I like her video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UyyjU8fzEYU
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Session Start: Friday, March 21, 2008
(5:55 PM) AEN: bar. I thought "that's very peculiar" and I looked down at my body and I thought, "whoa, I'm a weird-looking thing." And it was as though my consciousness had shifted away from my normal perception of reality, where I'm the person on the machine having the experience, to some esoteric space where I'm witnessing myself having this experience.
And it was all every peculiar and my headache was just getting worse, so I get off the machine, and I'm walking across my living room floor, and I realize that everything inside of my body has slowed way down. And every step is very rigid and very deliberate. There's no fluidity to my pace, and there's this constriction in my area of perceptions so I'm just focused on internal systems. And I'm standing in my bathroom getting ready to step into the shower and I could actually hear the dialog inside of my body. I heard a little voice saying, "OK, you muscles, you gotta contract, you muscles you relax."
And I lost my balance and I'm propped up against the wall. And I look down at my arm and I realize that I can no longer define the boundaries of m
(5:55 PM) AEN:
And I lost my balance and I'm propped up against the wall. And I look down at my arm and I realize that I can no longer define the boundaries of my body. I can't define where I begin and where I end. Because the atoms and the molecules of my arm blended with the atoms and molecules of the wall. And all I could detect was this energy. Energy. And I'm asking myself, "What is wrong with me, what is going on?" And in that moment, my brain chatter, my left hemisphere brain chatter went totally silent. Just like someone took a remote control and pushed the mute button and -- total silence.
And at first I was shocked to find myself inside of a silent mind. But then I was immediately captivated by the magnificence of energy around me. And because I could no longer identify the boundaries of my body, I felt enormous and expansive. I felt at one with all the energy that was, and it was beautiful there.
(5:56 PM) AEN:
When I awoke later that afternoon I was shocked to discover that I was still alive. When I felt my spirit surrender, I said goodbye to my life, and my mind is now suspended between two very opposite planes of reality. Stimulation coming in through my sensory systems felt like pure pain. Light burned my brain like wildfire and sounds were so loud and chaotic that I could not pick a voice out from the background noise and I just wanted to escape. Because I could not identify the position of my body in space, I felt enormous and expensive, like a genie just liberated from her bottle. And my spirit soared free like a great whale gliding through the sea of silent euphoria. Harmonic. I remember thinking there's no way I would ever be able to squeeze the enormousness of myself back inside this tiny little body.
But I realized "But I'm still alive! I'm still alive and I have found Nirvana. And if I have found Nirvana and I'm still alive, then everyone who is alive can find Nirvana." I picture a world filled with beautiful, peaceful, compassionate, loving people who knew that they could com
(5:57 PM) AEN:
So who are we? We are the life force power of the universe, with manual dexterity and two cognitive minds. And we have the power to choose, moment by moment, who and how we want to be in the world. Right here right now, I can step into the consciousness of my right hemisphere where we are -- I am -- the life force power of the universe, and the life force power of the 50 trillion beautiful molecular geniuses that make up my form. At one with all that is. Or I can choose to step into the consciousness of my left hemisphere. where I become a single individual, a solid, separate from the flow, separate from you. I am Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor, intellectual, neuroanatomist. These are the "we" inside of me.
(5:57 PM) AEN: is this like stage 2?
(5:57 PM) AEN: http://buddhism.sgforums.com/forums/1728/topics/310956?page=2
(5:57 PM) AEN:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UyyjU8fzEYU
(6:06 PM) AEN: gd video
Session Start: Friday, March 21, 2008
(6:18 PM) AEN: oic then wat is it
(6:20 PM) Thusness: Stage 1.
(6:20 PM) AEN: oic but she said
(6:21 PM) AEN: And I look down at my arm and I realize that I can no longer define the boundaries of my body. I can't define where I begin and where I end. Because the atoms and the molecules of my arm blended with the atoms and molecules of the wall.
(6:21 PM) AEN: And all I could detect was this energy. Energy. A
(6:21 PM) AEN: ...But then I was immediately captivated by the magnificence of energy around me. And because I could no longer identify the boundaries of my body, I felt enormous and expansive. I felt at one with all the energy that was, and it was beautiful there.
(6:22 PM) Thusness: yes
(6:22 PM) Thusness: that is just stage 1.
(6:22 PM) Thusness: That is oceanic
(6:22 PM) AEN: oic but he said fusing with the wall?
(6:22 PM) AEN: oic
(6:22 PM) AEN: *she
(6:22 PM) Thusness: not any that uses the word 'fusing' is stage two lah
(6:22 PM) Thusness: ai yoo...
(6:22 PM) AEN: lol
(6:23 PM) AEN: she din say fuse she say Because the atoms and the molecules of my arm blended with the atoms and molecules of the wall.
(6:23 PM) AEN: so its more like stage 1?
(6:24 PM) Thusness: That is just for ur knowledge.
(6:24 PM) Thusness: what u experienced is just a glimpse...for stage 1.
(6:24 PM) Thusness: but u have not experienced the 'oceanic' effect yet
(6:24 PM) AEN: icic..
(6:25 PM) Thusness: She is good. :)
(6:25 PM) AEN: u read her transcript or the youtube?
(6:25 PM) Thusness: youtube.
(6:25 PM) AEN: icic..
(6:26 PM) Thusness: from the transcript, it doesn't sound that good.
(6:26 PM) Thusness: she is still in stroke.
(6:27 PM) AEN: wat u mean
(6:28 PM) AEN: btw wat bks u bought
(6:29 PM) Thusness: Peaceful Death, Joyful, Rebirth by Tulku Thondup
(6:29 PM) Thusness: and As It Is by Tulku Urgyen Rinpoche
(6:29 PM) AEN: icic..
(6:31 PM) Thusness: She has experienced the "I AM"
(6:32 PM) AEN: oic..
(6:32 PM) Thusness: but that does not mean she is any less enlightened than a person at stage 4
(6:32 PM) Thusness: it is just the insight
(6:33 PM) Thusness: several important aspects of awareness aren't there yet
(6:33 PM) AEN: icic..
(6:34 PM) Thusness: the insight is important but the 2 factors about advaita vedanta practitioners are also very important.
(6:34 PM) Thusness: without it, there is hardly intense and sustainable meditative experience.
(6:34 PM) AEN: oic..
(6:35 PM) AEN: so u mean she don have the 2 factors?
(6:36 PM) Thusness: she has the two factors.
(6:36 PM) AEN: icic..
(6:36 PM) Thusness: what she need is to know the 'forms' of awareness
(6:36 PM) Thusness: non-dual
(6:36 PM) Thusness: anatta
(6:37 PM) Thusness: and finally, emptiness and self liberation
(6:37 PM) AEN: oic..
(6:38 PM) Thusness: in the non-dual context, there is still the deep sense of unchangingness, independence and permanence
(6:38 PM) Thusness: in the experience of anatta, there is no self. The vividness of 'forms' is known as it without background.
(6:39 PM) Thusness: the insight becomes completely clear in stage 5. It is an 'already is' natural state of pristine awareness. Always so.
(6:40 PM) AEN: icic..
(6:45 PM) Thusness has changed his/her status to Idle
-- on jill bolte taylor
earlier:
(7:51 PM) Thusness: Furthermore what you were told in one of ur post is that there are 2 important factors that you have to be aware:
(7:51 PM) Thusness: Those that i wrote.
(7:52 PM) Thusness: Then tell him that what u have written are summaries over the years of conversation with me. It is not necessarily ur experiences.
(7:53 PM) AEN: icic..
(7:57 PM) Thusness has changed his/her status to Idle
(8:07 PM) AEN: Furthermore what you were told in one of ur post is that there are 2 important factors that you have to be aware:
(8:08 PM) AEN: Although the 'teaching of anatta' helps to prevent you from landing into wrong views, the downside is it also denies you from experiencing that deep and ultimate conviction, that certainty beyond doubt of your very own existence -- "I AM'. This is a very important factor for Advaita practitioners.
The next important factor is the duration of this non-dual experience must be prolonged; long enough for you to enter into a sort of absorption that the experience becomes 'oceanic'.
(8:08 PM) AEN: this?
(8:11 PM) Thusness has changed his/her status to Online
(8:11 PM) Thusness: yes
(8:11 PM) Thusness: finished makan
(8:11 PM) AEN: icic ok
(8:12 PM) Thusness: with practice the experience of non-duality can be sustained normally through sufficient elimination of 'self'.
(8:13 PM) Thusness: but the sense of permanence, independence and unchangingness remain.
(8:13 PM) AEN: posted http://www.lioncity.net/buddhism/index.php?showtopic=66843&st=0&p=908657&#entry908657
(8:14 PM) Thusness: This resulted in distancing itself from the transients which is in essence Awareness itself. There is nothing to distant.
(8:14 PM) AEN: icic..
(8:14 PM) Thusness: There is a poem I wrote in the awakeningfromdreams forum.
(8:14 PM) Thusness: to awakening.
(8:15 PM) AEN: leo's forum?
(8:17 PM) Thusness: yes
(8:20 PM) AEN: oic
(8:20 PM) AEN: which poem
(8:20 PM) AEN: btw my post ok?
(8:21 PM) Thusness: haven't read yet
(8:21 PM) Thusness: there is no this that is more 'this' than 'that'
(8:21 PM) Thusness: this poem.
(8:21 PM) AEN: oic
(8:25 PM) Thusness: There is no this that is more this than that.
Although thought arises and ceases vividly,
Every arising and ceasing remains as entire as it can be.
The emptiness nature that is ever manifesting presently
Has not in anyway denied its own luminosity.
Although non-dual is seen with clarity,
The urge to remain can still blind subtly.
Like a passerby that passes, is gone completely.
Die utterly
(8:25 PM) Thusness: And bear witness of this pure presence, its non-locality.
(8:26 PM) Thusness: This is suitable for him for he think Awareness is 'special' and 'ultimate' and different from the transient mind.
(8:26 PM) AEN: icic..
(8:26 PM) AEN: i paste this ?
(8:26 PM) Thusness: Summarized a bit lah
(8:27 PM) AEN: oh.. but its quite short mah :P
(8:27 PM) AEN: u mean in non-poem form?
(8:27 PM) AEN: as in write in normal text
(8:28 PM) Thusness: poem
(8:29 PM) Thusness: but u must bring out the point that Awareness is not any 'special' and 'ultimate' and different from the transient mind.
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