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Question The insight of Anatta in actual experience, meaning day to day, came by way of Bahiya Sutta. The insight through actual experience. In contemplating it in the back yard casually. The initial insight was in meditation pushing the mind to see what came Before its identity. Meaning I went in memory looking for a me and when I found it I asked what was Before. That led to the unraveling of identity and booted me from always in thoughts past present future and spit me out here. Then there is a a though of "nothing is happening" and seeing that everything is perfect and unfolding. Not good no bad not neutral either. There is still this effort to attain something. To make Anatta a permanent everyday moment to moment experience. There is the sense of me left. Just a sense. What do I do and how to do it? I had a dream that I asked you this question And the answer was clear There are only thoughts the cover this up and the clarity is already so. That* Fundamentally I know experience has something false, ME. But it keeps reinforcing the sense of me. Be straight, tell me as it is. Direct. Please.
Soh replied:
Bahiya sutta must be realised as pointing to what is always already the case, not a state or a stage. In seeing, always already, only the seen, seeing is merely the seen, never a seer. Same for all other senses. This must be seen..
I will say more later.. having dinner now 🙂
Mr C:
Ok. I'm dropping the kids to school. Thanks
Soh replied:
So when you contemplate on bahiya sutta, try not to treat it as a stage to attain. But rather a pointer, a koan, to investigate the nature of reality, mind, consciousness and phenomena Meaning when engaged in the act of seeing, investigate and challenge the very view and sense of being a seer or a seeing that exists behind or besides the seen Is there a seer seeing? Is seeing anything besides colors or is it just colors? Does the seer seeing seen paradigm truly apply to reality or it is just another linguistic construct much like “the wind is blowing” or “the lightning is flashing”, where language moulds a vivid appearance into entities, agents and actions… but in truth both “lightning” and “flash” are simply two words imputed on a single activity or happening? Likewise is there a “knowing” besides “known” or is it just another linguistic construct like lightning and flash, wind and blowing? There is no wind besides blowing, no lightning besides flash, no seer or seeing besides colors and no hearer or hearing besides sound Is this the case? So we look into our experience and challenge and investigate whether this is so until a paradigm shifting insight arises that cuts through all doubts and delusion.. and “in the seen just the seen” is realised to be what is always already the case, never was there a seer Doer doing deed… hearer hearing heard… sensor sensing sensed. All these can be investigated the same way
Mr C: It is. It's a constant cycle Seeing so then going back it lol and cycling through again. But there is that fundamental dissatisfaction. Only when it's seen, meaning contemplating the sutta and result does that goes. Then, it cycles again. It gets easier and easier. But man.....
Soh replied:
Now supposed sense of self arise. What do you suppose is the difference between how sense of self is seen in light of the insight of anatta? Any difference before and after?
Mr C: It's hollow No substance. Transparent. Before it was indistinguishable. Could not see it. The center to which everything happened to.
Soh replied:
Yes.. so before insight of anatta, Self is not hollow or substanceless. It is seen to be real, actual, truly existing by its own side. You feel that you truly are an agent, a self, a Self.
If insight is clear, there is no doer or doing besides deed or hearer or hearing besides sound. Likewise sense of self is also not an agent but merely a “being done without doer” activity. It is just an activity of grasping without truly a true grasper and grasped. So until this is clearly seen, one should contemplate. When seen just remain in equipoise.. and refine one’s view into dependent origination and twofold emptiness
Mr C: Now, there are happenings. Sounds are crisps and of their own. Same with each sense Ok.
Mr C: That came by way that there is just experience. The first experience by way of memory and unraveling. Reading the above. I was watching the vid you posted. Very clear and confirming. A alot of this I have no context for. That helped immensely Seeing that the bahiya sutta is a pointer to the nature of reality instead of a place or stage to try and get too. Just that subtle shift was of great help.
Buddhism Plain and Simple page 115, by Zen Teacher Steve Hagen:
With
the two types of views there are two kinds of minds. As human beings,
we all have what we could call ordinary minds - the mind that you've
always assumed you've had. It's a calculating mind, a discriminating
mind, a fragmented mind. It's the mind of ordinary consciousness, the
mind of self and other. We generally think of it as "my mind."
But
there's another mind that is unborn, ungrown, and unconditioned. Unlike
"your mind," it is unbound, for there is nothing beyond it. To this
Mind, there is no "other mind."
This
Mind is nothing other than the Whole. It's simply thus, the fabric of
the world itself - the ongoing arising and falling away that are matter,
energy and events.
Speaking of this Mind, the great Chinese Zen master Huang Po said,
All
buddhas and ordinary people are just One Mind... This Mind is beyond
all measurements, names, oppositions: this very being is It; as soon as
you stir your mind you turn away from It.
This
Mind is self-evident - it's always switched on, so to speak. We can -
and, in fact, we do - see It in every moment. If we would refrain from
stirring our minds (rest our frontal lobes, as my Zen teacher used to
say) and let our conceptualising die down, like the ripples on a pond
after the stirring wind has ceased, we would realise - we would know
Mind directly.
(Steve Hagen)
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.
.
Ultimate
Truth, on the other hand, is direct perception. And what is directly
perceived (as opposed to conceive) is that no separate, individualised
things exist as such. There's nothing to be experienced but this
seamless, thoroughgoing relativity and flux.
In other words, there are no particulars, but only thus.
....
When
the Buddha spoke of individuals, he often used a different term:
"stream." Imagine a stream flowing-eonstantly moving and changing,
always different from one moment to the next. Most of us see ourselves
as corks floating in a stream, persisting things moving along in the
stream of time. But this is yet another frozen view.
According
to this view, everything in the stream changes except the cork. While
we generally admit to changes in our body, our mind, our thoughts, our
feelings, our understandings, and our beliefs, we still believe, "I
myself don't change. I'm still me. I'm an unchanging cork in an
ever-changing stream." This is precisely what we believe the self to
be-something that doesn't change.
The
fact is, however, that there are no corks in the stream. There is only
stream. What we conceptualize as "cork" is also stream. We are like
music. Music, after all, is a type of stream. Music exists only in
constant flow and flux and change. Once the movement stops, the music is
no more. It exists not as a particular thing, but as pure coming and
going with no thing that comes or goes.
Look
at this carefully. If this is true-how a stream exists, how music
exists, and how we exist-see how it is that when we insert the notion of
"I" we've posited some little, solid entity that floats along, not as
stream, but like a cork in a stream. We see ourselves as solid corks,
not as the actual stream we are.
If
we are the stream, what is it that experiences the flux, the flow, the
change? The Buddha saw that there is no particular thing that is having
an experience. There is experience, but no experiencer. There is
perception, but no perceiver. There is consciousness, but no self that
can be located or identified.
“The
next understanding you must have after anatta and emptiness is to know
that all qualities similar to those that are described and sounded
ontological are always manifesting presently, spontaneously and
effortlessly after the purification of anatta and emptiness insights.
That is, spontaneous arising is not just saying responding
automatically. It is the manifestation of these blissful characteristics
of nature spontaneously. Non-arising, unmoving, unchanging, pristiness,
clarity... spontaneously present” – John Tan, 2009
“Mr.
T: I cannot find a ground a base, to identify with, everything is
changing constantly. Arising and passing away. All of experience, where
do I stand?
Kyle
Dixon: Arising and passing away are characteristics of conditioned
phenomena. As practitioners of the buddhadharma, our aim is to fully
realize the unconditioned nature of phenomena, free of arising and
cessation. That natural and perfect nature, is the true refuge.
Upon realizing that nature, the Buddha stated the following:
I
have obtained the ambrosia of Dharma,� profound, peaceful, immaculate,
luminous and unconditioned. �Even though I explain it, no one will
understand, �I think I will remain in the forest without speaking. �Free
from words, untrained by speech,� suchness, the nature of Dharma, is
like space� free from the movements of mind and intellect, �supreme,
amazing, the sublime knowledge. �Always like space, �nonconceptual,
luminous, �the teaching without periphery or center �is expressed in
this Dharmawheel. �Free from existence and nonexistence,� beyond self
and nonself, �the teaching of natural nonarising �is expressed in this
Dharmawheel.
— The Ārya-lalitavistara-nāma-mahāyāna-sūtra” – Kyle Dixon, 2021
His
comment on not having views is important. A view sets up a refuge of a
temporal permanence. I have them. It is a world view. If we get down to
what the view really is it's more that a thought. It's a feeling
associated with it.
For
example I feel a certain way about anti-vaxxers. I have this view which
is really a feeling that they are ignorant. But that feeling is dislike
or disgust. It is a subtle tension around the eyes down into the the
gut. This view can lead to thoughts of reasonings.
A view is my reality right now.
I
have a view when I perceive an attractive person. I like their looks.
It occurs to me to they would be a desirable mate. That view exists
entirely in my imagination but certainly I feel that attraction. I
certainly identify with that perception feeling. My eyes might not be
directed at the person but my peripheral vision has them located while
all others are blurred out. It is a very temporal experience. And it's
my view that they are attractive at this time and place. While they
maybe attractive to another person our attractions on examination don't
match completely on all points. We slightly different views yet mostly
agree. That's politics, religion and ideologies.
The
most crucial views to penetrate is the false view of 'existence' and
'non-existence'. Because that is the root of all grasping and suffering.
You cannot grasp 'something' unless it is established to be existent
(an attractive person, for example) or that existent thing becomes
non-existent (such as the death of a loved one). Non-existence of
something depends on apprehending an existent to begin with. What is
non-arisen or has never originated to begin with cannot end up in
non-existence. The extremes of existence and non-existence is the
essential ignorance which reifies all self and phenomena into apparent
reality, which is samsara.
Freedom
from extremes and the viewless view of emptiness however does not
necessarily mean exactly having no views. Even Buddha had views which
may be considered religious or even political (just a quick example: he
was against the Brahmanic interpretation of the caste system, he did not
support the caste system but was pro equality of all castes). But of
course he is not attached to these views as he simply had no attachments
whatsoever (otherwise he cannot be called a Buddha or an Arahant). Some
views, be it religious, political, ideological, can be harmful and must
be refuted strongly. Such as the anti-vax ideology. That is however not
an excuse to have hate for these people. Instead, we should feel more
compassion for them. However to shun politics/ideology can be another
form of spiritual bypassing. Spirituality is not an escapism from the
mundane, it is full engagement and full involvement without attachment.
Politics is one of the many arenas of mundane life, and even if you may
be politically apathetic, we do exercise our voting rights in a
democratic country. Spiritual life and mundane life are not two.
“Actually
there is no forcing. All the 4 aspects in I AMness are fully expressed
in anatta as I told you. If aliveness is everywhere, how is one not to
engage… it is a natural [tendency] to explore in [various] arena[s] and
enjoy in business, family, spiritual practices... I [am] involve[d] in
Finance, business, society, nature, spirituality, yoga....
I don't find it efforting… You just don't have to boast about this and
that and be non-dual and open.” - John Tan/Thusness, 2019
[10:43
PM, 6/6/2020] John Tan: There are two folds to it. Any view is
ultimately empty... But freeing one from constructs and
conceptualization has a different meaning to me. Like when see through
self, we realized anatta. It is not the freeing, but must also involves
the arising insight and wisdom.
I
think I mentioned I am not into without view. The freeing from seeing
through self is not a form of "not knowing", contrary it is deep wisdom
that allows one to understand our nature directly.”
From Dharmawheel, Dzogchen teacher Acarya Malcolm Smith says Madhyamaka is not a simple minded “I have no view” proposition:
“gad rgyangs wrote:
He clearly says in the VV that he has no view to defend. Do you think he was wrong about himself?
Malcolm wrote:
He
states in the VV that he has no propositions/thesis concerning svabhāva
as defined by his opponents. He does not say he has no views at all.
For example, he clearly states in the MMK that he prefers the Sammitya
view of karma.
Your
claim is similar to the mistaken assertion made by some who claim that
Candrakirti never resorts to syllogisms, which in fact he clearly does
in the opening lines of the MAV. What Candra disputes is not syllogistic
reasoning in its entirety, but rather, syllogistic reasoning applied to
emptiness.
Likewise,
he clearly asserts the view in the VV that there is no svabhāva in
phenomena. Madhyamaka is not a simple minded "I have no view"
proposition.
...
"Madhyamaka is not a simple minded "I have no view" proposition."
...
gad rgyangs wrote:
then why does the MMK end thusly? MMK 27.30:
I salute Gautama, who, based on compassion,
taught the true Dharma for the abandonment of all views.
Malcolm wrote:
"All views" here is summarized as two in chapter fifteen: i.e. substantial existence and nonexistence.”
“The
purpose of the view is to open the mind up fully without background,
duality and inherency. So that experience is fully open, direct,
immediate and without boundaries. Chariot and its basis are not a cause
and effect relationship, they originate in dependence.” - John Tan, 2019
“The
truth of the matter is that “pacification of views” is directly related
to the realization of emptiness. If you have not realized emptiness,
then you have no business talking about a lack of view, because you
still perceive conditioned phenomena and are therefore cognitively
endowed with “views.” Those views can only be pacified through directly
realizing non-arising.
For
some reason you mistakenly believe that “no view” means something like
withholding a view, but it has nothing at all to do with that.” – Kyle
Dixon, 2021
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