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Soh Wei YuI was re reading these verses yesterday. Although scholars will tell you it is not by the same Nagarjuna as the one that wrote MMK (apparently there are many people called Nagarjuna), but still, no less profoundNagarjuna:38. When eye and form assume their right relation,Appearances appear without a blur.Since these neither arise nor cease,They are the dharmadhatu, though they are imagined to be otherwise.39. When sound and ear assume their right relation,A consciousness free of thought occurs.These three are in essence the dharmadhatu, free of other characteristics,But they become "hearing" when thought of conceptually.40. Dependent upon the nose and an odor, one smells.And as with the example of form there is neither arising nor cessation,But in dependence upon the nose-consciousness’s experience,The dharmadhatu is thought to be smell.41. The tongue’s nature is emptiness.The sphere of taste is voidness as well.These are in essence the dharmadhatuAnd are not the causes of the taste consciousness.42. The pure body’s essence,The characteristics of the object touched,The tactile consciousness free of conditions—These are called the dharmadhatu.43. The phenomena that appear to the mental consciousness, the chief of them all,Are conceptualized and then superimposed.When this activity is abandoned, phenomena’s lack of self-essence is known.Knowing this, meditate on the dharmadhatu.44. And so is all that is seen or heard or smelled,Tasted, touched, and imagined,When yogis [and yoginis]* understand these in this manner,All their wonderful qualities are brought to consummation.45. Perception’s doors in eyes and ears and nose,In tongue and body and the mental gate—All these six are utterly pure.These consciousnesses’ purity itself is suchness’ defining characteristic.
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I was writing an email to my meditation teacher so wrote a journal to keep track of progress. Since i am so open about this, might as well share here for feedback
Journal 24 April 2022
Recently sitting formally 2 hours, to bring out a taste of continuous intense illusoriness and anatta.
1 hour in the morning in the park
Another 1 afternoon 1+ hour in a bubble tea shop/coffee shop.
But tune in the illusoriness most of the day while driving/walking around/dining/typing on the comp, basically 70-80% of the awake time.
Anatta don’t feel prominent anymore. It used to be the most obvious thing, now it is natural and melted into the whole scenery, nothing special. It feels so normal. Like I am born like that. Like nothing to shout home about. Like, experience is memang like that from time immemorial. The idea of a split is – I don’t know how, truly.
It is somehow more about illusoriness now. This is more prominent.
很清楚，但很叮铃，剔透，很EPHEMEREAL， 很轻, 飘飘然的感觉。
Sensations now become boundaryless. Wide spread. The music fills the whole place. The car sound fill the whole place, the scenery fill the whole place, my breath fill the whole place, and I do not quite know where’s where.
Life becomes extremely spacious, light, so much more at ease, soft quiet joy at all times,
And deeply peaceful. The peace is exceptionally prominent. I could sit without an ounce of restlessness for a long time.
Whichever bubble tea shop I go, the energy will fill up the whole shop as oneness, not just in this body, like ordinary perception. My current perception is without a self anywhere, without any prominent energy anywhere, it’s all even. even though I have some pulsating energy in the head most of the time, it doesn’t hijack the presence of other sensations.
and the shop is like a magical manifestation, sort of abit translucent yet vivid. And the ppl have the same energy as everything else.
I can stay quietly like that for a long time, not putting in even a quantum amount of effort. Just complete rest. What is there to do if everything has been done.
I recently train myself to open up as much as possible esp to ppl because of my introvert nature. they are also space like, empty of self-nature, and this has been easier and more integrated.
Once, I try to change back to seeing solid, physical, fixed world, to see whether I can go back to previous experiencing, just to experiment, but I cannot, it feels like the mind can’t, not I don’t want to. Some neurons been severed I guess.
It’s like once it is rewired one cannot go back, like anatta.
It’s a one way street.
Thoughts doesn’t disturb anymore like previously. I could reduce it if I want to, but if i don’t it’s still okay, bec it doesn’t cause much emotional upheaval. The mind understood the emptiness of it and couldn’t grasp much.
Sleep dropped. I couldn’t sleep before 12+ and wake up by 6 or before. And feel alert all day with 2 session of exercises. And I don’t crave food much, unless super hungry. Lost some weight.
That’s it. Will keep practicing.
feedback requested if you have any. thanks