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On: I AM, One Mind, No Mind, Anatta, View vs Experience, etc

Dear Teacher XX,

May you be well and with the Buddha. I hope your health has improved and that you recover soon.
I understand that you prefer listening instead of reading from a computer, so I have added a computer-generated audio recording (from Free Text to Speech Online with Realistic AI Voices (naturalreaders.com)) attached to this email for you to listen to. The technology is fantastic now, you just need to copy and paste the text into the software, and it can generate an audio file almost instantly.
First of all, I want to thank you for giving me the opportunity to share my experiences and insights in your class.

However, I have recently been thinking about whether it is appropriate to share my insights in a layman's context (Soh’s comment: should be simplified manner rather than layman’s context). I originally intended to share my experiences and insights of my practice in a more straightforward and understandable way, including some of the following details:

Over the years, I have gradually realized that many people have misunderstood the concept of no-self (Anatta) in Dharma. I have observed that most people progress from realizing the true self/I AM, then to non-dual experiences, and finally to the state of no-mind, instead of directly realizing the original no-self insight/prajna wisdom of Dharma. My definition of "no-mind" here may be different from the terms in ZZ Buddhism. Specifically, I refer to a state where all subjectivity/self/ego/observer, etc., are completely forgotten, leaving only the pure world of phenomena, the pinnacle of non-dual experiences.
I regard "no-mind" as an experiential stage, which is different from the original no-mind wisdom of Bodhidharma, the founder of Zen Buddhism. The latter refers to the inherent wisdom of Anatta, not just a peak experience. Those who have experienced no-mind (as an experience/stage, not prajna wisdom) know that such experiences exist and strive to achieve them again, trying hard to practice "forgetting the self" but not realizing the original no-self. The duality between the knower and the known disappears in the brilliance of colors, sounds, and scents, but this is an experience, not the realization of prajna wisdom.
There are two types of wisdom: "original wisdom" and "prajna wisdom." "Original wisdom" is the wisdom of the natural state of inherent purity and suchness, the true reality. "Prajna wisdom" is the wisdom of dealing with the emptiness of inherentness/inherent existence. Both types of wisdom are equally important. However, without a stable realization/insight of no-self, dependent origination, and emptiness, we will be unable to directly realize the true, suchness of the original wisdom that is beyond all elaborations. In the process of practice, practitioners need to balance these two types of wisdom to continually break through the view of self-nature and ultimately realize the freedom and purity of the mind.

Moreover, the prajna wisdom of no-self is a direct experiential realization that many people find difficult to understand. So this point is crucial; prajna wisdom/insight is different from merely non-dual experiences because it is a direct and experiential realization: "It has always been like this." (There is no knower or agent outside or behind the luminous phenomena; it has always been like this). The wisdom of no-self is critical for attaining/achieving a non-dual state where the background is completely irrelevant and inherently non-existent, without any tendency to subsume.

In the stage I call "the initial awakening" of what I call the "True Self", although awareness is nondual and nonconceptual at the moment of pure authentication, the understanding that follows is still dualistic— the nature is seen as (mistakenly believed to be) the formless aspect of the Witness behind all phenomena (including all other five aggregates), with the Witness and the witnessed being two separate entities. In daily life, awareness is seen as the ultimate background behind phenomena. However, even after the next stage, where the observer and the observed merge into a nondual state, it is far from the end. In fact, in my experience, there are several stages within nonduality (which I call One Mind, No Mind, and Anatta). Here, I will elaborate on my so-called experiences of One Mind, No Mind, and Anatta, and the differences between them. The unification of emptiness and form, as in One Mind, is not the same as the emptiness and selflessness of awareness. The complete absence of distinctions between thinker/thought or listener/sound, etc., is a stage of nondual experience and insight, which I call the nonduality of One Mind, but it is different from the nonduality of Anatta.

In the initial nondual or One Mind stage, although awareness is seen as inseparable from phenomena, it is still considered unchanging, independent, or having inherent existence. At that stage, you would feel that you are an unchanging, open, and empty field of awareness (as is the initial awakening of the True Self). However, by the time you reach One Mind, when you hear a sound, the sound and the (empty-like) field of awareness seem to be one and the same, difficult to distinguish, but you cannot fully experience the absence of a listener, with only the sound present. In the nondual stage of One Mind, you will find that awareness and all forms are inseparable, but even though at this point you would also experience that awareness and the objects of awareness are originally nondual, awareness is still considered unchanging, special, and essentially different from phenomena (for example, awareness is unchanging and independently existing, while phenomena are subsumed into a vast, boundless, empty-like unchanging awareness that rises and falls, although this awareness contains and is inseparable from all phenomena, and the objects and the subject are one). The former (sound and the (empty-like) field of awareness seeming to be one) is the nonduality of One Mind— everything is included in a larger, unchanging field of awareness that is indivisible, with all aspects of body and mind being part of this field, but the field is not all aspects of body and mind, and this is "One Mind". The latter (only sound, no listener) is No Mind to Anatta. No Mind is precisely when the listener disappears, and there is only the sound, the awareness at the moment when only the sound is present, but this is a stage of experience where the "One Mind" of "all unified field of awareness" is forgotten and only the luminous phenomena remain. Anatta (non-self) is the realization that has always been: sound is awareness, awareness is just sound, there has never been a listener, and there has never been a knower, apart from the luminous phenomena of sound, color, and so on. Like the wind and the act of blowing, awareness is not some unchanging basis but rather an alternative name for luminous and dynamic manifestations/appearances.

Even when one experiences the collapse of observer and observed duality into a single field where awareness and phenomena are not divided in "one mind", one still cannot overcome or break through the deeply ingrained pattern of treating awareness as more ultimate, special, unchanging, and independent than the fleeting, impermanent phenomena. When this insight and paradigm are not overcome, the experience of no-mind can only be intermittent/temporary, rather than an effortless, natural, and seamless state, because the insight is unclear. One cannot effortlessly and fully comfortably settle in the brilliant/momentary/impermanent dharma (as Master Huineng and Zen Master Dogen once said, "Impermanence is Buddha-nature") and will habitually revert to a view of an inherent/unchanging source or foundation. When this stage progresses to a certain extent, the experience of no-mind will also occur when the knower completely disappears, with no separation between mirror and reflection, there is only that. However, despite having this experience, one still insists that the reflection (phenomena) and the mirror (pure awareness) are not the same. It is like the sky (awareness) is not the flowing clouds (phenomena), because the view of inherent existence is still very strong-- one does not have the wisdom of prajna to see through and overcome the view that awareness is an unchanging and inherently existing source, substratum, and substance of all phenomena that is nevertheless inseparable from all phenomena. Therefore, a practitioner may have clear no-mind experiences but have a one-mind view: there is still a desynchronization between view and experience. One may feel that the reflections come and go, are inseparable from the mirror, but the mirror is unchanging and thus more special, with a subtle difference from the reflections. While everything is indeed awareness, this is correct; the problem lies in the view of "everything shares a single unchanging awareness body," which is a mistaken view. Therefore, no-self must be a realization and insight, not merely a "no-mind" experience; otherwise, the experience will be mistaken for prajna wisdom.

Crucially, it is the prajna wisdom of no-self (anatman) that helps us overcome this obstacle in view. The awakening and practice of Anatta (no-self) are not achieved by merely practicing non-grasping or non-identification (in the initial "original self" stage, also maintaining an unaffected mirror, the mirror does not grasp its reflections nor identify them as oneself) but through realization/awakening-- realizing that besides the constantly presenting brilliant reflections, there is no other mirror, and the reflections themselves are the mirror. Without the awakening of no-self, it is impossible to have a permanent, seamless no-mind experience. If there is still a view of inherent existence and belief in self, will the no-mind experience be intermittent or permanent? Clearly, it can only be intermittent. At this time, the practitioner will constantly shuttle back and forth between "original self", "one mind", and "no-mind". Without the clear insight/prajna wisdom and achieving complete, doubt-free understanding of the no-self Dharma Seal, how can there be a permanent, effortless, selfless experience of all the six senses? It is impossible, and only after the insight of prajna wisdom is inspired will it naturally become effortless to realize one's nature in everything, and one will naturally extend this prajna wisdom in all interactions, whether in daily activities or meditation.

Merely maintaining a state of no thought, no concept, or cultivating a non-dual experience is not enough to realize/awaken to the selflessness. Instead, one must explore and challenge the deeply rooted insights in experience, exploring and challenging the perception of being an independent observer or having an independent existence of the "perception" itself, and exploring and challenging them by deeply perceiving the essence of the phenomenon until these constructs are seen through, realizing that perception is just these sceneries, sounds, mountains, and rivers, and has always been so, originally without an "I," without the ability to perceive behind it, and without a subject-action-object structure. This wisdom is not just about a state without concepts or a state without a mind, but crucially, it is about seeing through the inherent existence/self-nature misconception. This is why I had some insights after deeply contemplating the Bahiya Sutta - it is not just about extending a state without thought, without concepts, and non-duality, but "in what is seen, there is only the seen," realizing that there has never been a seer, a listener, an observer, nor has there ever been a "you" in any way or form that could have existed outside or behind all that is seen and heard, so when seeing, there is only the seen, when hearing, there is only the sound, when thinking, there is only the thought, originally without self, just like this.

Therefore, the subject-action-object (subject-action-object) is considered an illusion. Selflessness is always the Dharma seal, and this wisdom can break through the self-nature misconception of awareness, allowing one to recognize: when seeing colors, seeing itself is just the brilliant colors, there has never been a seer. When listening to sounds, there is only sound, and listening is only sound, there is no listener, always so. No effort is needed, and there has never been an "I," always just like this, not just an experience, but to realize this inherent nature. Awareness is like "weather," merely a label attached to constantly changing phenomena such as lightning, rain, snow, wind, and sunlight, and there is no real entity that can be found anywhere outside of them. Just as awareness is a label for the brilliant scenery, sounds, tactile sensations, scents, and thoughts, because it is these that are Buddha-nature, nothing else - Buddha-nature is not an entity, and it is not inherently existing outside of the five aggregates (otherwise it would become the eternalism view of non-Buddhist traditions).

Selflessness is not only about the peak experience of non-duality, and it is not only about merging the perceiver and the perceived, just as it is not about merging fire and burning (there is no fire outside of burning from the beginning) or merging lightning and the flash (there is no lightning outside of the flash from the beginning, the two are just synonyms), or merging the perceiver and the perceived, but realizing that they have never existed in themselves - the perception and the phenomenon itself have never been able to exist in themselves, so this is not the union of subject and object, but the realization that subject and object have never been born, empty by nature and without birth. Knowing and the known are inherently empty, so the nature of mind is the inseparable clarity (luminosity) and emptiness.
Although realizing no-self is just the beginning of truly stepping into Buddhism and the path of liberation, and there are more insights and breakthroughs during the journey, without this key milestone, it is really difficult to delve deeper into the nature of mind and phenomena, and ascend to the emptiness of both person and phenomena. Here, I am only focusing on no-self and not discussing dependent origination emptiness in depth, because it is beyond the scope of a single email. The realization of no-self is crucial for all sects within Buddhism (Theravada, Mahayana, and here Mahayana also includes Tibetan Buddhism), regardless of whether they are Theravada or Mahayana, and it is not only about the sudden enlightenment of Zen. Although practitioners initially go through a gradual process, they also need breakthroughs in wisdom (realizing the innate no-self and dependent origination emptiness). The bodhisattva's understanding of emptiness is deeper than that of Theravada because it encompasses the emptiness of both person and phenomena. Other (non-Buddhist) religions also lead people into a non-dual stage, but they concretize it as the unchanging Brahman and the Atman (they teach: the small self is illusory, the world is also false, only the cosmic self is the true self - Brahman is pure awareness, and ultimately realize that "the world is Brahman", without subject and object, so they also have the experience of the stages from the innate self to oneness and no-mind, but these are not the Dharma seals of no-self or dependent origination emptiness emphasized in Buddhism). In Buddhism, no-self as the emptiness of 'awareness' is crucial, which is different from other religions, but there is another important point: this emptiness is not about awareness as the all-encompassing void (this will be experienced in the 'innate self' or oneness stage, even if this "void" is completely "non-dual" with all phenomena, it can still remain at the level of oneness, without breaking through the view of inherent existence). The awareness-like void should not be interpreted as Buddhist emptiness but is just one aspect of spiritual awareness. This "emptiness" is actually just experiencing one aspect of spiritual awareness, and this void is almost always mistaken for having inherent existence (from the innate self to oneness), which is actually the opposite of Buddhist emptiness and falls into the common views of non-Buddhist paths. Buddhist emptiness refers to the consciousness empty of inherent existence.

I have been thinking about how to share all of the above content, especially about the realization of no-self, the differences between the innate self, non-duality, and no-self, etc., and I actually started designing a PowerPoint. But later I felt that it might not be suitable to share in the lecture because my views might be different from yours regarding the teachings of ZZ. Since the views are different, it is difficult to share, otherwise, I might inadvertently refute the teachings of ZZ during the sharing. I do not want my sharing to cause confusion or cognitive dissonance for your students, who may have learned different views from you. You may need to find another layperson to replace me on that day to share, and I am very sorry for my short notice. I also want to express my intention to withdraw from the Wonderful Sound Group.

With deep respect and gratitude,

In the Dharma,
Wei Yu
Posting here upon request from Yin Ling. Something for Chinese readers here. English version will be in a separate post.

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On: I AM, One Mind, No Mind, Anatta, View vs Experience, etc

XX老师,
与佛同在。希望您的病情已经好转,早日康复。
我明白您喜欢听而不是从电脑上阅读,因此我已经添加了电脑软件生成音频录音(从Free Text to Speech Online with Realistic AI Voices (naturalreaders.com))附加到此电子邮件以供您收听。现在的科技非常棒,您只需复制粘贴文本到软件中,几乎立即就可以自动生成音频文件。
首先,我要感谢您给我在讲堂分享我的经历和心得的机会。
然而,我最近在思考是否适合在ZZ分享我的心得。 本来我是打算以比较浅白易懂的方式来分享我的修行体会和经历过的过程,也会包括以下的一些细节:
这些年来,我逐渐明白很多人都误解了(法印之)无我,我观察到大多数人是从体悟本我/我是(I AM)然后进展到非二元的体验、再来进入无心的境界,而不是直接领悟到法印之本来无我的体悟/洞见/般若智。我在这里 “无心” 的定义可能与ZZ佛教的术语有所不同,具体来说,我指的是一种所有主体性(subjectivity)/自我/小我/大我/观察者/等等都完全被忘记到只剩下纯粹光明的世界/现象,无能所二元体验之巅的状态。一个人可能有无心的经历/体验,了解有这种经历-只是现象或只有光明的世界,但它仍然是一个体验/阶段——还不知道其实是错误的知见在“蒙蔽”——一个错误的知见塑造/歪曲了我们的整个经历。
我在这里把“无心”作为一种经验阶段,与禅宗菩提达摩祖师所说的“本来就是/根本无心”有所不同,后者是指本无我的般若智慧,而不仅仅是一次(或多次)的顶峰体验(peak experience)。曾经历过无心的人(作为一种经验/阶段而非般若智慧)知道有这样的体验,并努力再次实现它,努力地修“忘我”但不代表体悟到本来无我。知者与所知之间的二元性消失在光辉的色彩、声音、香气等中,但这是一种体验,而非般若智的领悟。
有两种智慧:「本初智」与「般若智」。「本初智」是那摆脱所有阐述,本来清净如如、真如的自然状态的智慧;而「般若智」是处理自性见/固有存在的空性(emptiness of inherentness/inherent existence)的智慧。这两种智慧同等重要。话虽如此,如果没有稳定的无我、缘起和空性的觉悟/洞见,我们将无法不受扭曲地直接证悟那摆脱一切阐述的真如、如如的本初智。在修行过程中,修行者需要平衡这两种智慧,以便在深化实践中不断突破自性见,并最终实现心性的自由与清净。
此外,无我的般若智慧是许多人难以理解的直接体验性的觉悟。所以这一点很重要,般若智慧(prajna wisdom)/洞见(insight)与仅仅只是无二元的体验是不同的,因为它是一个直接的觉悟(direct and experiential realization):“从一开始就是如此。” (没有知者/knower或主体/agent在光明现象之外或背后存在,始终如此)。无我的般若智慧对于达到/实现那种非二元,背景(background)被完全视为无关紧要(irrelevant),而本来就不存在,也没有再次有纳入的倾向(tendency to subsume)是非常关键的。
在我所称之为“本我”的“初悟”阶段中,虽然在那纯粹认证的时刻(moment of pure authentication)觉性也是非二元和无概念的(nondual and nonconceptual),但在此之后的知见仍然是二元的——自性被视为(误解地认为)所有色法(包括其他一切五蕴)背后的无形相的目睹者(Witness),目睹者和被目睹者是两个,在日常生活中,觉知被视为现象背后的终极背景。但即使在下一个阶段,在观察者和被观察者合为一体的非二元状态之后,也远非结束。事实上,在我的经历中,非二元中还有几个阶段(我本身称之为一心、无心和无我)。在这里,我会详细说明一下我所谓的一心、无心的经验和无我的觉悟以及它们之间的区别。虚空和色相的统一,如一心,并不等同于觉知的空性和无我。思考者/思想或听者/声音等等之间的毫无区别也是一种无二元体验和洞见的阶段,这是我所谓一心的非二元...但和无我的无二元是不同的。在最初的非二元或一心中,虽然觉知被视为与现象不可分割,但仍被认为是不变的、独立的或实有自性(inherent existence)。在那个阶段,你会觉得自己是一个不变的、开放如虚空的觉体(初悟本我也是)。然而到了一心时,当你听到声音时,声音和(那如虚空般)的觉体似乎是一体的,难以区分,但你无法完全体会到只有声音,没有听者的那种经验。在一心的非二元阶段中,你会发现觉知和所有色相是不可分割的,但虽然在这时候也会体会到原来觉与所觉本来是不二的,觉知仍被认为是不变的、特殊的、本质上不同于现象(例如,觉知是不变的和独立存在的,现象就纳入在(subsume into)一个更广大无边、类似虚空的不变觉知之中起起落落,尽管这个觉知包含了并与所有现象密不可分,能所一体)。前者(声音和(那如虚空般)的觉体似乎是一体的)是一心类的非二元——一切都包含在一个更大的、不变的觉体中而不可分割,身心的一切也是觉体的一部分,但觉体不是身心的一切,这都是“一心”。而后者(只有声音,没有听者)是无心到无我。无心恰恰是在听者消失,只有声音的时候,无心正是在听者消失,只有声音时的觉知,但这是一种经验阶段,在这个阶段,“一心”的“一切同一体的觉体”被遗忘成了只剩光明现象而已。而无我(Anatta)是体悟一直以来都是:声音就是觉知,觉知就只是声音,从未有过一个听者,也从未有过一个觉知者,除了光明的声音、色彩等等的现象。就像风和吹动一样,觉知不是某种不变的基质,而是光明动态展示(luminous and dynamic manifestation/appearance)的别名。
即使当一个人体验到观察者和被观察者的二元性坍缩成一个领域,觉知和现象在“一心”中没有分裂(watcher and watched collapsed into a single field where awareness and phenomena are not divided in “one mind”),一个人仍然无法克服、突破把觉知当作比转瞬即逝的无常现象更终极、特殊、不变、独立等等的深层模式。当这种知见和范式没有被克服时,无心的经历只能是间歇/暂时性的,而不是一种毫不费力、自然、无出入的状态,因为知见是模糊的,一个人无法毫不费力地完全舒适地安住在光辉/璀璨的瞬间/无常法中(如六祖慧能大师和道元禅师曾说,“无常即佛性”)而会习惯性地回溯到一个视为固有/不变的源头或基础。当这个阶段进展到某个程度,无心的经验也会出现,当知者完全消失,没有分离镜子和倒影,就只有那。但尽管有了这种经验,一个人仍然坚持认为倒影(现象)和镜子(纯觉知)不是一回事。就像天空(觉知)不是流动的云彩(现象),因为固有存在的自性见(view of inherent existence)的邪见依然很强烈——一个人没有般若智来看破和克服那觉知被视为一个不变且固有存在的、所有现象的源、基质和实质的知见,尽管这些现象与觉密不可分,(one does not see through and overcome the view that awareness is an unchanging and inherently existing source, substratum and substance of all phenomena that is nevertheless inseparable with all phenomena) 因此一个修行者可能有无心的清晰经验,但却有一心的知见:知见和经验之间仍然不同步(desync between view and experience)。一个人会觉得倒影来来去去,与镜子密不可分,但镜子却是不变的,因此更特殊,与倒影有细微的不同。虽然一切的确都是觉知,这是正确的,但“一切都共同一个不变的觉体”那种自性见才是问题所在,这是一个错误的知见。 因此,无我必须是一种了悟和见地,而不仅仅是一种“无心”的体验,不然就把体验误认为般若智慧。
至关重要的是,让我们克服这种知见上的障碍的是无我(anatman)的般若智慧。无我(Anatta)的觉悟和实践并非通过仅仅练习不执着(non grasping)或不认别/认取(non identification)(在最初的“本我”的阶段,也会练习保持一个不受影响的镜子,镜子不会抓住它的倒影,也不认别倒影为自己),而是通过觉悟/体悟(realization)——觉悟到除了不断呈现的光明影子之外,根本不存在其他的镜子,影子本身即镜。如果没有无我的觉悟,就不可能有永久无出入的无心体验。如果内心仍存在自性见和有我的信念,那么无心的体验会是断断续续的还是永久的?很显然的,它只能是间歇性的。这时修行人会不断地在“本我”,“一心”和“无心”之间来回穿梭。如果没有清明的洞见/般若智,而达到对(法印之)无我完全无疑惑,又如何能有一种永恒的、毫不费力,没有我地体验一切六根?那是没办法做到的,而只有在般若慧的洞见启发之后,才会自然而然地变得毫不费力地在一切实现本性,一个人在所有的交往中自然地延伸这种般若智慧,无论是日常活动还是静坐。
若只是保持无念、无概念或培养无二元的体验是不足以实现/觉悟无我的,相反,一个人必须通过体验中地探究和挑战深深植根的知见,探究和挑战即觉知作为一个独立的观察者或有一个独立存在的“观”本身,除了颜色等等,探究和挑战它们并深观觉知/现象的本质,直到这些构造被看穿,直接认识到觉知正是这些景色、声音、山河大地,永远已经如此,本来没有我,没有背后的能觉,也本来没有主-动-宾。这种般若智慧并不仅仅是关于无概念的状态,也不仅仅是无心的状态,而关键是在于看穿那固有存在/自性见的误解。这就是我在婆酰迦经(Bahiya Sutta)上深观后有所体悟的原因——它不仅仅是为了延长一个无念,无概念和非二元性的状态,“在所见之中只是所见”,而是要认识到从来没有一个见者、听者、一个观察者,也从未有一个在任何方式、形式上的“你”,能在一切所见所闻之外或背后存在过,因此,在看见的时候,总是只有所见,在听见的时候,总是只有声音,在思考的时候,总是只有思想,本来无我,本就如此。因此,主体-动作-对象/主-动-宾(subject-action-object)被视为是幻觉。无我是始终如此的法印,而这种智慧能打破对觉知的自性见,才能体认:在看色相时,看本身只是辉煌的色相,从未有过一个观者。 在听声音时,只是声音,听就只是声音而已,没有听者,始终如此。不需要费力,也从来没有一个“我”,永远已经如此,不只是一种体验而是要“悟”这本来如此。觉知就像“天气”,仅仅是在不断变化的闪电、雨、雪、风吹、阳光等现象上贴上的一个标签,没有一个真实的实体可以在除它们之外的任何地方找到,就像觉知只是光辉的风景、声音、触觉感觉、香气和思想的一个标签,因为正是这些才是佛性,没有别的 - 佛性并不是一个实体,它不是固有地存在于五蕴之外(不然就变成了外道梵我的知见/常见)。
无我不仅仅是关于无二元的顶峰体验,也不仅仅是关于将觉知者和所知者合并,就像不是把将火和燃烧合并(从一开始就没有‘燃烧’之外的火),或将闪电和闪光合并(从一开始就没有在闪光之外有个闪电,两者只是别名),或将觉知者和所知者合并,而是觉悟到它们本身从未存在于自身过 - 觉知和现象本身从未能存在于自身,因此这并不是主体和客体的结合,而是认识到主体和客体从未生过,性空本无生。知与所知本就空无自性,所以心性的本质是清晰(灵觉)和空性的不可分离。尽管很深奥,以上无我的觉悟也只是深入佛法的第一步,为实践者指明了正确的道路。虽然无我也只是真正踏入佛法/解脱道的一个开始,而旅途中还有更多的体悟和突破,但是如果没有这个关键的里程碑,真的很难更深入地了解心性和现象的本质,而升入人法二空。我在这里也只不过专注在无我,不深入讨论缘起性空,因为它超出了单个电子邮件所能传达的范围。无我的觉悟对于所有佛教里的一切宗派(小乘、大乘,这里的大乘也包括藏传佛教)都至关重要,无论是大小乘,不仅仅是禅宗的顿悟而已,尽管修行人一开始有渐修的过程,也需要般若智慧的突破(体悟本无我、缘起性空),虽然菩萨对空性的觉悟比小乘更为深入,因为它涵盖了人法二空。其他(非佛教)的宗教也会引导人进入非二元的阶段,但将其具体化为不变的梵、梵我(他们教:小我是虚幻的,世界也是假的,只有宇宙同体的大我是真我-梵是纯粹的觉体,而最终也体悟到“世界皆是梵“,没有能所,所以他们也有经历本我到一心和无心阶段的体会,但这些都还不是佛教里强调的法印之无我或缘起性空)。在佛教里,无我作为‘觉’的空性是至关重要的,这一点就和其他宗教不同了,但还有重要的一点:这种空性不是关于觉知如同包罗万象的虚空(这在‘本我’或一心阶段都会体验到,即使这个“虚空”与所有现象完全“非二”,它仍然可以保持在一心的层面,还没突破自性见)。 如同虚空的觉不应该解释为佛教的空性,而只是灵觉的一方面而已,这种”空”其实只是体会到灵觉的一方面而已,而且这虚空几乎每次都会被错认为有自体性(从本我到一心),这其实是空性的相反而不是佛教里的空性,而是落入了外道的常见。 佛教的空性指的是无自体性(empty of inherent existence)的意识。
我有思考要怎么分享以上所有的内容,特别是关于无我的觉悟,本我、非二元和无我之间的区别等等,也其实开始在设计powerpoint。但是后来我觉得可能和您与ZZ的见解不同,不适合在讲堂里分享。因为观点不同,也很难分享,否则可能会在分享里无意中反驳了ZZ的教导,我也不希望我的分享与他们从您那里学到若有分差,给您的学生带来困惑或认知失调。 可能您会需要找另一个居士来代替我在那一天分享,我为我的临时通知表示非常抱歉。我也想表达我要退出妙音组的意向。
深表敬意和感激,
与佛同在,
玮昱

Someone asked:

How do you recommend to break through to I AM? After a few years of self inquiry, it feels like that avenue is exhausted. How do I know I'm not wasting more time?

 

Soh replied:


How did you practice self enquiry? Do you fall into concepts or do you have glimpses of Being?

On self enquiry, see:

Soh's translation:
Yuan Yin Lao Ren:
In the past there was a Master who contemplated, "what is the original face before my parents were born?" He contemplated for many years, but did not awaken. Later on he encountered a great noble person and requested for his compassionate guidance. The noble one asked: "What koan did you contemplate?" He replied: "I contemplated what is the original face before my parents were born?" Noble one replied: "You contemplated too far away, should look nearby." He asked: "How should I look nearby?" Noble one replied: "Don't look into what is before your parents were born, need to look at: before a thought arise, what is it?" The Zen practitioner immediately attained great awakening.
Everyone that is sitting here, please look at what is this before a moment of thought's arising? IT is radiating light in front of everybody's [sense] doors, the brightness radiates everything yet is without the slightest clinging, nothing is known and nothing is seen yet it is not similar to wood and stones, what is This? IT is right here shining in its brilliancy, this is awakening to the Way. Therefore it is said, "the great way is not difficult, just cease speech and words"!

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Meditation and Self-Enquiry
I wrote this to my mother today in Chinese about the purpose of practicing and to encourage her to meditate. English translation below.
参禅是要参究本来面目是什么,自性是什么,不是要达到一种境界
是要发现,体悟,什么是自性、觉性。要达到完全没有疑惑才是”悟”
要一切念头断后还要回光返照,我是谁?在觉知的是什么?如果有念头回答是这个那个就错,因为答案不在语言文字,所以把念头舍掉再继续参、回光返照。这是明心最直接的法。
要每天打坐,元音老人叫弟子每天打坐两小时。
如果不能把心静下来到无念,很难开悟。你要想想你最容易把心静下的方法是什么?是打坐吗?还是念佛持咒?什么方法如果能安心都可以,可是要每天修,不能断断续续。
可是无念还不是开悟,达到无念时还要回光返照,找出了了分明的是谁,是什么,才能悟到自性,不然你的打坐只是一种静态,还没悟到自性。
悟到自性后只是明心,还不算是悟性(人法二空之理、登地菩萨),还要继续。所以”明心见性”其实是两个:先明心(真心),后见性。
所以要努力修到明心见性。
六祖慧能说过:不识本心学法无益。
English translation:
Contemplating Zen [Koan] is about inquiring what exactly is our original face, what is our Self-Nature, it is not about achieving a meditative state.
It is rather to discover, to realize, what exactly is our Self-Nature/Awareness. One must reach a state of utter doubtlessness/certainty to be considered '[Self-]Realization'.
After the utter cessation of all thoughts, one must turn one's light around to find out, What am I? What is it that is Aware? If there is a thought which answers 'it is this or that' then that's wrong, because the real answer lies not in words and letters. Therefore cast aside those thoughts and continue inquiring, turning the light around. This is the most direct method to apprehend one's Mind.
You should meditate everyday. Master Yuan Yin asks his student to meditate two hours a day.
If you are unable to quiet your mind to a state of no-thought, it will be difficult to realise. You should think carefully what is the best method for you to still your mind? Is it meditation? Or is it chanting the Buddha's name and reciting mantras? Whatever methods which calms the mind will do, but you have to practice everyday, not only practice intermittently or occasionally.
However, reaching a state of no-thought is not awakening. Upon reaching a state of no-thought, continue turning the light around to find out Who is that which is the Clear Knowingness? What is it? Then you will realise your Self-Nature. Otherwise your meditation is merely a state of stillness, not yet realising Self-Nature.
Realizing Self-Nature is only Apprehending one's Mind, it is not yet realizing Nature [the nature of mind and phenomena] (the principle of the twofold emptiness of persons and phenomena as realized by a first bhumi Bodhisattva), therefore one must continue. Hence, "Apprehending Mind and Realising Nature" consists of two parts: first apprehend one's Mind (True Mind), later realize [Empty] Nature.
Therefore practice hard to Apprehend Mind and Realize Nature.
The Sixth Ch'an Patriarch said: It is useless to learn the dharma without recognising original Mind.


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Mr. C: Hello Soh,


I have been practicing a lot of Self Inquiry during the past week. I’m reaching that thoughtless state and when I inquire “Who’s aware of this experience?” there’s no change. Is just this boundless space where there’s just awareness.

I read your journal and you describe being in a blank and asking “Who is aware of this experience?” and having a experience of being.

I wouldn’t say that the “place” I dwell it’s blank because it is very clear. And there’s a feeling of just being That. But at the same time I don’t feel anything really different in my perception of reality (beyond few thoughts and higher space awareness)

Am I missing something?

Thank you 
 
 
Soh replied: 
 
What you experience is good. Continue inquiring.
 
Session Start: Sunday, 25 October, 2009

(2:07 AM) AEN: just now it occurred to me that the places i've been are hazy like a dream, they come and go.... then i realised my thoughts also are like a dream, they come and go... when i dropped that theres only my own existence and presence left which is real and not hazy at all and doesnt come and go
(2:34 AM) AEN: then for a short while i was only aware of my own existence... until i got distracted :P
(5:16 AM) Thusness: not bad... 🙂 That is the beginning phase of I AM.
(5:19 AM) Thusness: first drop ur thoughts, drop all sort of mental chattering, drop everything, don't think of non-dual. Allow urself to be filled with only this sense of existence. This is the first phase.
(5:19 AM) AEN: icic..
(5:20 AM) Thusness: then u will realize what existence is. 🙂
 
Mr. C:
 
That’s good to hear. I’ll keep working 🙏🏼
You said to keep inquiring, but this advice from Jon about dropping everything and allowing to be filled with sense of existence, to do this I need to stop the Inquiry right?
 
 
To clarify, this state of Being is different from the blank state. If it is the blank state I should keep inquiring but if it is the Being (sense of existence) should I let go of Inquiring? 
 
 
Soh replied:
doesnt mean stop inquiry
i still inquired all the way to February 2010 when I realized I AM
inquiry is supposed to lead to the non-conceptual taste and realization of Existence, so its non contradictory
as long as there is slightest doubt what Existence is then continue inquiry. if you are just resting as Existence then just go into it 
 
 
Mr. C:
Yeah my question is during practice. If I should stop inquiring when I’m just at a state of Being, not a blank state but a very clear Existence.

Thank you Soh! 
 
 
Soh replied:
yes. the purpose of inquiry is not to keep repeating the question but to turn your attention to the Self
 
 
5. Nāṉ Ār? paragraph 6: if or as soon as anything other than ourself appears in our awareness, we should simply turn our attention back towards ourself, the one to whom all other things (all thoughts, forms or phenomena) appear

Regarding your statement, ‘I keep doing the enquiry “to whom these thoughts arise?”, “to me”, “who am I?” but I don’t know what I should do more’, these words, ‘to whom does this appear?’, ‘to me’, ‘who am I?’, are a very useful pointer given by Bhagavan, but we should understand clearly what he meant by this pointer. He did not mean that we should repeat these words to ourself whenever anything appears, but that we should simply turn our attention back to ourself, the one to whom all other things (all thoughts, forms or phenomena) appear. That is, he did not say ‘ask to whom’ or ‘ask who am I’ but ‘investigate to whom’ and ‘investigate who am I’, as he wrote in the following portion of the sixth paragraph of Nāṉ Ār?:

பிற வெண்ணங்க ளெழுந்தா லவற்றைப் பூர்த்தி பண்ணுவதற்கு எத்தனியாமல் அவை யாருக் குண்டாயின என்று விசாரிக்க வேண்டும். எத்தனை எண்ணங்க ளெழினு மென்ன? ஜாக்கிரதையாய் ஒவ்வோ ரெண்ணமும் கிளம்பும்போதே இது யாருக்குண்டாயிற்று என்று விசாரித்தால் எனக்கென்று தோன்றும். நானார் என்று விசாரித்தால் மனம் தன் பிறப்பிடத்திற்குத் திரும்பிவிடும்; எழுந்த வெண்ணமு மடங்கிவிடும். இப்படிப் பழகப் பழக மனத்திற்குத் தன் பிறப்பிடத்திற் றங்கி நிற்கும் சக்தி யதிகரிக்கின்றது.

piṟa v-eṇṇaṅgaḷ eṙundāl avaṯṟai-p pūrtti paṇṇuvadaṟku ettaṉiyāmal avai yārukku uṇḍāyiṉa eṉḏṟu vicārikka vēṇḍum. ettaṉai eṇṇaṅgaḷ eṙiṉum eṉṉa? jāggirataiyāy ovvōr eṇṇamum kiḷambum-pōdē idu yārukku uṇḍāyiṯṟu eṉḏṟu vicārittāl eṉakkeṉḏṟu tōṉḏṟum. nāṉ-ār eṉḏṟu vicārittāl maṉam taṉ piṟappiḍattiṟku-t tirumbi-viḍum; eṙunda v-eṇṇamum aḍaṅgi-viḍum. ippaḍi-p paṙaga-p paṙaga maṉattiṟku-t taṉ piṟappiḍattil taṅgi niṟgum śakti y-adhikarikkiṉḏṟadu.

If other thoughts rise, without trying to complete them it is necessary to investigate to whom they have occurred. However many thoughts rise, what [does it matter]? Vigilantly, as soon as each thought appears, if one investigates to whom it has occurred, it will be clear: to me. If one investigates who am I [by vigilantly attending to oneself, the ‘me’ to whom everything else appears], the mind will return to its birthplace [namely oneself, the source from which it arose]; [and since one thereby refrains from attending to it] the thought that had risen will also cease. When one practises and practises in this manner, for the mind the power to stand firmly established in its birthplace increases.

The verb he used here that I have translated as ‘investigate’ is விசாரி (vicāri), which in some contexts can mean enquire in the sense of ask, but in this context means enquire only in the sense of investigate. Asking questions is a mental activity, because it entails directing our attention away from ourself towards a question, which is a thought and hence other than ourself, so as long as we are asking questions we are still floating on the surface of the mind by attending to things other than ourself, whereas investigating ourself means being keenly self-attentive, which causes the mind to sink deep within and thereby return to its ‘birthplace’, the source from which it had risen, namely our real nature (ātma-svarūpa), which is our fundamental and ever-shining awareness of our own existence, ‘I am’.

Therefore what Bhagavan is pointing out in this passage is the direction in which we should send our attention. Instead of allowing our attention to go out following whatever thoughts may arise, we should turn it back towards ourself, the one to whom all thoughts appear. ‘To whom?’ is not intended to be a question that we should ask ourself but is a very powerful pointer indicating where we should direct our attention. Asking the question ‘to whom?’ may sometimes be an aid if it helps to remind us to turn our attention back towards ourself, but self-investigation (ātma-vicāra) is not merely asking such questions but only fixing our attention on ourself alone.

Another point worth noting here is that what Bhagavan means by ‘thought’ is anything other than our fundamental awareness ‘I am’, so it includes all perceptions, memories, feelings, ideas and other mental impressions of any kind whatsoever. As he says in the fourth paragraph of Nāṉ Ār?, ‘நினைவுகளைத் தவிர்த்து ஜகமென்றோர் பொருள் அன்னியமா யில்லை’ (niṉaivugaḷai-t tavirttu jagam eṉḏṟu ōr poruḷ aṉṉiyam-āy illai), ‘Excluding thoughts, there is not separately any such thing as world’, and in the fourteenth paragraph, ‘ஜக மென்பது நினைவே’ (jagam eṉbadu niṉaivē), ‘What is called the world is only thought’, so when he says here ‘பிற வெண்ணங்க ளெழுந்தால்’ (piṟa v-eṇṇaṅgaḷ eṙundāl), ‘If other thoughts rise’, or ‘ஒவ்வோ ரெண்ணமும் கிளம்பும்போதே’ (ovvōr eṇṇamum kiḷambum-pōdē), ‘As soon as each thought appears’, he means that if or as soon as anything other than ourself appears in our awareness, we should turn our attention back towards ourself, the one to whom all such things appear.

6. If we are vigilantly self-attentive, as we should try to be, we will thereby ward off both thoughts and sleep, but when we are tired we are naturally less vigilant, so we may then fall asleep as a result of our trying to be self-attentive

You ask, ‘Should I keep doing Self-Enquiry all day for hours in seated position? Should I continue the enquiry in bed as well before sleep? Or should I stop the enquiry from time to time to give some rest to the body?’ Firstly, self-investigation has nothing to do with the body, so we can practise it whether the body is lying, sitting, standing, walking or doing anything else. For the same reason, we do not have to stop being self-attentive in order to give some rest to the body, because being self-attentive cannot strain the body in any way. In fact, when the body and mind are resting is a very favourable condition for us to be self-attentive.

Regarding your question about continuing the practice in bed before sleep, that is also good, but since we are generally very tired at that time, we usually subside into sleep soon after trying to be self-attentive. There is no harm in that, because when we need to sleep we should sleep. There is no time and no circumstance that is not suitable for us to be self-attentive, so we should try to be self-attentive as much as possible whatever the time or circumstances may be, but we should not try to deprive ourself of however much sleep we may need.

If we are vigilantly self-attentive, as we should try to be, we will thereby ward off both thoughts and sleep, but when we are tired we are naturally less vigilant, so we may then fall asleep as a result of our trying to be self-attentive. As Sadhu Om often used to say, when we are sleepy we should sleep, because when we wake up again we will be fresh, and we should then make use of that freshness by trying to be vigilantly self-attentive.

I do not know whether anything I have written here is of any use to you, but I hope some of it at least may help to point you in the right direction.

7. What the word ‘I’ essentially refers to is only what is aware, so if we are just being aware of what is aware, we are thereby meditating on ‘I’

In reply to my first reply (which I adapted as the previous six sections) my friend wrote again about how he was trying to practise self-enquiry and the problems he was facing, in reply to which I wrote:

When you say ‘The practice of Self-Enquiry, especially in seated position (just being aware of awareness itself, not meditating in any object or form etc, simply just being, not even “I” in the “I am”) boosted my kundalini’, it is not clear to me what you are actually practising, because you say you are ‘just being aware of awareness itself’ but then seem to say that you are not meditating even on ‘I’. Meditating on ‘I’ means attending only to yourself, or in other words, just being self-attentive, so if you are not meditating on ‘I’, what do you mean by saying that you are ‘just being aware of awareness itself’?

In this context ‘awareness’ means what is aware, and what is aware is always aware of itself as ‘I’, so what the word ‘I’ essentially refers to is only what is aware. Therefore if you are not meditating on ‘I’, what is the ‘awareness’ that you are being aware of? Unfortunately ‘awareness’ is a potentially ambiguous term, because it could be taken to mean awareness in the sense of awareness of objects or phenomena, so when you are ‘just being aware of awareness itself’, are you just being aware of what is aware, namely yourself, or are you being aware of your awareness of objects or phenomena?

If you are being aware only of what is aware, namely yourself, then you are meditating on ‘I’. That is, what you are meditating on is not the word ‘I’, but what the word ‘I’ refers to, namely yourself, who are what is aware. If you are not meditating on what the word ‘I’ refers to, then whatever ‘awareness’ you are being aware of is something other than what is aware.

This is why Bhagavan gave us the powerful pointer ‘to whom’, about which I wrote in my previous reply. If we understand this pointer correctly, it is directing our attention back towards ourself, the one to whom all other things appear. In other words, it is pointing our attention back to what is aware, away from whatever we were hitherto aware of.

If you are aware of any phenomenon, such as the boosting of your kuṇḍalinī, your attention has been diverted away from yourself, so you need to turn it back to yourself, the one to whom all phenomena appear. If you turn your attention back to yourself and hold firmly to yourself (that is, if you just remain firmly self-attentive), whatever phenomena may have appeared will thereby disappear, because no phenomenon can appear or remain in your awareness unless you attend to it at least to a certain extent.

8. No matter what may distract us or seem a problem to us, let us not be concerned about them but just patiently and persistently continue trying to be self-attentive, unmindful of everything else

Regarding the boosting of your kuṇḍalinī you say, ‘By boosting I mean that I feel an energy in the spine passing through the chakras’, but the energy, the spine, the cakras and the energy’s movement are all objects or phenomena, so you should ignore all such things by trying to be keenly self-attentive. However much such things appear, they need not concern you. To whom do they appear? Only to you, so you should just persevere in trying to attend only to yourself.

Whatever may appear or disappear is other than ourself, so it should not interest or concern us. Such things distract us and become a problem for us only to the extent that we take interest in them or are concerned about them. Why should we be concerned about them? Our only concern should be to investigate and know what we ourself are. If we are not interested in or concerned about anything else, we will not attend to them, and hence they will not be a problem.

If we find ourself being concerned about such things and therefore distracted by them, that is due to the strength of our viṣaya-vāsanās, and the most effective means to weaken our viṣaya-vāsanās and thereby wean our mind off its interest in all other things is just to persevere in this simple practice of being self-attentive. Therefore, no matter what may distract us or seem a problem to us, let us not be concerned about them but just patiently and persistently continue trying to be self-attentive, unmindful of everything else.
 
 
 
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Mr C: Yeah, it seems that I was still inquiring even when I was aware of Being. That's why I was feeling stuck.

I will now Inquire only there's something othar than "myself" appearing.

This pointer "To whom?" is really good. Short and direct.

Thank you!
Hey Soh, just wanna say that those last instructions made a huge difference.

Practice now is really sharp and asking “To whom?” has been the perfect inquiry to return to Being.

Outside formal practice the sense of self is expanding everywhere even though there was no “eureka” moment yet. There’s a feel of awareness being 360 degrees specially behind my head and shoulders. 
 
 
Soh: (thumbs up) 
 
Told someone something similar today: 
 
[5:19 PM, 8/4/2021] Mr. W: Trying to find the unfindable "me"...

"Where" the hell is this "awareness" if it is not inside my head?
[7:03 PM, 8/4/2021] Soh Wei Yu: If you are trying to locate it in your field of experience thats like looking in the display for the screen. Looking for the experiencer in the experience. I AM realization is the realization of You, so you don’t look for You outside anywhere
[7:03 PM, 8/4/2021] Soh Wei Yu: Find out to whom does head and everything appear to/in
[7:05 PM, 8/4/2021] Mr. W: I suppose that's being aware of being aware?
[7:06 PM, 8/4/2021] Soh Wei Yu: You can say so. Turn your attention around to realize what You/Awareness is
[7:11 PM, 8/4/2021] Mr. W: Yah, will focus on this
[7:11 PM, 8/4/2021] Mr. W: As in one of your recent comments... it's not an intellectual questioning yah?
[7:24 PM, 8/4/2021] Soh Wei Yu: You need to investigate but investigation is not verbally repeating a question
[7:24 PM, 8/4/2021] Soh Wei Yu: Investigate means you distinguish what is you and what is not you
[7:25 PM, 8/4/2021] Soh Wei Yu: Then you turn away from the not you to realise you
[7:25 PM, 8/4/2021] Soh Wei Yu: All these is done in a non verbal manner
[7:35 PM, 8/4/2021] Mr. W: I know the answer is the one that is aware of experience. But what is missing?
[8:06 PM, 8/4/2021] Soh Wei Yu: Realization comes with total certainty and direct taste
[8:25 PM, 8/4/2021] Mr. W: Okay, keep trying. Hope the Eureka moment happens sooner rather than later.
 
 
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As Jayson pointed out, with any of these perceptions, experiences you can simply inquire “who is the one perceiving?” Then look “there.”  Also can just notice the vantage FROM which you seem to be perceiving each experience and rest there.  Often this comes with a sort of stepwise inward moving experience but hold that description loosely. When you come to a truly contentless experience there will be nothing to do no where specific to look and an alertness to any arising thought or perception which will be immediately discounted as such. Once this is clear there’s not a lot more to do but stay with it, stay alert but don’t strain. There are a few expected “reactions” at this point one being physiologic fear/terror. If it comes and you remain in thoughtless clarity it will pass.  Practice this way and let me know what you find.  I’ve worked with a handful of people in exactly the way you are practicing in last couple weeks who all broke through.  You got this. But you gotta go where you no longer know where you are 😉

 

- Angelo Dilullo

 

“Inquiry for First Awakening 


The inquiry that leads to first awakening is a funny thing.  We want to know “how” precisely to do that inquiry, which is completely understandable.  The thing is that it’s not wholly conveyable by describing a certain technique.  Really it’s a matter of finding that sweet spot where surrender and intention meet.  I will describe an approach here, but it’s important to keep in mind that in the end, you don’t have the power (as what you take yourself to be) to wake yourself up.  Only Life has that power.  So as we give ourselves to a certain inquiry or practice it’s imperative that we remain open.  We have to keep the portals open to mystery, and possibility.  We have to recognize that the constant concluding that “no this isn’t it, no this isn’t it either...” is simply the activity of the mind.  Those are thoughts.  If we believe a single thought then we will believe the next one and on and on.  If however we recognize that, “oh that doubt is simply a thought arising now,” then we have the opportunity to recognize that that thought will subside on its own... and yet “I” as the knower of that thought am still here!  We can now become fascinated with what is here once that thought (or any thought) subsides.  What is in this gap between thoughts?  What is this pure sense of I, pure sense of knowing, pure sense of Being?  What is this light that can shine on and illuminate a thought (as it does thousands of times per day), and yet still shines when no thought is present.  It is self illuminating.  What is the nature of the one that notices thoughts, is awake and aware before, during, and after a thought, and is not altered in any way by any thought?  Please understand that when you ask these questions you are not looking for a thought answer, the answer is the experience itself.  


When we start to allow our attention to relax into this wider perspective we start to unbind ourselves from thought.  We begin to recognize the nature of unbound consciousness by feel, by instinct.  This is the way in.  


At first we may conclude that this gap, this thoughtless consciousness is uninteresting, unimportant.  It feels quite neutral, and the busy mind can’t do anything with neutral so we might be inclined to purposely engage thoughts again.  If we recognize that “not interesting, not important, not valuable” are all thoughts and simply return to this fluid consciousness, it will start to expand.  But there is no need to think about expansion or watch for it.  It will do this naturally if we stay with it.   If you are willing to recognize every thought and image in the mind as such, and keep your attention alert but relaxed into the “stuff” of thought that is continuous with the sense of I, it will all take care of itself.  Just be willing to suspend judgement.  Be willing to forego conclusions.  Be willing to let go of all monitoring of your progress, because these are all thoughts.  Be open to the pure experience.  Just return again and again to this place of consciousness with no object or pure sense of I Am.  If you are willing to do this it will teach itself to you in a way that neither I nor anyone I’ve ever seen can explain, but it is more real than real.  


Happy Travels.


Art by: Platon Yurich”

- Angelo Dilullo