imo, it's a separate pointing. The one hand clapping here directly points to the luminosity.
What is the way that leads the practitioner to “the direct taste”? In zen, koan is the technique and the way.
The one hand clapping koan is the instrument that leads one to directly and intuitively authenticate presence = sound.
Let’s use another koan for example, “Before birth who am I?”, this is similar to just asking “Who am I”. The “Before birth” here is to skilfully lead the thinking mind to penetrate to the limit of its own depth and suddenly completely cease and rest, leaving only I-I. Only this I as pure existence itself. Before birth, this I. After birth, this I. This life or 10 thousand lives before, this I. 10 thousand lives after, still this I. The direct encounter of the I-I.
Similarly the koan of the sound of one hand clapping, is to lead the practitioner after initial break-through into I-I not to get stuck in dead water and attached to the Absolute. To direct practitioner to see the ten thousand faces of presence face to face. In this case, it is that “Sound” of one hand clapping.
Whether one hand claps or before both hands clap, what is that sound? It attempts to lead the practitioner into just that “Sound”. All along there is only one hand clapping, two hands (duality) are not needed. It is similar to contemplating "in hearing always only sound, no hearer".
As for the empty and non-arisen nature of that Sound, zen koans have not (imo) been able to effectively point to the non-arisen and emptiness of one’s radiance clarity.”
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Someone told me about having been through insights of no self and then progressing to a realisation of the ground of being.
I replied:
Hi ____
Thanks for the sharing.
This is the I AM realization. Had that realisation after contemplating Before birth, who am I? For two years. It’s an important realization. Many people had insights into certain aspects of no self, impersonality, and “dry non dual experience” without doubtless realization of Presence. Therefore I AM realisation is a progression for them.
Similarly in Zen, asking who am I is to directly experience presence. How about asking a koan of what is the cup? What is the chirping bird, the thunder clap? What is its purpose?
When I talked about anatta, it is a direct insight of Presence and recognizing what we called background presence, is in the forms and colours, sounds and sensations, clean and pure. Authentication is be authenticated by all things. Also there is no presence other than that. What we call background is really just an image of foreground Presence, even when Presence is assuming its subtle formless all pervasiveness.
However due to ignorance, we have a very inherent and dual view, if we do see through the nature of presence, the mind continues to be influenced by dualistic and inherent tendencies. Many teach to overcome it through mere non conceptuality but this is highly misleading.
Thusness also wrote:
The anatta I realized is quite unique. It is not just a realization of no-self. But it must first have an intuitive insight of Presence. Otherwise will have to reverse the phases of insights
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Another Zen master wrote,
The abbot of the SANBÔZEN
I think that there is no one who has not heard the name Descartes. Rene Descartes (1596-1650) was a great philosopher and mathematician born in France. He was a contemporary with the great physicist, Galileo Galilei (1564-1642), born in Italy Descartes, in Discourse on the Method, a work published in 1637, wrote, “I think, therefore I am.”1 These words, signifying the comprehension of the existence of the self as a reality beyond doubt, formed probably the most famous and most important proposition in the history of modern philosophy. For that reason Descartes is called the Father of Modern Philosophy.
The process of Descartes’ cognitive methodology in the Discourse on the Method is, to put it simply: “If something can be doubted even a little, it must be completely rejected.” Those things which we usually think of as correct must be completely rejected should there be even the faintest doubt about them. In such a process even the proposition that 1 + 1 = 2, which seems to be self-evident reasoning, is rejected. However, Descartes asserts that the one thing that cannot be excluded and remains last of all is the perception “I think, therefore I am.” Is this true? Should this be rejected? Certainly there is a self which thinks about the self thinking. This fact cannot be denied.
But was Descartes really right?
Descartes was mistaken. I cannot help but say so. Perhaps someone will say to me, “Do you really think that you have the knowledge and intelligence sufficient to refute the conclusion drawn by one of the greatest thinkers known to us, someone who thoroughly thought through the problem and reached a conclusion affirmed by everyone?” It goes without saying that I do not have the knowledge and intelligence of Descartes. However, this is not a question of knowledge and intelligence. It is rather a question of the real world discovered through experience.
Descartes is mistaken in a number of points.First of all, the proposition itself, “I think, therefore I am” is a tautological contradiction. The contradiction lies in the fact that while the proposition seeks to show the process whereby one can know the existence of “I,” already from the start it is presupposing that existence in the words, “I think.” This contradiction seems at first to be only a matter of word usage and not something essential to the argument. However, it is really closely tied up with the essence of the problem.
To think about “Is this correct? Is this mistaken?” is something that cannot be denied. “Thinking” is a reality that cannot be excluded. Up to this point it is true just as Descartes maintained. However, the next step in which Descartes knows the existence of “I” by “therefore I am” is where Descartes fell into error. Where in the world did Descartes bring in this “I”? Where in the world did Descartes find this “I”? I must say that as soon as Descartes started with “I think,” he already had fallen into this error.
“Thinking” is a reality that cannot be denied. But there is nothing beyond that reality of “thinking.” No matter where you look, something called “I” does not exist. No matter how much intellectual knowledge you may have, insofar as you do not have this experience, you cannot discover this world. “I think, therefore I am” must be re-phrased as “Thinking, but there is no I.”
When Master Joshu was asked what was the world discovered by Shakyamuni (What was the meaning of Bodhidharma’s coming from the West?) he answered, “The oak tree in the garden.” This is a famous koan in the Gateless Gate (Mumonkan).Jôshû is presenting the world of “Thinking, but there is no I.” The oak tree in the garden, besides that tree nothing else exists in heaven or earth--an even less so, a “Joshu” who is looking at it. This is the world that is manifested in this utterance.
“The oak tree in the garden, but there is no I.”
1The original French is: Je pense, donc je suis. This was rendered into Latin by a priest friend of Descartes as “Cogito ergo sum.”
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