From “I AM” to non-duality, no-self, emptiness and spontaneous perfection
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John Tan
first book in the "Dune" sci-fi/fantasy series by Frank Herbert. The
author was into Buddhadharma and took vows in Zen tradition at some
point in his life.
Jake Casavant
that is good. But once u sense the energy patterns and the way of
opening up ur body, let go of thoughts. Thoughts can be quite energy
consuming.
That
seems right. I notice at times in meditation that thoughts are
*literally* energy consuming, or energy disrupting. At least, 'sticky'
thoughts. It's like they catch on the energy flows of the body and get
tangled up in them, disrupting them. Not following thoughts, in the
other hand, allows the energy flows to attain their natural coherence
Jake Casavant
listen to ur body. Feel ur body and breath and sense the way of
opening. What our body currently is attuned is more "karmic" than
"natural".
John Tan
Hi John, when you say sense the way of opening - are you referring to
the energetic body? Opening is sometime uncomfortable and painful even
to the physical body in my experience. Not sure if I am on the same page
Seng Yew Meng
can be intially uncomfortable due to accustomed patterns but not
necessarily painful imo. What is important is to allow the boby to
listen instead of the mind. Let loose ur body, ur mind will also let
go. What is important is to put things into perspective and open up our
understandings of how to deal with attachments. I m not talking about
any energy body system in particular, not getting into energy practices.
Reifying
the inherent existence of any object, including the body is the root of
attachment. Attention to breathing etc.are indirect aids pre-anatta
insight.
Anatta
insight cuts all subject (an agent who acts) object (an object to be
acted upon) duality and doership. All phenomena are empty appearances.
This is their nature and they never deviate from it. So both mind and
body are empty appearances. The labels 'mind' and 'body' are merely
conventional designations.
Having
said this, one can still be doing yoga or pranayama or sex, or not
doing any yoga or pranayama or sex post anatta insight as both are empty
appearances.
when
I sit shikantaza and feel breathing it is liberating but then I go
about my daily life and the mind dominates. mind resistant to felt sense
of being, breathing .
John,
the problem is the sense of a self is being imputed to exist, which
can be gotten out of attachments by reason or by using breath and body
to let go of attachments. No self entity exists, which means the entity
that is attempting to become free of attachments is THE illusion. A
non-existent self can’t be liberated. There is no entity to realize
anatta if anatta is true.
After
believing that using the body was the way for my entire path, I
recently started thinking that unconscious and subconscious vasanas
could compromise the whole project of just using the body and energy
practices, that I needed some more mind based practice to deal with the
deep unconscious belief systems that were directing the qi behind the
scenes (yi dao qi dao) in my meditation and qigong. But now I see this
Mr. TJ
lol. Yi Dao qi dao is already quite an achievement before the "person"
doing "disappears". But yi here is "attention" rather than "reasoning";
more like "sensing" than "intellectualizing". In fact taoism paxis is
fully anatta into the natural condition.
How Could “This” Awareness Not Be Considered Self?
Krodha (Kyle Dixon), John Tan, and Soh on anātman: the collapse of the internal observer, the deconstruction of externality and physicality, and the implications of dependent designation.
"How could "this" awareness (which knows life, death, and the states in between, rather than ordinary vijnana) not be considered self? If it is the one irreducible constant that remains when bodies, minds, and objects pass, surely it would be considered one's true nature?"
Krodha:
When anātman is applied to the mind’s cognizance, the realization associated with that insight means we recognize, non-conceptually, that there is not a seer of sights, or a hearer of sounds, etc.
For deluded sentient beings who dwell in dualistic consciousness, or vijñāna, it experientially feels like there is an internal observer that is experiencing external phenomena that reside at a distance from the observing cognizance.
In realizing anātman, that internal observer collapses and the practitioner realizes that there has never actually been a subjective observer at any point in time. No seer of sights, no hearer of sounds, etc. That collapse of the internal substratum removes the basis for a self, and the mind awakens and realizes that the self is not real, and never has been. In that insight it can still seem like phenomena are “over there” or “out there” however the sights and sounds are just no longer mediated by an internal reference point.
But just like the feeling of an internal observer can collapse, the feeling of things being “out there” can also collapse, and that is the second fold of anātman which applies to phenomenal appearances, which is synonymous with emptiness or śūnyatā.
Rebirth only occurs because that internal observer remains in tact, because the fetters of I-making and mine-making persist. Buddhas have eliminated those obscurations and so rebirth does not occur for them.
In short anātman in the context of awareness concerns the bifurcation of experience into subject and object. The self is just this observing reference point and the identity based on that reference point. But when that reference point disappears in awakened insight then the self is completely gone for as long as that equipoise lasts. For Buddhas that equipoise is unfragmented, for āryas it is fragmented and for deluded sentient beings that equipoise is absent.
InfiniteQuestion5Original posterlevel 2 · Op · 2 days ago2
Hi Krodha, thank you for such a thorough response. With regard to nondual perception, however, what should one make of the apparent field of phenomena that continues to arise? Is it regarded simply as “what it is”—nameless “true reality,” arising as spontaneous activity?
krodhaKrodha / Kyle Dixonlevel 3 · 2 days ago · edited 2 days ago7
For Buddhas the field of phenomena does not appear as external but as their own display. Essentially meaning that knowing and what is known are not different. What is known is itself the activity of knowing.
Rongzom:
Buddhas and bodhisattvas are the knowers, and unmistakable true reality is the object of knowledge. Therefore, it is stated that there is no difference between knowledge and the object of knowledge.
Rongzom
Kūkai:
Although mind is distinguished from form, they share the same nature. Form is mind, mind is forms. They interfuse with one another without difficulty. Therefore, knowing is the objects of knowledge, and the objects, knowing. Knowing is reality, reality knowing.
Kūkai
xenobumlevel 4 · 2 days ago4
Can I just say, thank you for making these concepts much simpler to understand? You’ve helped me tremendously over the years.
InfiniteQuestion5Original posterlevel 4 · Op · 2 days ago · edited 2 days ago1
Thanks! So, in essence, are Buddhas manifesting spontaneous wisdom and purity? How does this fit with the Yogācāra idea of overlapping mindstreams, in which various sentient beings collaborate to form realms?
Edit: I reread the quotations a few times to wrap my head around them. On reflection, they seem to suggest that all Buddhas are simply instances of pure knowing. In that sense, whatever manifests would be the activity of knowing. Hard to fully grasp!
👍 Kyle’s answer is good and rightly points out that anatta initially only dissolves the internal reference to self; “externality,” as well as “physicality,” will still need to be deconstructed and exhausted.
John Tan 15 December 2021 · 9:53 PM
By the way, I remember writing something to you about dependent designation: when the seer depends on the seen, there is no seer; when the seen depends on the seer, there is nothing seen. Do you know when it was?
John then recalled an earlier discussion with Soh about dependent designation and the relation between seer, seeing, and seen. The exchanges below retain their original sequence, while chat shorthand and obvious language errors have been normalized for readability.
Earlier Exchange — 22 March 2015
Soh:
John Tan 22 March 2015 · 7:34 AM (UTC+8)
When we talk about illusion, there is a difference between the water-moon and a rabbit’s horn. Appearances are like the water-moon: dependently originated, without substance or basis, yet not nonexistent. Inherent existence, by contrast, is like a rabbit’s horn: it is nonexistent and does not exist even conventionally.
John Tan 22 March 2015 · 7:30 AM (UTC+8)
Therefore, when the seer depends on seeing and the seen, there is no seer. When the seen depends on the seer and seeing, there is nothing seen.
Soh Wei Yu 22 March 2015 · 7:30 AM (UTC+8)
Should I post this?
John Tan 22 March 2015 · 7:28 AM (UTC+8)
When we see dependencies, we must also see the absence of phenomena. That is, although phenomena appear, by their very dependencies they are absent—absent when sought through Madhyamaka analysis.
John Tan
Yes
Earlier Exchange — 23 December 2014
The messages are shown in the same reverse-chronological order as in the supplied archive.
Soh:
John Tan 23 December 2014 · 10:33 PM (UTC+8)
You have direct insight into anatta; why are you not able to understand that when the seer depends on seeing and the seen, there is no seer? Because you are comparing direct insight into anatta (a nonconceptual experience) with conceptuality.
John Tan 23 December 2014 · 10:28 PM (UTC+8)
“Ultimate analysis” is simply a way of analyzing the validity of true existence. Therefore, dependently arising phenomena are not within the scope of ultimate analysis. It is not used to negate conditioned existence that arises dependently.
Soh Wei Yu 23 December 2014 · 10:28 PM (UTC+8)
When the seen depends on seeing and the seer, there is nothing seen. That makes sense. Can you expand on what you mean by saying that the way of the conventional is different from the nonconceptual mode?
John Tan 23 December 2014 · 10:24 PM (UTC+8)
What it means is that when Madhyamikas employ “ultimate analysis”—a systematic approach to analyzing the validity of an ultimate or absolute mode of being—causality is impossible. That is, if phenomena inherently existed, causality would be impossible. Therefore, it is not denying causality; on the contrary, it is affirming causality by seeing the emptiness of phenomena.
Soh Wei Yu 23 December 2014 · 10:18 PM (UTC+8)
When the fan and the blowing are separated through dependent designation, can causality no longer be established? For example, does that mean the fan has no inherent causal power to produce wind?
John Tan 23 December 2014 · 10:17 PM (UTC+8)
For example, “causality is impossible in ultimate analysis.” What does that mean?
John Tan 23 December 2014 · 10:13 PM (UTC+8)
Mipham’s two models of the two truths suit you better because they emphasize meditative experience. As for the Gelug, you must be very careful with the way they use their terminology.
Soh Wei Yu 23 December 2014 · 10:06 PM (UTC+8)
Oh, so the fact that designations do not refer to an objective object is what makes them “mere”? A designation does not refer to an object but is designated in dependence on parts, conditions, and imputing consciousness—like music, which is designated in dependence on the whole series of notes yet does not refer to anything in particular.
John Tan 23 December 2014 · 10:06 PM (UTC+8)
What you expressed is quite good. Similarly, you must understand that when the “seen” depends on “seeing” and the “seer,” there is nothing seen. To taste the emptiness of conceptuality, you must see that the way of the conventional is different from the nonconceptual mode, just as you should not look for shapes and colors in sound.
John Tan 23 December 2014 · 9:59 PM (UTC+8)
So, to experience the “interconnectedness” of total exertion is to see the web of designations. There are two points you are missing: 1. Prasangika’s “mere designation” is special; it is not a designation that refers to an objective object. 2. The other part you are missing is the dream within a dream that makes these designations alive.
John Tan 23 December 2014 · 9:55 PM (UTC+8)
So, to experience the “interconnectedness” of total exertion is to see the web of designations. The part you are missing is the dream within a dream that makes these designations alive.
Soh Wei Yu 23 December 2014 · 8:44 PM (UTC+8)
To see things as conventions is liberating, since we no longer see them in terms of intrinsic existence. So emptiness leads to seeing things as mere conventions.
Soh Wei Yu 23 December 2014 · 8:10 PM (UTC+8)
And to see the emptiness of conventions is not to negate conventions. It is to let you see conventions not from the standpoint of intrinsic existence, but as dependently designated. The two truths are one.
Soh Wei Yu 23 December 2014 · 7:04 PM (UTC+8)
Now I see why you told me that a seer dependent on seeing and the seen is the same thing as no seer: what is dependently designated has no existence of its own.
Soh
I think you wrote something even earlier than that, but I don’t know where.
Question quoted by Krodha
"How could "this" awareness (which knows life, death, and the states in between, rather than ordinary vijnana) not be considered self? If it is the one irreducible constant that remains when bodies, minds, and objects pass, surely it would be considered one's true nature?"
Krodha:
When anātman is applied to the mind’s cognizance, the realization associated with that insight means we recognize, non-conceptually, that there is not a seer of sights, or a hearer of sounds, etc.
For deluded sentient beings who dwell in dualistic consciousness, or vijñāna, it experientially feels like there is an internal observer that is experiencing external phenomena that reside at a distance from the observing cognizance.
In realizing anātman, that internal observer collapses and the practitioner realizes that there has never actually been a subjective observer at any point in time. No seer of sights, no hearer of sounds, etc. That collapse of the internal substratum removes the basis for a self, and the mind awakens and realizes that the self is not real, and never has been. In that insight it can still seem like phenomena are “over there” or “out there” however the sights and sounds are just no longer mediated by an internal reference point.
But just like the feeling of an internal observer can collapse, the feeling of things being “out there” can also collapse, and that is the second fold of anātman which applies to phenomenal appearances, which is synonymous with emptiness or śūnyatā.
Rebirth only occurs because that internal observer remains in tact, because the fetters of I-making and mine-making persist. Buddhas have eliminated those obscurations and so rebirth does not occur for them.
In short anātman in the context of awareness concerns the bifurcation of experience into subject and object. The self is just this observing reference point and the identity based on that reference point. But when that reference point disappears in awakened insight then the self is completely gone for as long as that equipoise lasts. For Buddhas that equipoise is unfragmented, for āryas it is fragmented and for deluded sentient beings that equipoise is absent.