With the Dharma, I set a high standard for myself ..I told myself..Do not lose the dharma for even a second.Keep the Buddha with me at all times.Ask, “how would the Buddha see?”“How would the Buddha act?”Then the dharma won’t forsake me.Buddha field will always be around once I turn my mind to it.
*Anatta (no-self insight ) & the 6 locums on NHS night shift
I was sitting just now, then laughed a little seeing how the dharma suits my personality so well, no wonder I love it so much.
Ppl who know me in real life, knows that I don't like to do extra work. I basically do only what is needed.
When i was working in the NHS (UK health system), this NHS has a very ridiculous night shift and weekend system which only 3-4 medical team doctors man the whole 500-1000 bed hospital including doing crash calls. I was so nervous every time I am on shift as medical registrar I think I have depersonalization.
I gradually learnt the only way to save patients is to do only the really needed.
So whenever during handover, I will become super assertive. any bit of work that won't save a person at night or on the weekend, I wouldn't approve them being handed over to my team.
I will look at my juniors' list before the start of shift and cancel off all non-essential work. so they get v little work to standby for crash. i'd rather they have time for tea at night lol.
I will also use my ablility to "quickly examine" patients so they don't need to get full clerking if as a registrar i think they are safe over the night. they can get clerked tmr. I don't hv much guilt handing over lol as long as ppl are safe in my hands.
I don't like to do extra work basically.
so in my meditation, when i realise i don't need to do work, i relinquish all of it damn fast lol.
I let the doer, the planner, the organiser go really really fast.
When I saw the self is extra, wow, it was game for me.
why do i need to be aware when the manifestations of sensations are already aware???
You don't know how happy I become when I realise that lol.
It really feels like I strike lottery and 6 locums come on my night shift and I will get my blanket ready to go to bed. ( never happen before max only 2 lol)
How i wish sometimes the NHS is the great perfection and everything gets done.
hehe, that’s nice to read, what a relief it must be
what do you mean with “the manifestations of sensations are already aware”? I guess I don’t understand what you mean with manifestations of sensations
It is not a self here in the head who is aware of all the sensations happening around “us”..
Those sensations already are aware, they have intrinsic awareness,
The “awareness” or “knowingness” is not on “this side” but “that side”, arising together with the sound, thought, touch, vision
This is also how the “do nothing” meditation can happen.
once this non dual insight has occur for the practitioner, once will realize awareness is intrinsic with sensations,
Nothing needs to be done anymore and the self will be seen through.
Insight of Anatta will dawn powerfully.
There will also be huge energy release from the previously held self construct because the fake “self” was doing so much extra work before the insight dawns.
Most practitioner will describe as finally I can rest. A very prominent shift like 6 locums appearing