Soh


 

Conversation — 11 February 2009

AEN: http://dharmaoverground.wetpaint.com/thread/2385161/Sharing+like+back+in+the+day... Looking forward to hearing the discussion.

When self becomes more and more transparent,

Likewise phenomena become more and more luminous.

In thorough transparency all happening are pristinely and vividly clear.

Obviousness throughout, aliveness everywhere!

This became apparent to me just now. The more the self disappears, the more everything manifests its clearness, naturalness, and spaciousness. But spaciousness is not like void; the more spacious, the more clear everything is. Today I am surprisingly awake even though I only slept 2 hours.

By the way, I posted something on Buddhism and Taoism here: http://www.sgclub.com/singapore/difference_between_127679.html. It was after I wrote this that I searched the internet for something and found the Zisirum blog. But I think my post is too complex for the person.

Thusness: Don't deviate from the path I wrote in the forum. Whatever you experienced is already this way; when you continue, you are only enhancing the imprints and ignorance. If you are unable to get out now, do you think you are able to get out after continuously re-enforcing your imprints? All actions leave imprints.

AEN: I see.

Thusness: Observe your thoughts; see, is there any agent? Truly experience it. If you see, you are naturally non-dual.

AEN: I see.

Thusness: So why is there a need to go a big round and end up with all wrong views? If there is no self, you are already most direct... where is there a need to be non-dual? If you don't understand propensities, you will never know how it blinds you. Yet even with anatta, you will still not understand Dependent Origination. If you are lucky, it takes you 3-5 years to have your divided consciousness view being replaced. If you are unlucky, it can take you lives.

AEN: I see.

Thusness: It is very difficult to have permanent lucidity and you should start from now. I am not belittling your teacher, but she is not there yet even at this age. Do you think you have that dedication and sincerity like her in practice?

AEN: No.

Thusness: So don't continue to enhance yourself with wrong understanding. Rather, after having the views, practice to have these views be authenticated in actual experience. When you realize anatta, there will be a period to get accustomed to sync your views with experience. It is not easy to do that. Yet it is very important because we don't know consciousness. In addition to non-dual and emptiness, you must experience imprints. And to have the right understanding, it can take you an entire life.

AEN: I see.

Thusness: If you practice like that of the Advaita, you will not even talk about imprints and dispositions. You do not know what is spontaneous arising in terms of Dependent Origination. You cannot know what intention is.

AEN: I see. By the way, did you see my messages earlier?

Thusness: Nope.

AEN: I can't remember what I sent you because I sent it in school. One of the things I asked you is what books to recommend "Thevoice."

Thusness: Regarding?

AEN: He sent me a link to Jill Bolte Taylor's video, then he asked me if I know of any talks. Then I sent him Toni Packer articles and the Tejananda articles, because I think it's more practical. I think he is looking for something more practical. I also told him he can look for Clarifying the Natural State. But he also mentioned Mahamudra is too complex for him; he got a bit of experience with that before or something last time. By the way, I also asked you—you mentioned last time Thevoice knows the luminosity aspect... but he told me something like he doesn't know what pure awareness means and he has never experienced that before. But enhanced or expanded awareness maybe. Books also, I mean. I told him he can get Toni Packer books.

Thusness: Yeah.

AEN: ?

Thusness: I said he treats it like individuality. He knows the "I", but as individuality. Not as pure awareness. I told you "I AM" has various phases. Means he knows he is not the body. Not the eternal witness sort of experience.

AEN: Different from witness?

Thusness: Not so much of witness but that he is more than a body. Like spirit, but not a direct experience of "I".

AEN: Not a direct experience of "I"? What do you mean?

Thusness: It is like what is being described in what you posted in the forum. It is not a direct experience of eternal witness. It is inferring, relating, testing. But the person knows he is not the body. Knows vaguely about awareness, but has not directly touched awareness. Do you know that touching awareness directly even at the "I AM" is totally different from what is being described? It is like what Ken Wilber said: beyond the shadow of doubt. Like what Ramakrishna described. It is not the part where he said he is being carried as if he is dead. That is like what Thevoice is experiencing. It is the direct experience of the "I AM". Complete stillness, ultimate, without thoughts. Complete certainty. Ramakrishna at a later phase is talking about that—resting completely as Self. I mean Ramana Maharshi...

AEN: Oh, haha. No wonder, never read much on Ramakrishna before.

Thusness: When he visualized that he is being dead and carried to be burnt, he realizes he is not the body. It is not the direct experience of "I AM".

AEN: Not?

Thusness: Yes, not. It is just a glimpse. Not that direct experience. That experience is like what a Zen master asking a koan—it is that sort of experience. Direct realization of the "I". Found it. Without thoughts, no inference, entire and complete. Just that experience rest in the "I", not as everything, and the empty nature is not seen. That experience is correct.

AEN: I see. Correct?

Thusness: Yeah. Have you read my Stage 4? I said the sound is exactly like "I AM".

AEN: It's same as "I AM" but in sound, etc., right? Oh, yes.

Thusness: It is not like your experience of sound.

AEN: What do you mean? It's totally non-dual you mean?

Thusness: Non-dual is no separation. There are differing degrees. Do you feel like you are God? When one experiences "I AM", he feels like he is God. That sort of experience. Can that experience be ordinary?

AEN: Nope.

Thusness: It is transcendental.

AEN: I see. Just now you said in the forum there's this article that was inferring and not direct experience.

Thusness: That is why one is led to the journey into perfecting that state. Like you do this, shake a bit then you realize that... like it is like a screen... nothing like that. You cannot understand awareness that way. Either by self-enquiry you directly experience it, or koan. There is no such thing as unsure.

AEN: I see. http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-6865032740128202927 — first time I hear the voice of Ramana. Didn't know he can speak English.

Thusness: There are a few Ramanas.

AEN: It's Ramana Maharshi. But maybe it's not him.

Thusness: If a practitioner can experience like what Maharshi experience as SELF in anatta, then he is near full enlightenment.

AEN: I see. You mean someone who experiences anatta may not experience what Ramana experiences? Both are required?

Thusness: It is the thoroughness. And the depth and degree of luminosity. For non-dual anatta to have that sort of presence, there must be complete effortlessness. Because unlike concentrative mode of practice, non-dual or the formless and pathless path requires one to be completely effortless and spontaneous to have total non-dual luminosity.

AEN: I see. By the way, for Ramana it's still a concentrative mode of practice, right? Like abiding on self.

Thusness: To me, yes. The video is good. But don't...

AEN: Don't?

Thusness: It is a very good video. But don't post it in the forum.

AEN: Oh, haha, I see. Yes, I won't.

Thusness: If a person can have that experience then go into non-dual, it is different. If anatta can be experienced, it will be better.

AEN: I see. What do you mean 'it is different'?

Thusness: A person can experience non-dual, there is no separation, but there is no such experience like "I AM". So he does not have that 'quality' of experience. However, if a practitioner experiences that "I AM" then when non-dual, he knows that there is such an experience, and all experiences are really like that.

AEN: I see. The non-dual experience will be more in-depth?

Thusness: No. It is all the same. But found in all manifestation, not as a stage. I wrote in Luminous Emptiness that if luminosity and emptiness is taught but there is no realization that it is the great bliss, then one has not realized anything. But Chodpa said, not that it is pointless but just a step along the path. So what is the great bliss?

AEN: Absorption in luminosity? Clarity? I don't know. I have experience of bliss but don't know if it's what you mean.

Thusness: It is actually a sort of absorption.

AEN: Yes, I notice there's bliss when there's absorption.

Thusness: Will talk about that next time. I think I will write about anatta, so that you don't get confused with non-dual. Anatta is about no agent. Clarity that there is no agent. And because there is no agent, it has to be direct.

AEN: I see. Means in the sound just the sound.

Thusness: It is naturally non-dual.

AEN: I see. I wrote something to you just now but don't know if you received it.

http://dharmaoverground.wetpaint.com/thread/2385161/Sharing+like+back+in+the+day...

Looking forward to hearing the discussion.

When self becomes more and more transparent,

Likewise phenomena become more and more luminous.

In thorough transparency all happening are pristinely and vividly clear.

Obviousness throughout, aliveness everywhere!

This became apparent to me just now. The more the self disappears, the more everything manifests its clearness, and naturalness, and spaciousness... but spaciousness is not like void... but the more spacious the more clear everything is... Today I am surprisingly awake even though I only slept 2 hours.

By the way, posted something on Buddhism and Taoism here: http://www.sgclub.com/singapore/difference_between_127679.html. It was after I wrote this that I searched the internet for something and found the Zisirum blog. But I think my post is too complex for the person.

Thusness: Yes. I want to experience this clarity. You must sleep. Later into anatta.

AEN: I slept I think 2 hours in the evening.

Thusness: What you experienced is non-dual. Now you must practice anatta and letting go. You will naturally experience that clarity. You must understand anatta and Dependent Origination also implies imprints. You are always dealing with imprints. Then wait for the right conditions for ripening of your experience.

AEN: I see. 

Soh
This post by a redditor corresponds to Phase 1 of the Thusness/PasserBy's Seven Stages of Enlightenment

It teaches the Self-Inquiry method (just as my free e-book does) as a direct means to attain Self-Realization.

Also check out related articles:

Some Writings on Self-Enquiry and Non-duality by Ken Wilber
Ramana Maharshi's instructions on Self-Enquiry

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https://www.reddit.com/r/spirituality/comments/5sgy4l/the_direct_path_to_your_real_self/

The Direct Path to Your Real Self 🎯


Did I tell you The Cosmic Joke, and how you were in on it all this while ?
What if I tell you that the Kingdom of God is within your reach. And it is reachable right here and right now. What will it take for you to believe me for a few mere minutes of your life ? You were probably going to spend these few minutes by marinating in the current gossip at your office, or worrying about the latest problem to hit your life, or reminiscing in a new love interest that is showing a lot of promise to last the long mile ? I'm not asking you to believe in anything. All I ask is for you to look and find something yourself. I'm only pointing to it. And I will try my best to point to it, with my complete capacity to currently do so.
On the night of 7th Dec '16, I realized that I did not exist as a seperate identity. It was the most subtle, yet profound realization of my life. I cannot compare it to anything at all. Since then, I've been going deeper and deeper into it. I found that I was the Ocean of Love myself, and it was so for as long as I could recall, and will be so for all eternity. I've been trying hard to make sense of it, but herein lies the problem - it cannot be made sense of. It is what allows the sense to exist. Anyway, starting in such an abstract manner was actually intended so that I have your undivided attention for the foreseeable future now. There is no magic here, and nothing is to be conjured. On the 4th Feb '17, I was able to guide my wife to also realize the Self. It also was the most profound realization for her, and she wept and laughed when she saw that it was so easy. She could not believe that for realizing something so simple, is what a lot of religious texts are written. I hope to be able to repeat this with everyone here, as I believe that every human being is 100% capable of realizing this.
The most important thing to remember here is that you should not have any expectations whatsoever. Even the slightest of expectations will thwart your union with your true Self. So just do what I say and stay in the moment.
RULES -
  • Read this text only when you are not pre-occupied with a chore, and are in an environment conducive for inner reflection.
  • Read completely until the end.
  • Have no expectations.
  • Read the instructions and reflect upon them.
  • DO NOT TRY TO READ BETWEEN THE LINES.
  • The instructions are very simple. Do not assume or create your own version of the instructions.
  • Keep aside all that you have read or know about spirituality.
  • Finally, be truthful to yourself. There is no one judging you because everyone else is reading this and seeing this for themselves :D
Let us start with the gross world - the things that you own in your home. You own the chair/bed/etc you are sitting on. But are you that chair/bed ? You own the phone/computer screen you are reading this on. But are you this phone ? Are you, your possessions ? Reflect upon this, and read further only when you realize that you are not your possessions.
Obviously you are not the chair, or the phone, just because you own them. Then take this body of yours. You say, this is your body. The entire body belongs to you, but you are not your possessions. Reflect upon this, and read further only when you realize that you are not your body as well.
Obviously, you are not even your body for the simple fact that you cannot be something that you yourself owns. Along with your body, you also removed all your senses of tasting, smelling, hearing, seeing and touching, from the equation. You are not even your 5 senses. The 5 senses serve you, but they are not you. Things are starting to get a little heated now. Something wonky is going on here, isn't it ? What about thoughts ? Do you think that the thought came to you, because you thought of it ? Or did the thought come to you of its' own accord ? If I say, do not think of the white dog barking outside, why did an image of the white dog flash in your mind right now ? It is not because you were unable in controlling your mind. It is because that is how the mind functions. It functions of its' own accord. It can be said that it has a life of its' own. You do not say that I will now think of an orange sun setting in the mountains, and then you think of the orange sun setting in the mountains. The thought of the orange sun setting in the mountains comes directly to you, without your decision to think so. Do you know that your kidney is fulfilling its' functions without you interfering into it ? Is it because it has a life of its' own too ? Oh no. Do all of your body organs fulfill their functions without you intervening in them ? Something seriously twisted is going on here and should be investigated into ! Reflect upon this paragraph and read further only when you realize that thoughts come to you by themselves.
Obviously, you are not even your thoughts. What about emotions ? Guess what, emotions too are thoughts. Your emotions. Your thoughts. Your senses. Your body. Your possessions. But they aren't you. Then what are you ? What about breath ? What is a breath after all ? The air that your lungs are filling up with AT THE MOMENT. The next moment, your lungs are empty of all this air as well. The breath has gone out now. But you are still here. Reflect upon this paragraph and read further only when you realize that you are not even the breath you take.
Are you still here or not ? I'm sure you are. But who are you here as ? Are you here as your identity or name ? You have a certain set of beliefs that you carry along with yourself as what you think makes you 'you'. What if I tell you that your parents are not your biological parents and that they had adopted you from your real parents, and that your name is not what you call yourself currently. What if your parents provide you proof of this as well. A minute ago, you were someone you always thought you were, but now suddenly, with the introduction of some new facts, your idea of who you are seems to have changed. What do you know about yourself that is for certain and doesn't change, regardless of changes in your so called identity ? Reflect upon this paragraph and read further only when you realize that you are not the identity you take yourself to be.
You hold your identity the closest to yourself, because you protect it with your life. Read this below scenario completely and then try to imagine the same with your eyes closed to get a deeper feel for it. You are in a pitch black room without a single ray of light. It makes no difference if your eyes are open or closed in this room. Your hands and legs are bound in chains and stretched away from your torso. Next, you realize that you have absolutely no recollection of anything from the past. You don't even know any language that you can speak. You don't know your name. You don't know your caste and creed. You don't even know the color of your skin. Heck, there is no way for you to even know your own gender. You can't move your hands over your body to verify your gender because your hands are bound in chains. Oh, what a predicament to be in ! Despite having literally no information about yourself, you know that you are here in this pitch black room. How do you acknowledge your presence in this black room ? Can you deny your presence in this room ? Is it possible for you to say that you are not here in this room ? Look carefully, and see what is it about you, which allows you to make the statement,"I am here". You don't even know any languages you can speak. And yet, you can ascertain your presence in this black room. You have been stripped off of everything you owned, but there is something that you do not own. You do not own your own presence. You ARE the presence. Your presence cannot be taken from you. You can never say that, "I am not here", because even to say this, something has to perceive your own absence. Before you say "I am Daniel (hypothetical name)", you have to be here. Before you add 'Daniel', you say "I AM..." To be Daniel, you have to be Here and Now. Do you see how simple and subtle this realization is ? It is something that you have taken for granted for all your life. But, today is the day you meet your real Self. Your presence, is the most important factor of all, because it is on the screen of your presence, that the entire world and the cosmos is reflected upon. You are the cinema screen, devoid of any flavor, onto which movies of unlimited genres are played upon. Tragic situations, comedic situations, romantic and action and sci-fi alike. It all happens because of your presence. The world is in you. You are not in the world. This is why Nisargadutta Maharaj says, "I am that, by which I know, I am." Read that again slowly and you will get it. The 'amness', is the most critical factor of all. Think about it - is your presence any different from mine ? Does your presence have a gender ? Or any age ? Or any emotion or feeling ? Does it even have a morality scale ? Do you see how you judge your self more than others judge you ? This is what is called, being aware of awareness. It is even called liberation, or moksha, or nirvana, or enlightenment, or cosmic consciousness.
Yes, it is as simple as that. Your name and your personality, is just a bundle of thoughts, ideas, opinions, judgements and feelings at best, and they are not you. This is why it is said that everything is Maya, an illusion. Because everything is passing and changing, but it is doing so on the screen of your presence, which is ever unchanging. You never stop being you. And by you, I don't mean your identity. I simply mean your beingness, or your presence. Someone might say that the presence too belongs to someone, but it is not so. Your 'am-ness' doesn't belong to you. It isn't yours ! You ARE it !!!
I'm sure that this text, that I so joyfully wrote, will help someone to see through the prisons that they themselves created. There was no person inside you, and that we inherently are all hollow, or filled with nothingness. Our presence is the vacant nothingness onto which the everythingness of the world is projected upon. To anyone who has followed me here so far and can see this most simple truth reflected in their own being - when the thoughts come to you, do you see who it comes to ? It comes to no one. There is no solitary being sitting inside you, who you serve. There is no ego, because there never was one. All your psychological suffering was imagined. There is no ego. There only is egoic behaviour. It is a funny thing to see this.
You might have doubts about something now. Do you doubt your own presence ? Is there anything else that you are sure of, apart from your own presence ?
This is the first version of my little guide to realizing your true nature, and might undergo further future revisions, as and how I find a better way to state examples or scenarios to guide you to your Self. I sincerely hope that this helps everyone here.
The one who is laughing uncontrollably by now knows that he got the joke !!! 😉🙏



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From the same author:

https://www.reddit.com/r/awakened/comments/7i53gb/today_marks_1_year_of_unending_and_everdeepening/?st=JQN9HZKH&sh=cb3860a0


Today marks 1 year of unending and ever-deepening bliss since I woke up. Sharing some of the text I wrote on my blog. Hope it helps to ignite the flame in at least one person here.


Dear seekers,
Today marks 1 year since I woke up to the realization of my true Self. And undoubtedly, this has been the most revolutionary year of my life, yet. Each passing moment since then has been filled with increasing wonder. There have been moments of joy and sorrow, but staying detached from both of them led to unending and ever-deepening bliss. I have been blessed to be able to guide a few others to this same realization as well. It is my only desire that as many awaken to this as possible, regardless of how they awaken, or which path they take, for every path leads to this. For the awakening, the biggest desire one needs to have, is to awaken. It has to be bigger than any dreams or ambitions one has. When the desire for self realization is the strongest, it burns all other desires that one has, along with itself. An awakened life truly is the best way to live.
I started a blog earlier this year, and though I haven't updated it in a while, the 3 articles I wrote have helped countless seekers so far. I don't claim to be the best writer on self-realization, nor do I have any hopes to end up as one. Each has their own path and if my articles help you even a tiny bit, I would consider my writings a decent success.
Feel free to share them with anyone you feel would benefit from it.

Soh
Related: Four Aspects of I AM

Good for the different phases/aspects of I AMness as I wrote in my e-book. The last part is 'impersonality', being lived by cosmic intelligence.

http://www.innerfrontier.org/Practices/JacobsLadder.htm?fbclid=IwAR2ZX3UR1KtQaUnFTQiQ86b_zWKHcasdv81hL7-3XFZzsFAxgfTLwDmPH4k

A Meditation: Climbing Jacob's Ladder
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In this meditation, as far as we are able, we climb up Jacob’s Ladder, the ladder to the higher spiritual worlds. We might work at this meditation when in a particularly good state. Or when in difficulty. Or when we feel an especially strong need to delve into the depths of being. We do not expect to climb all the way up. Indeed, this meditation can be a measure of our progress, of the quality of our being and the purity of our will, of how thoroughly we can release the grip of self-centeredness and all the rest that keeps us mired in unfulfilling modes of living. The attempt itself to climb this ladder, to operate in progressively higher energies, gradually strengthens our being and purifies our will.
To fully enter this practice may require an extended block of time: an hour or more. Give each of the stages its due. They cannot be rushed or pushed. Let each phase take as much time as it needs to ripen into fullness. You will know when that happens.
We begin with a thorough relaxation, letting go the tensions, large and small, in every corner of our body, in our thoughts, and in our emotions.
Next, we open to the energy of sensation in the whole body. Energy breathing can help build the sensation. We sit in the midst of this remarkable body of ours, in full awareness of the whole of it through sensation. We continuously direct our intention, our will to support, strengthen, and inhabit our full-body sensation, which grows more and more and more substantial. Our will-to-be manifests through this whole body of sensation.
We become aware of ourselves, of who we are. We become ourselves. We experience ourselves as wholly and firmly present, as I Am. "Here I am, sitting in this body of sensation, in robust presence. I am here. Unique. Wholly myself. I fill the whole field of awareness with my intention to be. I am making an act of being, of being here, of being whole in the fullness of my current experience. I sit. I am. I am complete. I continuously renew this act of being." These sayings are not intended as affirmations to repeat to yourself; rather they describe what you do, what you create and experience in this stage.
After some time, we notice the growing spaciousness around and in our awareness. We naturally shift into that fundamental, spacious awareness, that cognizant stillness behind and beneath all sensation, thought, and emotion. While maintaining the full-body sensation and the experience of I Am, we rest in consciousness. No longer entangled with random sensations and sensory perceptions, we let them be. We let all the sensory input be embraced in the context of our consciousness, our pure awareness, the field and background within which sensory perceptions flare up and fade out. This transparent awareness forms an empty vessel, through which all the sensory perceptions, thoughts, and emotions pass freely, unhindered, appearing and disappearing. Behind it all, we rest in conscious awareness, as I Am. We may notice a new relationship with time: we are partially released from its dominion. Our perception of space also changes at this level, where the categories of inner and outer no longer apply.
Gradually, consciousness itself grows porous. Then, with the whole of our being, we simultaneously reach out toward and open to a greater world beyond ourselves, beyond consciousness, and begin to perceive the world of sacred light, trickling into our darkness. Inwardly calling out to the Divine, we repeatedly open toward that ultimate, creative light until only it remains. On the outskirts of that world, we feel its warmth, we sense its glow, we soak in its energy. In its fullness, all separateness, all the ten thousand things merge into that Primordial Sacred Sun. That light is part of our nature, the source of wisdom. We become the light, basking in unimaginable joy.
Next — and remarkably there is a next — we become aware of the other side of I Am, of the source from which it arises, within a stillness of surpassing quality. We see our I as a knot that blocks off the depths, a knot that makes itself the source of our will, intentions, choices, and decisions, including the intention to meditate in this moment. Gradually we loosen the knot until it gives way, until I let go entirely of being myself, of being my own source.
Until this point, our ascent has been into the depths within us. But always we have remained at the core of the experience, with the experience outside of us, of our core. Now we must empty that very core and open to what is deeper than our innermost center. We ourselves become the outside to the Sacred Will of the World, Who is our Source, and let that Will come through us, as us.
We inwardly prostrate ourselves, begging for reconnection, begging to become a part of that Greatness. Silently and wholeheartedly calling out to the Ultimate, completely and utterly opening the very kernel of who we are, we reach beyond the world of sacred light, into the unbounded emptiness, which is also an overflowing fullness, an intimacy with all, with the All.
    This is the Sacred Will of the World,
    Of Whom I am now a particle,
    Who lends me the will to be myself,
    Who lends me my I,
    Who is my very Self,
    Whom I hope to become able to serve by emptying myself unconditionally,
    In Whom we are all united,
    And Who continuously creates and sustains this universe in love.
This ultimate stage of the meditation comes only as an act of grace from Above. It lies well beyond our ability to make happen, although our emptiness, our surrender, and our love are necessary. Attempting to enter here, prayer may help. If you are so inclined, silently repeat one of God’s names, one close to your heart, one that both expresses your yearning and brings you peace.
In closing the meditation, we climb back down Jacob’s Ladder to return to our daily life, though somewhat changed inwardly. We come, in turn, back to the sacred light, back to the cognizant stillness of consciousness and the presence of I Am, back to sensation and relaxation, and thus back to the base of the ladder. We rest in awareness as the meditation settles in us.