Yin Ling
Stability of insights and insights post
Don’t have any other photos 😂🤦🏻♀️ but want to pen down some thoughts before it fades off my consciousness.
when we talk about stabilisation of insight,
It is not hard because that insight when stabilised won’t feel like an insight anymore unless you make comparison to before, it will feel like a new default mode of perception, and then we can let go of that practice and ascend to the next insight which needed to former as condition.
Insight they build on each other. The grossest must drop off first before we talk about subtler stuff, for eg mind is grosser than mind’s nature. Or sense of self is grosser than sense of Inherency in phenomena. But one will take one into another due to the change of perception, reality taste different and one can see deeper. That’s what I believe from my own experience.
Once insight matures and stabilise, we won’t even consider or talk much about it because another way of perception completely take over and previous way of perceiving doesn’t even leave a shadow, that’s when we know we are quite “there”. “Stable” as I call it. For eg, for insight of anatta, third fetter.
At first you will feel as though something “drop off” and one “becomes big”. You lost the sense of separate self when the contraction of self drop and mind opens up, rather than stuck inside the brain. You feel as though the whole world knows itself in its place, you say funny things like song hears, scenery sees. Haha. It is usually sudden at first then gradually matured over a few years, and one day you realise you don’t even feel different anymore, the shadow of a subject is completely gone! U cannot generate even the sense of it. Everything is “pushed forward” without any shadow of subject anymore, clean. You think it u were born this way, u wouldn’t even know about personal self! It is just everything in everything. And when you dream, u slowly realise ur dream is like that too! No background. Then u completely forgot no-self and u rarely talk about it. Because it is as normal as dualistic perception in others and no one talk about them perceiving dualistically. U just get on with ur life. U don’t think u r stream enterer blah3 lol. It’s so normal.
I remember asking a friend with many years of this insight would he go back to dualistic view if he has a choice?
He said, “I wouldn’t know where to look!”.
It is like this. The insight transforms one perception completely and this is our aim. We practice the instructions and time to time evaluate ourselves our own mind, not others. We will know our own cultivation level. Don’t fake it with yourself or others.
Don’t teach the stuff you don’t know and not stable, because ppl knows u r faking it and they will lose confidence , and that is a lack of integrity too.
For emptiness of phenomena insight, the essence or substances of “stuff” will efface until you can’t sense it in ur mind anymore one day. It is zero doing, and very very natural. Zero contrivance comes from a very diligent and dedicated practice day after day on dependent origination. You keep meditating on it again and again a million times and you rest in the insight. Read the Madhyamaka to get confidence. The results will show and you will know so clearly.
You wake up groggily seeing ur room vividly, but no substance at all! Not in ur body, not in ur room, nor outside, the wall feels substanceless too, so ur mind “transcend the wall”, so to speak.
Everything moves in tandem, at once, the sound of the bird not separated from the cold air on ur body, tree connected to your bed etc.. the interconnection is not in words but experience. Not in thinking but a real felt sense. If you are born this way you wouldn’t even know there’s such thing call essence or separation of things!
I believe high bodhisattvas will be born this way.
Once it is stabilise, this happens at all times.
And then…. (There’s no end to insight..)
when emptiness is stabilised, you actually feel abit strange calling it “emptiness” anymore, because somehow the right thing to say is “it’s not really about empty or not empty, this feels like it is what it is originally.. everything sensed is vividly felt as empty the same instant, it is like the bitter and sweet of dark chocolate, you cant say bitter or sweet, it is dark chocolate.. if u taste it u know it. Then u know it is the mind’s nature. You wonder for the 100th time if it is going to be the end? (But I know of course not from experience and I dare not ever call myself enlightened lol unless I want to embarrass myself next month when mind transform again.)
And I can’t talk about further insights bec I do not know. I don’t talk about anything I don’t yet experience stably .. so tbc!
Just remember, for those who want to say “do nothing”, or “nothing to meditate, no path to cultivate, nothing to realised”..
Make sure you are there and really “non doing” - one performs action without a shred of a sense of self or phenomena at all with full integration, which means you must be able to handle war, surgery without anaesthesia and the likes.. because no sense of self means no attachment to body.. because that would be what is expected of you speaking these words! Or else it will be a sense of shame 😝
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